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Struggling with an eating disorder and recovery for about a decade now, and I'm trying to create healthy exercise and eating habits for myself. I'm currently on day 6 of Chloe Tings get fit challenge and it was an active rest day yesterday. My ed wanted me to workout more/burn more calories and instead I spent some time with my sister. During today's workout however, I became very frustrated with my body trying to perform an exercise, as I have back and joint problems (partially genes but also from starving myself in the past).

Recovery is so hard just when I think I have some aspect under control itll pop up again. And everything becomes too much

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If you wish your parents had hit you and left marks on you, it means they already hurt you worse than that and you only wish you had any proof. If they put you in situation where you wish you have been physically harmed, it means you’re already tortured beyond that. Invisible abuse is worst to fight with and hardest to prove. Them getting into your head and taking away your point of view leaves deeper scar than injuries could. You’ve already been abused bad enough.

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cptsd,

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AFTER EVERYTHING? HOW DARE YOU

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Ah the holiday season is approaching and you know what that means... an intense battle of wanting to eat like a normal person versus my eating disorder and major depression topped with seasonal

Yay 🙃

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No one will be as disappointed in me as I am

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All right here we go

🌵CW 128

🌵GW1 120

🌵GW2 115

🌵GW3 110

🌵UWG 105

🌵Ult. UWG 95

LETS FUCKING DO THIS

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stay safe babes ♡

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SOME THINSPO 🧡💛

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thinspo : you‘ll get there, don’t stop

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BURGUNDY AESTHETIC

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green thinspo

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All black thinspo ✨🖤

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More malespo 🌑

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thinspo // stripey clothes

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Lowkey worried about moving to my new place this summer since I'm by myself fasting and restricting will be easier but also I wish I was past this by now