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My new online dating norm

Due to recent events regarding trust that was greatly violated any online dating I have now it’s almost going to be like a vetting process. Although I can’t expect you to show me your ID. Our relationship will not last if you aren’t willing to have a video chat with me via discord. There is no reason as to why you can’t. If you have internet, and a phone or a PC. Then I should be able to see your face and movement. Catfishing is a very real thing. You don’t want it to happen to you, and I don’t want it to happen to me. Honesty is number one to me, start telling me the truth, and tell me early. Changing your story at any part in our relationship is a big red flag to me. Showing me pictures I already can find of you online is also a big red flag. Pictures should be recent and something you are sharing with me. You should be able to talk with me daily. Text is okay, but more than not it should be voice chat. Weekends should be longer chats. I understand being closed off, but not to the point where I am doing all the talking. Our time is our time. Not TV time, or discord with other people time. Also, I will never again be okay with having other people going on your account for any reason ever. I will not ever be in contact with you again.

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I thought I wrote this, but I guess not.

What I am am looking for whenever I date again. My birthday is 02/13/1982. I would prefer not dating any younger than ten years from that or fifteen older. We can talk. I would really prefer from the United States. Long distance is hard enough, but then again, another country is really hard. We can talk.I I also need to be able to talk to you. Texting is cool, but I mean, if we aren't dating face to face discord. I also can't go from begging for five minutes and not getting it, to still nothing. What if i really need you? If i get emotionally distraught? I need to hear your voice, if only for a little. I understand busy I do. Though if you can't spare at least five minutes, something seems off to me. Talk to me, tell me why. Communication is the key to any relationship, I really want my next one to work. Talk with me, and be honest. That is the most important thing to me. We can do this together ❤️

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Ex’s Boyfriends plus one girlfriend and what character they make me think of

Ex’s Boyfriends plus one girlfriend and what character they make me think of

Does Mike really count? Humm Mike… my first… very shy I think I liked his brother more we literary were kids- lisa Simpson not as smart though.

Chris god the aol chatroom boyfriend/phone clingy but didn’t want to hear what I had to say just wanted to hear me talk like someone else on this list… anyway… I think he would be like Spike from Buffy he was good looking, kind enough until he wasn’t. Hot headed also.

Tyron, I think the sweetest of them all. Just so very shy. So shy in fact he talked less than me. When too people with very high anxiety come together it’s hard to really do anything. We met in gym class high school, those mussels wow. He used to compete and was very strong.. so was I >< He was very sweet, it was just we weren’t talking, that is very important to me. He makes me think of hummm? Sandman if you know, you know.

Anthony oh dear… let’s make this short. “I never had enough for our dates because the night before I went to the arcade with my friend every damn time” I don’t mind paying for myself but come on, and I can only do you come up with something so many times.

He made me think a LOT of my father but the character Amy from Sonic I don’t know just does.

Ok my MewMew I won’t say her name because >< she is wonderful I just wish we could talk..talk she makes me think of Rukia Kuchiki

Then Mmmmhhh huh? I won’t say HIS name he’ll throw a hissy fit… so mmmmhh lol It was good until it wasn’t I think he has a fear of many things he won’t admit to him self and blames others. So, he gets very, very mad. Maybe first at others, then I think him self whatever. He sees himself as L from deathnote I don’t. I see him more as Pippin lol I honestly think he has NO clue who that is I think only my sister and I know who that is. Okay up to date.

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If I ever EVER online dated again, I would totally consider Manly. ok, so first off, I have no clue if he is single or annnnnything lol this was a joke

However,if I ever did ever online, I will date again. From now on, I have a much better idea what I guess I would need to say. I am looking for upfront. Availability; I would like that person to be available for me. I don't mean dropping everything all the time. I understand busy , but if you can't even talk to me for five minutes a day, then what is the point? That should never blow back in my face, either. Your girlfriend wanting to talk to you isn't blackmail it's normal. I don't mean text. I mean talking on like discord. I can understand if you can't do that every day but not at all during the week, but never? The weekends would be nice unless you have more time. More time with me talking. Emotionally available, what do I mean by that? I mean, you can talk about comfortably your feelings positive, negative whatever. In your own time, and I will give you time, but be open with me, please. Also, please, I would love to not be the only one talking. I can't tell you how many times that has happened to me. You can always have questions ready to go. I don't care.

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I think I won in all this. If this had lasted any longer, it would have ended worse, and he still would have found a way to make it all my fault

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My heatrt will mend in time

I feel like I was in a hit and run relationship or it was a test run for him, but it wasn’t for me. For me it meant a lot and it was gone in an instant how unfair, how cold. I don’t think I or anyone deserved that. He was very emotionally unavailable I don’t think he ever will be. I am not perfect no one is, but I didn’t deserve that. When you give your whole heart, you should get one back in return I didn’t. Unforgiveable I will recover in time, but my trust thins more and more each time.

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So I have high anxiety, and when I was a lot younger, I had self-esteem issues. So after putting a lot of work into that. I never want to revert backward only forwards. Recently, though, my self-esteem issues have been coming back when I feel like someone you would expect to be highly interested in me is disinterested in me. I'm not talking about psychically but emotionally. I feel lost a bit or more than a bit disappointed. I want to work on it, and I just hope i am not alone on this.

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So long ass story short. If (I never remember your fucken name) so I'll call you NASCARBOY ever was my friend that's debatable. If Chey either didn't convince you... "and" Denny to do what you did and say you didn't know me prior to everything. Where you "both" clearly did. At least one of you would still be in my life. Because think of how Chey treats Chey's friend. During and after. Not very kindly. Before everything when I had no idea the kind of person Chey was I tried very hard to be there for Chey. Not once was Chey there for me. Chey keep changing Chey's story, but I gave Chey the benefit of the doubt. I shouldn't have. I however always try to be their for my friends. I don't make them yield like Chey does. I wouldn't assign a parental role to myself. To fragile teens. Have them call me mommy. Make them feel shame. Roll play scenarios just as bad as their home life's. I would do what I was doing with Chey. Listen be there for Chey. I don't crop a tiny bit of a post to sway things to look better for me like her little "gang" does. Not well either. When Chey did post the whole thing. Chey looked worse not better trying to make a point. Chey lies a LOT. I use my one alt to report. Chey, and her mindless followers use there's to do whatever Chey says. Chey repeats over, and over with no point made. Chey WILL isolate all friends based on how controlling, and vindictive they are. The people whom call Chey "mommy" now it's only a matter of time Chey will be angered by them as well, and they will be treated worse then I, and "James" ever was. That is what Chey does. Chey doesn't, and will not get the help needed.

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Let's see how quickly I get blocked

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This is what I have to say.

You made your bed now lay in it

You had a chance to talk not once but twice

You said no. Was a ass.

So I could not forgive you. I am sure I would. We may never know. If you are one who easily gets lonely. Wants someone to talk to who you know has your back,and accepts you for who you are. Was a great friend to you admit it. I loved as a real friend all of you. You took advantage. Shame on you. I even gave you more time then I should have to leave the door open for you. You have proven you need to convince yourself a lie.

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I am really tired, but I am going to try and write what types I like in men and women.

Let's work on men first.

I prefer dark/medium hair color. If you have hair. Green, Hazel light brown eyes. Any color skin. Any hight. Under 400 pounds. None smoker. Same with females for smoking. Marijuana is ok. I like butts

Anime anime anime

Pro choice, antTrump. Ok if my weight goes up or down. Is fine with all of the LGBTQ+ community.

Females

No preference in hair color. Or eye color. I really don't like unnatural big breasted. A cute button nose would be nice. Plus besides the looks. The rest the same.

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