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I don’t even know why I write on this anymore, it’s not as if anyone cares aha! The one form of social media I can truely be free on.. currently in the hospital after another failed attempt.. a fail at everything, even killing myself.. again!

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Debating

So right now am currently debating killing myself I genuinely don’t think anyone would even notice I was gone, ad prob lie dead in my house for weeks.. that’s not fair on who ever has to clean it.

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Baw hair away from a breakdown a swear😐

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World suicide day

So it’s world suicide day and all I want to do is kill myself, currently sitting in hospital with my friend who’s not well and all I can think about is how I wish it was me on the bed n not her.. brings back memories from last year when I did try to commit. I feel evil even wanting that am I just that fucked up?

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Hmmm

I genuinely wish I had the guts to post on Facebook how I feel like how I do on this but nobody would care aha! I mean let’s be honest I don’t have the balls to try commit again but I sure feel like it🙃🙃🙃

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#itsokaynottobeokay

Hahaha I’ve not been okay since I was 12.. people don’t give a fuck til your dead🙄😐

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So a few weeks ago I tried to kill myself and failed.. sucks to be me yet again! Why can’t I do anything right!🙄

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It's over.

So things with my best friend of nine years hasn't went well, Infact I would no longer class her as my friend, she is one twisted spiteful little cow and I'm so glad I have seen her true colours I'm just so angry it took this long to find out. She flung everything back in my face after everything and I am so so done with her!!

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Fuck yes! A million times yes!!!!!

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Sometimes I don’t feel like continuing to live. I don’t want to kill myself, I just want it all to stop or go away.

I want to be calm.

I want to be happy again.

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I'm honestly struggling so much to find the will to live these days, literally nothing in my life is good and all I think about is suicide, I'm totally sick and tired of everything within my life.

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I havent felt this crappy in a long time! feeling ever so lonely in a world full of people.