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crazy suggestion, but hear me out:

i stuff my cock in you and we go from there :)

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sorry for grunting gutturally when i came inside you doggy style do you still want me to do it again

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do u like inexperienced girls 🥹

always room for teaching 😉

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going on a little bit of a quick vent/dump?? i guess?

TW: negative sexual encounters

sometime in the summer of this year i had my first sexual experience with a guy. i was really excited for it and i was also nervous since i had never been with anyone who even presented as male before.

i guess i just have really shit luck with sex and sexual partners because it was pretty bad. like the actual act of fucking him wasn't the worst, but i just was not comfortable at all. [just a note that EVERYTHING was CONSENSUAL]

some of the names he was calling me did not make me feel good at all and the way i felt afterwards was worse than i have felt in a very long time about myself and what i've done with a person in terms of sex.

i have been called things like "good boy", "puppy", etc. by women that i've had as girlfriends in the past, but hearing him call me those names made me feel kinda worthless i guess and he also called me some names that i really do not like being called like "slut".

i've been on the edge for literal years on whether or not i'm completely straight and i think that this kind of decided it for me. i realized that my attraction to penis isn't attraction but instead extreme envy and the desire to have one for myself and to use it on others. i realized that it's not that i want to have it inside of me.

it actually made me the most dysphoric i've been in years whenever he put his dick in me.

after this interaction with this guy i thought that maybe it was a fluke that i felt so uncomfortable. i thought that maybe i just wasn't feeling great that day, but when i invited him over again, i felt worse whenever i touched his dick. it immediately felt wrong.

it made me dysphoric even seeing his dick and i couldn't do anything after that. i apologized and he went home and i haven't seen him since.

after that, i wasn't able to interact with this blog. i wasn't able to look at pictures, videos, or anything that had a penis in it. it reminded me so much of that interaction i had with him and i felt... guilty that i had sex with him and that was how i realized that i'm straight. i also felt like a really bad person for saying all these things on here that have turned out to not be true.

i've realized that my attraction towards people romantically and sexually is only towards women (cis and trans). i also had a pretty bad experience in the past with a guy (very very much not consensual) and that lead to a lot of trauma when i was in college.

i was debating whether or not i wanted to come back on here at all or even to say something about this, but it's been on my mind for months (as you can see lol).

so, if you've been wondering where i disappeared to, it was offline. i didn't feel comfortable making horny posts when i wasn't in the right mindset and i didn't feel comfortable being on this blog.

i sincerely apologize firstly to everyone and anyone that i've hurt that i've talked to on here. i was not in a good mental space to be interacting for the past few months and even a few months after i started this blog. i have an extremely hard time saying no and this often makes situations worse since i don't know when to stop them.

i also apologize to anyone who's followed this blog in the hopes to see another horny update. i'm still not sure i'm in the right space to be making horny posts, but i just needed a space to get this all off my chest and out of my head.

sorry if you read through this all. but also thank you for reading this all. i don't really know what my goal is in making this post other than getting this all out there.

if you've made it this far, any words of wisdom or kindness would be much appreciated. i hope yall are doing well.

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cute date idea: i rail you and you take it

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weekend cabin trip by the lake with s’mores and vile disgusting sex ???

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Sorry I didn’t answer your texts I was too busy touching myself to the thought of us fucking

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💘 Nsfw Asks 💘

1. What is your biggest sexual fantasy?

2. What are your kinks?

3. Have you ever had a threesome?

4. Have you ever had sex in public?

5. Have you ever faked an orgasm?

6. What are your favorite sex positions?

7. Any kinks you would never admit to?

8. Does pain turn you on?

9. Are you a sadist or masochist?

10. Dom, sub, or switch?

11. Have you tried anal? Did you like it?

12. What’s the kinkiest thing you’ve done?

13. Do you like biting/scratching?

14. Do you like being spanked?

15. Do you like having your hair pulled?

16. Morning sex or nighttime sex?

17. Shave, wax, or natural?

18. Do you have a favorite sex toy?

19. Favorite pornstar/porn?

20. Who do you want to fuck the most right now?

21. If you were the opposite sex for a day, what would you do?

22. Biggest turn offs?

23. Do you like foreplay?

24. What turns you on the easiest?

25. How do you feel about creampies?

26. Spit or swallow?

27. Have you ever had sex with the same gender?

28. Opinion on hookups?

29. Can you deepthroat?

30. Have you ever filmed yourself having sex?

31. How often do you masturbate?

32. Opinion on giving/receiving head?

33. Have you ever been caught masturbating/having sex?

34. Do you ever go commando?

35. How was your last sexual encounter?

36. Have you ever tasted yourself?

37. Booty or boobs?

38. Girth or length?

39. Do you like the lights on or off during sex?

40. Rough sex or intimate sex?

41. Do you like dirty talk? 

42. Have you ever taken someones virginity?

43. Most embarrassing sexual experience?

44. Do you like lingerie?

45. How would you rate your own sexual performance?

46. Can you squirt?

47. Have you ever made yourself sore from masturbating? 

48. Do you like being called derogatory names during sex?

49. Do you like to be choked? 

50. Do you like to be restricted during sex?

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I got that dog in me

*rolls over to show you my belly for pets because I'm desperate for your affection*

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okay and hear me out: needy doms. their cocks rock hard and dripping precum. pressing up against you, kissing your neck and grinding on your ass as they tell you how much they need to be inside you right now.

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who will kidnap me in a loving way and keep me in a dog cage with blankets and plushies. we can fuck too

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a moment of appreciation for when they’re so hard their t dick starts twitching

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I fucked her into subspace and now shes introducing me to her stuffies.

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QUICK you need to jack off to my selfies and make a mess on your stomach

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stop looking at me respectfully and start looking at me like a coyote looks at a fully stocked henhouse

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Awe, you had a bad day today? Come here, love. Lay down, put your head on my lap, and tell me all about it while I play with your hair.

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If you want to make his brain melt just call him a good boy mid conversation, it works <3