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like. here’s a shoutout to the abuse victims who weren’t “nice”. who haven’t been submissive and soft and kind to their abusers, who were angry and hurt them - purposefully or not -, who screamed at them, who didn’t treat the person that hurt them so much well. who became toxic for their abusers because they couldn’t or wouldn’t handle it “nicely”. who tried to speak up, who caused arguments, who “provoked” further abuse by being rude and mean and harsh. who were angry and hurt and wanted to pay their abusers back for what they did to them. who realised something was off and refused to just accept it, who seemed like “bad people” without context because the abuse has made them angry and unwilling to be nice anymore. who aren’t “nice” anymore, who are still angry and don’t want to try because they tried and were hurt anyway. you are all valid, and no matter how you reacted you didn’t deserve the abuse. you are not the same as your abuser just because of how you dealt with the situation. it is not and has never been your fault. they hurt you, and they never had the right to.

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Shout out to the victims who live in small towns. People who have to see their abusers every day, people whose abusers come into their workplace, people who constantly feel trapped because their abuser lives so nearby. It is so hard to live in that cage of memories. But one day you’ll be able to leave that place, and you can leave their ass behind.

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https://www.instagram.com/pbuddhaproject/

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I helped myself. wiped my own tears. put balm over fresh wounds. plastered parts of my heart that still were hurting. gave myself time. read books that soothed my soul. heard music that calmed my nerves. watched movies that made me smile. bit by bit, piece by piece, I put myself back together again. and I gave myself a second chance because I know that if I didn’t, then no one else would.

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Even if they say “they didn’t mean it”, they’re still responsible for what they did.

Even if they say “they don’t remember it”, they’re still responsible for what they did.

Even if they say “you’re delusional, I would never do that, you made it up”, they’re still responsible for what they did, and for trying to gaslight and invalidate your memories.

Even if they say “I didn’t do it, and even if I did, I would be right to do it”, they’re still guilty for what they did.

Even if they have excuses, they’re still responsible for what they did.

Even if they act like it would have been crazy to expect from them to act any different way, they’re still responsible for what they did to you.

Even if they come at you with an entire agenda of how you should perceive what they did so it actually “benefits you”, even if they insist they did it for your own good, they’re still responsible for what they did to you, and for lying about it.

Even if they cry about how much it pains them to be accused of hurting you, they’re still responsible for what they did to you.

Even if they cry about how much they love you and how they did it all out of love and never meant to hurt you, it’s still their responsibility for what they did to you.

Even if they act like what they did shouldn’t have hurt you and you’re the one responsible for taking damage, for being sensitive to being abused, it’s still their responsibility for what they did to you.

Even if they blame you for what they did to you, they’re still responsible for what they did.

Even if they insist someone else did it to them too, even if they insist they had it worse than you, even if they say it’s a cultural thing, they’re still responsible for what they did to you.

Even if it was long ago, and they act like you’re wrong for remembering such old wrong doing, it’s still something they did, and they’re still responsible for doing it.

They can lie and deny and accuse and blame and invalidate and gaslight. It doesn’t absolve them of responsibility for what they did. It doesn’t absolve them from guilt.

Nothing can absolve abusers from responsibility for their own actions. Nothing.

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things I'm good at

- going to bed at a normal time and staying awake for 3 more hours - replaying scenes of past events in my head and overthinking them - buying even more books although I have a huge stack of unread ones - procrastinating. everything.

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College is literally the best/worst time of your life. One minute you’re living it up with your friends, the next you have $3.00 and 4 exams.

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My only relationship goal is to be with someone who motivates me to become a better person and shows me the potential I don’t see in myself

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I just want somebody to save me. But nobody knows I need saving

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PSA:

You didn’t imagine your abuse. It happened. It hurt you. You didn’t make it up. No matter what your abuser tries to say or do to make you believe that it was all in your head. It happened. You survived.

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People are like waves of the ocean; they come and they go. Sometimes they are tempestous and other times they are calm but you never know what to expect. You never know if they will softly hug you or drown you voraciously; you just have to trust them. And I know, baby, that trust is hard to give. To drown in saltiness or be kissed by seafoam is a decision hard-pressed to make. You would rather sit on the sand and watch than let the water touch your toes, but trust me. There’s more to water than drowning, there’s more to people than hurt. To live is to trust, to take risks. Will you give the waters a chance?

A collaboration between @giulswrites and @vanillasweet :)

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505 // the arctic monkeys

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It’s 2016. You need motivation? No, what you need is discipline.  IT’S TIME TO FOCUS. Force yourself to do things. Force yourself to get up early, make your bed, go get ready, and go. Force yourself to make plans for the day, and follow through with all those plans. Force yourself to get to class early so you can look over the material. Force yourself to pay attention in class and turn off your phone or at least put it on silent. Stop texting your friends and going on Instagram in class. You are wasting your time, so why even bother going to class if your are going to be distracted? Be selfish. Stop giving your time to people that do not matter. YOUR TIME IS SO SO PRECIOUS. STOP WASTING IT! This is the most important thing that you can do right now, take care of you and your education. Stop being distracted by the world and it’s never ending problems. This is the time that you need to put toward yourself because you are the greatest investment of your life. EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. EVERYDAY is a chance to wake up and give your 150%. EXHAUST yourself. That is the only way to give your all. At the end of the day, you should be exhausted from working so much, from reading so much, from exercising so much. Don’t go home because you are tired. Do whatever you need to get done and don’t come home until it’s all done. Stay late at the library. You feel tired? Good. That is how you know you are giving it your best. Go to the gym, and give your work out your all. When you go home, you should feel like you are drained. You should feel like you have nothing left to give because you gave it your all. Because then, you can be proud of yourself and everything you have achieved. Giving it your all is what matters. Give your all every single day. Discipline your mind and your body and you will become successful. You fall back one day? That is O.K., try the next day. You are human, so accept your mistakes. However, love yourself enough to know that you will never giving. THIS IS IT. THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Right now, no matter what circumstances we are all in, is what matters. Take advantage of today. Write down your dreams and force yourself to work toward them, one day at a time.  IT’S TIME TO FOCUS. THIS is your year. This is your life. One day at a time baby. One day at a time. Go ahead and don’t stop.

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Day 10:

This is just a friendly reminder for those of you who don’t know what to do with their relationships:

If they cheat on you LEAVE.

If they are messaging other people LEAVE.

If they download tinder to “make friends” LEAVE.

If they try to make you jealous on purpose LEAVE.

If they laugh at you when you cry LEAVE.

If they get mad that you’re upset LEAVE.

If they guilt trip you into not doing things, like seeing your friends, LEAVE.

If they go through your messages LEAVE.

If they regularly threaten to break up with you LEAVE.

If they say/do things just to hurt you LEAVE.

If the only thing stopping you from leaving is being alone again then LEAVE because you deserve someone that loves everything about you. The good and the bad. The beautiful and the ugly.

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