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Bunny by Mona Awad (Spoilers!!!)

okay so bunny by mona awad succeeded in areas I think my year of rest and relaxation by otessa moshfegh failed in which she created a satire that actually had something to say. the way awad deals with the concepts of loneliness (both incidental and self inflicted), female friendships, class and the pretentiousness of New England college culture actually feels purposeful. and the reason I compare it to moshfegh is because both books are satires with unlikeable protags but while moshfegh is too busy kissing her own ass and hiding behind “oh all art is apolitical” bc shes to scared to admit that she actually cares about the topics shes talking about, awad cares very deeply about what she’s writing which made it unsurprising to see she based it on her own experiences at brown university.

Samantha is not the most likable character and you’re either gonna cone away from the book hating her and her pity parties or deeply understanding why she throws them (especially if you read her as a woman of color like I did). there’s a constant theme of her being obsessed with her own otherness and its true especially when you consider (Spoiler) She created her best friend Ava from a swan in the pond . Ava is Samanthas ideal friend but also the ideal form of herself: cool, self assured and beautiful. If Ava is the good part of herself, then Max is the bad. Her dark thoughts, negative impulses and hatefulness. But he is also how she sees herself as well, or at least what she thinks Ava would find attractive, he’s smooth, attractive in a dangerous way, poetic without being pretentious (he’s a literal vessel for her to say what she feels about Ava all of which is written in her diary) and what I think is very very important he can fuck Ava. Something the bunny-boys couldn’t do.

there’s also the sense of how we lose ourselves in our friends, as female friendships tend to be all consuming to the point we really do melt into a hive mind and I think even the friendship with Ava is tinged with co-dependency. Samantha dehumanizes the Bunnies calling them by nicknames she gave them, robbing them of agency because of their perceived perfectness but once she is invited to the Smut Salon she begins to call them by their real names until finally in honestly the most disorienting section of the book they all become Bunny, to the point its hard to tell who is talking and I loved that I wish we got more of Sam as a Bunny.

the atmosphere and aesthetics of the novel were so fun a candy colored dark academia where we even see that the bunnies also put on airs around each other like how Kira’s voice deepens when she thinks shes alone, no longer concerned with sounding like. bunny. I like how each of the women have a genre assigned to their writing and personal style showing how even though they are indistinguishable from each other, they were their own people beforehand but they allowed themselves to get sucked into a vacuous pretentious bubble.

the commentary on class was great, especially with how sam is said to be too obsessed with being poor to have been poor her whole life and I think thats a very accurate representation of someone who’s financial status has been precarious for much of her formative years and why despite herself shes so intrigued by the bunnies and feels out of place in her writers cohort. rich people love to blow smoke up each others asses, which allows the bunnies to write horrible work because at the end of the day they’re rich it doesn’t matter they’re never gonna have to improve themselves. its also why sam feels reluctant to speak her true feelings on their work because she doesn’t have anyone to rely on lest she gets ousted

the usage of the all female writing cohort with the singular teacher was a great nod to the secret history honestly the whole book was

I loved how it was a creation horror story as well as coming of age the horrific parts were truly gross and the way the cannibalize themselves (metaphorically) towards the end was satisfying as fuck

and a lot of ppl hate the ending but sam choosing Jonah was honestly cathartic, she isn’t healed things aren’t sweet and nice but she makes a connection with someone who has been reaching out to her instead of being obsessed with her own otherness

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i hate that during your pms it's litteraly just your brain bullying you like wtf bro we're on the same team

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omg guys the us gobernment just whispered something top secret in my ear they told me not to tell anyone else but im gonna b so bad and share ok are you ready

they told me if you have period cramps you can eat whatever you want and not feel guilty abt it* actually and that if you have cramps/your period you should eat food in fact and you won’t die or blow up 1000 weight units overnight and periods suck so eat what you want

*apparently you aren’t supposed to feel guilty for eating at any point but idk about that one just yet but the above checks out to me I think

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The insatiable hunger i feel right before my period is called my boy time im a hungry boy and i must feed for my manly blood letting ritual

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it’s just one of those weeks days for no reason huh

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u know when u don’t even realise how emotionally fragile ur currently feeling & then watching a tiny little 10 second clip from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind on instagram while ur just tryna get ready to leave the house kicks off a fun little 25 minute S O B B I N G session?

✨✨ love that ✨✨

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My sister's been watching a lot of miraculous ladybug lately

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look i know the hunger games fandom is entrenched in songbirds and snakes brainrot right now but i just wanna mention how horribly genius the tesserae system is

like. it's designed to keep the poorest districts from ever winning the games, by keeping the population of those districts on the verge of starvation without ever tipping the line too far. the poorer you are, the more you need your children to take tesserae. the more tesserae your children take, the more times their name is added to the reaping pool. the more times a name appears in the reaping pool, the more likely they are to be drawn over a person who doesn't need to take tesserae. a kid who's been surviving off of tesserae grain and oil is exponentially more likely to die early on in the games due to the effects of malnutrition (low muscle mass and body fat, not to mention the mental consequences).

pretty much the only reason katniss was physically capable of surviving the games was because she'd been able to catch meat in the forest. surviving on just the tesserae she was taking for her mother and prim, there's no way she would've had the physical strength to make it out alive.

say what you want about the realism of the hunger games but the tesserae system is horrifyingly well-designed to do exactly what it's supposed to do.

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This is the funniest take on "what if Snow chose to be a good person" because instead of imagining young Snow being this sweet kind person, it's just Donald Sutherland playing a senile old uncle who constantly beefs with birds.

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMjw94p3q/

@whimsywisp on Tiktok (not on Tumblr)

Plus my favorite comments

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Like most children were fascinated by shiny objects, Scorpius had a similar reaction to Luna. There was something about her that drew people in, especially children. She never had to say or do anything special. She was just Luna.

Measure of a Man (Chapter 24) by @inadaze22

Had to draw the favorite Ravenclaw 💙

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Scorpius Malfoy from Measure of a Man by @inadaze22

As they were finishing up, Luna returned with Scorpius, who carried a small bundle of pink carnations in his mitted hand and an eager expression. He seemed slightly nervous yet overall relaxed, much like he'd been in her vegetable patch. The environment, the freedom, and the company did wonders for him.

"Was your tour fun?"

A smile was his only response before he peered up at Luna.

"We walked around and I told him what all the plants were and what the flowers meant. Seemed like he wanted to know, like he was looking for something." Luna smiled down at the boy. "I let him pick a few flowers to keep for himself."

But instead of holding on, Scorpius extended the bundle to her with the same insistent look he'd worn while giving his father an armful of freshly picked vegetables.

This was for her.

What he wanted her to have.

What he'd been looking for.

Hermione accepted the gift and the hug around her waist that accompanied it.

"Thank you."

After Scorpius waved goodbye to Luna, Neville walked them to the door and left her with a comment.

"Pink carnation. Interesting choice. They mean gratitude, yes, but it's interesting that something so beautiful can have the same meaning as something as prickly as a cactus."

A mother's love. - chapter 24

🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤭🤭

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At this point, most of you probably know what a Measure of a Man (by Inadaze22) fangirl I am. The writing is beautiful, the romance is so natural and believable, and the characterization is ✨flawless✨. I am particularly a fan of Ina’s witty banter, and I feel like it can get overshadowed by the romance (as much as I love that too) so wanted to bring one of my favorite girl gang scenes to life in comic form! (Which ended up being a bigger challenge than I expected converting a written work into a comic 🤡)

This was made for Ina’s birthday yesterday!

Enjoy!

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I know there are many more to share, but we'd have to fill a huge library.

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Naksu/Mu-deok thinking that Jang Uk will abandon her now that's he's made it into Songrim, even though Maid Kim basically told her that he's in love with her. Meanwhile, he's climbing out a window because he hasn't seen her in 24 hours and he doesn't know what to do with himself.

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I just realized that the last outfit that we see Mu-deok wearing when she kills everyone:

Is basically the exact same outfit she's wearing at the end as Cho Yeong (or at least the same colours, green collar with pink):

She finally got to be married in that outfit!

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It's actually kind of hilarious how afraid everyone is that the King Star will take over the country when he's Jang Uk. Like can you imagine a human being who has less interest in doing all that work?

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Just another day of the Crown Prince having bi panic over Jang Uk and Mu Deok