slowdancewthyou

[slowdancewthyou]

After a year, after it all, after us just being friends, you’re still my favourite person.

[slowdancewthyou]

I feel like I’m not suppose to be loved, I feel like I am only allowed to love and not receive it. My heart is so heavy. I wish I never slept with that girl, I regret it because at least I was unaware of the reality. Even with someone who isn’t worth my time or my space was able to leave me and make me feel like nothing. I gave you stability and love and everything I could and you still can’t love me.

My self worth is just so low at the moment. I just wish everyday that someone out there can enjoy me and love me the way I love them. I wish I could love myself the way I love others. I’m sorry. I wish someone can just hold me. The way I still feel her body wrapped around my arms.

[slowdancewthyou]

How does it feel

Glowed up, the clout, the money, all more than your current boo. The one you cheated on me. How does it feel to be constantly dissapointed by being mediocre?

How does it feel seeing me on your socials. Your current even tried looking like me. All she got was the weight and I shed that down. So fuck you.

[slowdancewthyou]

If it was up to me,

I wouldn't give these nobodies no sympathy

I'd take away the pain, I'd give you everything

I just wanna see you win, wanna see

— Luther by Kendrick Lamar & SZA

[slowdancewthyou]

You’re so cute and annoying at the same time

I just want to hold your hand and tell you that you’re mine

Nagging at me, telling me how to take care of myself.

Treating like I’m yours and no one else

This friendship foreplay is going to be the end of us

[slowdancewthyou]

You’re my favourite notification.

[slowdancewthyou]

I miss you …. and I hate that I do… just leave my mind and heart alone pls

[slowdancewthyou]

Don’t miss me, I’m coming back to you soon.

[slowdancewthyou]

It’s cute your boo is starting to look like me

[slowdancewthyou]

You.

A thought of you, a memory of you, a memory you could never understand how much they leave a mark on me.

You’ll never notice how when you accidentally graze me and how when you move closer to me how I just want to grab your hand or hold you by the side. A moment where our hands touch I hold it a little longer, or when you stand close to me i want to pull you towards me.

Every day I want to be with you, I just want to hear your voice, make you laugh, I never have the courage to tell you how I feel. I want to love you and make you feel joy and love in the world. I want to protect you and keep you safe. I want to call you my baby girl and kiss you on the forehead when I walk you home. But fuck it’s just a dream and I’ll just break my own heart in the meantime.

[slowdancewthyou]

Trying so hard to show you how much I love you. But also trying so hard to not fall in love with you. I wanna grab you by the waist and hold you for a minute and tell you’re safe.

[slowdancewthyou]

Trying to not fall in love with you gets harder and harder every day

[slowdancewthyou]

I wish I could just watch you smile all day.

I wish I could just lay my head on your lap as you stroke my hair.

I wish I could break down your walls when you’re with me.

I wish I could be the one you feel safe around.

I wish you knew I cherish every second we spend together

I wish I knew that this could never work and I stopped day dreaming about us

[slowdancewthyou]

I love staring at your face, watching you smile, watching you be around joy. I love being around you and just the opportunity to spend a couple of minutes with you is gold. To spend the whole night with you even though I’ll be destroyed the next day is worth it. Cause your smile, your eyes I can’t stop staring at them.

[slowdancewthyou]

I wish I could spend all my days being with you, talking to you, being around you. I’m so captivated by your drive and your presence snd fuck I just want to be by you all the time. You literally are the girl of my dreams but I am not in a place to have this but I want you so badly

[slowdancewthyou]

Falling for you slowly, breaking down your walls is the most validating thing for me. Hopeless romantic but I need to grow up before I let down my wall.