saw the kindest disability person today, hope heās gonna be happy and healthy always.
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favorite spot in my roomš¤
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grateful for the time i spent with my boyfriend today. iāve been searching for the 4th series of books i enjoyed when i was in middle-school, and he helped me look up the ebook for hours (at late-night) to find it.
unfortunately, we didnt find the 4th series.
but thatās fine..
it was just really nice knowing how long he would help the small thing that matters to me.
thank youš¤
hope youād stay this kind every-time and forever, and not once in a whilešāāļøšāāļø
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hi dad, how you doing up there?
i donāt know where to start to tell mine
but i guess to sum up, everything turned out the way i prayed for it so far
itās just youāre not here, so it is not as good as it sounds
several years ago, i thought there will come a day when iām able to miss you less, but itās been 3 years so far and iām still here
my friends joke about the āgala bunga matahariā song the other day, and intentionally wants to play it with me in the car.
I guess they thought i am able to handle it all now, but i am not.
they dont know how i practice myself and tortured my soul every night on shower to practice not to cry everytime hearing the song.
at the library, at clubhouse, been practicing for that for so long. i think that is the very first time i do practice for anything besides work.
itās even sadder to have nobody to talk to about this now that youāre gone.
i know i can tell mom, but u know sheāll be sad hearing that. i cant tell grazie or keke, they will think iām not strong. i cant tell kakpris, bcs she didnt care at all.
i miss you bapak
miss your silly joke and every honest opinion with my favorite loving and caring tone. i wish all my friends knew you before youāre gone. so i can share how good you were.
bapak i want to blame you, i am so used to your kind voice, i cant handle any of loud ones.
i miss your calmness and everything everything everything.
i miss mom too, i wish she is here with me now.
but i miss u the most!!! i wish you know that and sees me from up there crying for you every night for the past 3 years!
everything went well even without you here, and i dont like it
i want you around and see how much ive accomplished! i miss you bapakā¦
i dont think i can love anyone as much as i love you and mom, even myself.
i wish i love me as much as i love you both.
yours sincerely and foreverā¤ļø
-kak gaby
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miss yew ndute kesayangan tabiii!!!
maw peyukš¤š«¶
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Terima kasih Tuhan Yesus buat satu persatu doa gaby yang Tuhan jawabā¤ļø
i know You know exactly the dream i had in heart and will bless me wherever i goā¤ļø
I know at the very end, youāll guide me to the best school you have in store for me, where You think I can represent not only my interest and my thoughts, but also Your will through my life
This school never once crossed my mind, and I still have several other school ongoing, and my dream school still to be submitted.
But I know, whichever it is, you hold my future as well as you were also there on my past.
Sorry i havenāt been a very obedient daughter these past months and so sorry for relying too much on my efforts and thoughts.
In the end, i know who knows me best and give me the best.
You are truly my Father
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if anyone ever asked me how i picture marriage:
exactly how it explained in the photo. 100% the same as my thoughts
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Bapa Engkau mengenalku, lebih dari siapapunā¤ļø Engkau tau ceritaku, dan isi hatikuā¤ļø tak perduli masa lalu, Engkau tetap memilihkuā¤ļø ubahkankuā¤ļø sempurnakanā¤ļø jadi karya yang indahā¤ļø
kini aku percaya, tiada yang mustahil bagiMuā¤ļø kuasaMu, kuatkanku, dasarku berharapā¤ļø kini aku berserah, pada rancanganMu bagikuā¤ļø kuikuti, panggilanMuā¤ļø ku kan setia sampai akhir hidupkuā¤ļø
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currently stuck between:
itās okayyyyyy i do greatttt
do i???
šāāļøšāāļøš„¹ā
š«”š¤š¼š»š¢
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God, can i? may i? please? :ā(
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you are blessed. donāt let anything happened in life tell you otherwise.
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the one when i spent 1.4 mio in just 2 hoursš„²
no more of this for another 3 months. yes.
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miss your smile and warm hug @ bapakš¤š¤
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WISH EVERYTHING WILL WENT WELL EVENTUALLY.
In the name of Jesusš¤ God bless my application.
ku tauu siapaa yang pimpin hari depan hidupkuš¤
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life is really funny.
sometimes itās all sunshine in one time.
momās work & business going super well, keke calls me first, presentations going well, arthurās getting 1st choice of college, billyās here, hit IELTS score i prayed for, getting exposure at work, etc
but sometimes itās all storm in one place, in a day, my necklaceās liontin is lost, as well as my earrings, AC bocor, had to wfh bcs of it, getting pressure from the apartment makelar (kakpris said it is not really a pressure - but i just feel like it), being scammed by Tokopedia Camera seller š¢
i guess iām just not good at handling pressure.
this breakdown always happens in a pattern.
i can handle 1 big presentations per week, but not more. not with all of other workload and small presentations, and trust me i work from presentations to presentations, itās not so LITTLE, itās still quite big for some people.
This place is consuming me.
I cried to my mom a lot more than i did before i got into this place. No matter how much i rest, itās still not enough.
I learn to have an emotional rest today at church, and how to not let our emotion led us, but let faith control our emotion. How come I still feel like iām being controlled by mine?
Yes, I was never good at loss.
Losing handphone, losing things, losing people, feeling of losing time.
never good at any of those.
I guess afterall, a restful mind is all i needed. Not to push too much pressure on myself of how things supposed to turns out perfect in the end, and learn the beauty of imperfection.
But iām still sad, and got headache even when i consume enough water, food & fruits (as my mom told me to).
This is the time i need my God the most ā¦
God please be with me all the time, i need You
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Dalam nama Tuhan Yesus setiap hariiiš¤š¤š¤
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