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I'm going to try and fast for two days. Today and tomorrow. I'm doing good so far but I'll be updating throughout the day

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This is the kind of room I want my future teenage daughter to have lol. It's so pretty. But whatever she decides to get will be fine. I want to have kids before I'm 35 though. I'm 20 now. I just don't want to deal with a father leaving his kids situation. I should have married my ex but I got nervous, we rushed things, and broke it off. I kind low-key miss him.

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I drew this about a month ago. Idk what I was doing. It was in medical class, and I was so worried someone would see it and I would get evaluated lol. It's not my best work but I was bored. I usually just paint. I'll post some of my paintings soon. Hopefully

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I want to be as skinny or skinnier than her^^^^. Like I want to be thin so bad. Like help. Got any tips? Tricks? I'm open to anything

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I think I'm just going to fast tomorrow. Like no good at all unless it's emergency. That's what happened today, I got dizzy and passed out for a free minutes. They thought I was sleep. I ate over 3000 cal cuz I couldn't stop. So yeah. I want to fast tomorrow and this weekend maybe.

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Based off the song "Hold On" by Chord Overstreet.

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We snuggle on the couch as we watch a movie together. "I love you." I say. He smiles, kisses me. "I love you too." He says. I lay my head back on his chest.

"Can you get me a blanket?" I ask. He doesn't answer. "Get it yourself! I'm making snacks!" He says. I huff and stomp to the bedroom. I spot my favorite fluffy blanket. When I lift it up I see a condom rapper. "Babe!" I yell. I snatch it up and storm to the kitchen. "What's this?" I yell. He plays dumb, saying he doesn't know. "We haven't had in three months!" I yell. He shrugs. "Your a cheater!" He accuses. "You probably had it in your purse!" He says. I gasp. "Your the cheater!" I yell. Suddenly he slaps me. "Bitch!" He says. I gasp and begin crying. "I'm leaving."

I stare into my mirror. "How could he do this?" I ask aloud. "Why?" It must be my body. Maybe after having the baby, I grew fat. It's not just my fault that we had a child as teenagers. It must be the fat.

After I left him, I got close with my best friend. "Don't leave me." He says. I nod. " I won't. I promise!" I say. We pinkie promise.

My pictures get sent around school and I can't deal with it. People begin messing with me. The only light is my best friend. "I'll protect you." He promised.

His love isn't enough to keep me here. I lock myself in the bathroom. By the time he breaks in, I'm already gone, lying in a puddle of blood on the floor.

His pov:

"Please don't leave me!"

The long stretch of highway is grey as I rush her to the hospital. They take her away to the back room. I watch through a door. She flatlines.

"No! Don't leave! Please come back! I need you!" I cry. But she can't hear me. She's gone.

"They took her away on a table." I tell her parents.

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Based off the song "One Day" by Tate McRae.

I stare at the ceiling, once again. A hundred thoughts in my head. We lay on my bed with soft music playing. "Maybe he knows who I am?" I ask. Ana looks at me. "Probably not." She says. I turn away and fall asleep.

I walk down the hall with my head down low, scared to meet their eyes. I adjust my skirt and turn to ana. "It makes you look fat." She says. I nod, i brought jeans for this reason. I quickly change in the bathroom. As we walk down the hall, I hear his voice. My stomach twists with butterflies. "Its impossible to gey him off my mind." I say. "You have a hundred thoughts and he is 99." Ana adds. We laugh together. "He'll never be mine." I whisper to ana. She nods. "That's fine. Your mine." She says. I nod but inside I'm breaking.

"Lets go this way, he always walks the crowded halls!" I whisper. I pull ana with me. "He's blinded by the light!" Ana says. I keep my eyes down. She's right. "Hey." He says. I smile at him. "Yo! Get over here!" His friend yells. "Nah! Give me a minute!" He yells back. I run away at his loud voice. I leave him alone, breaking inside again. Ana runs after me.

We lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. "One day, he'll know my name!" I say. Ana laughs. "Maybe I'll stay, and head his way!" Ana laughs at me. "One day I'll look into his eyes and call him mine!" I say. "Doubtful. Your weak." Ana says. I ignore her. "One day, he'll grab me by the waist. And force us to look face to face!" I say louder. She keeps laughing. "One day, he'll look into my eyes. Tell me I'm his only light!" I add. I want to live in this moment of fictional happiness. To have this one dream.

"You like him don't you?" Ana asks. I nod. "You have a hundred thoughts, he is 99?" She asks. I nod again. "He'll never be yours. Your not good enough." Ana says. I nod again. "Your right." I say. I'm just breaking inside.

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Found this on TikTok!

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I'm still overweight! Ughh. Like I'm trying here but it's so slow!!!

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A piece of a story I'm writing on Wattpad. Please don't judge harshly, just make suggestions.

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I giggle with Ryder as he makes a face at the tv. "Dinner!" Mom calls. I run to the table and sit down. "Why are you in a rush to dinner?" Mom asks. I look at her and smile. "Ryder, hows football?" Dad asks before I can answer mom. I'm forgotten again. I eat a few bites before heading to my room.

I stare at myself in the mirror. What makes me so non special? So bland?

"I'm not hungry!" I call as mom tries to get me to dinner. They laugh together and eat the calories I do not want. I'll eat when I'm faint. I want to see how long it takes them to notice I'm not there.

A week. They still haven't noticed. I'm still "not hungry".

"Why don't you eat?" Sadie asks. I shrug. "It's a game. I want to see how long it takes!" I say.

Three months and I've decided they don't care.

A year. I hate myself. They don't notice anything about me. Not even Ryder.

Two years and I've given up trying to impress my family. I can't stop now. It's not a game anymore.

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I make sure I don't look to weird before I grab my stuff and head downstairs. I walk to my new car, that I bought. "See ya at school!" Ryder calls. Like he cares. I think. I sigh and drive myself.

School is fine until lunch. The thought alone makes me want to vomit again. "Hi." Someone says. I recognize the girl as someone in math. She's definitely popular. She's wearing a cheer uniform.

"Sit with us!" Another says as they loop their arms through mine. "You are so tiny!"

I feel like puking. "Yeah, I um...I work out!" I lie. They just smile an nod and talk among themselves. I barely eat.

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My dream cast for gossip girl:

Madeline cline as Serena van DER wooden:

Danielle Campbell as Blair Waldorf

Bea Miller as Jenny Humphrey:

Jacob Elordi as Chuck Bass:

Joshua Bassett as Dan Humphrey:

Neels Visser as Nate Archibald:

Any more suggestions are welcome!!!

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Let's celebrate survivors. I'm a survivor.

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I only ate 1 banana (110 cal), an uncrushable (300 cal), orange juice (60 cal),

I might eat fruit but idk yet.

Cw: 169.1 pounds

GW: 130.0 pounds

Body check

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My account was banned lol. I guess all the An@ sh!t got me banned. Anyways my old account was SkinandBones2003. Here's my new one.