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I'm super nervous for today because I realized that I can't get out of eating. My whole family is going to wonder why I'm not eating and it's going to be a huge mess. It really sucks especially since today was supposed to be a fast day. After today, I'll fast for 72hrs just to clear my system.

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It's 3am and I can't sleep so I'm going to post my stats!

STATS

*I haven't actually been diagnosed with anything but I would consider myself to have a couple traits of both anorexia and bulimia.

*Age: 17 :)

*Height: 5'4 ft/ 164.6 cm

*HW: 225 lbs/ 102.1 kg

*LW: 178 lbs/ 80.7 kg

*CW: 185.3 lbs/ 84.1 kg

*GW 1: 173 lbs/ 78.5 kg (ik this is a kinda weird goal but if I reach this weight I'll technically he considered just overweight instead of obese :) )

*GW 2: 165 lbs/ 74.8 kg

*GW 3: 150 lbs/ 68 kg

*GW 4 : 135 lbs/ 61.2 kg

*My GW 4 may or may not be my final goal weight. Once I get there, I want to see whether or not it would be a good idea for me to lose more or remain the same. Most likely I'll end up going to 120 lbs/ 54.4 kg.

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Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

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I. Don’t. Want. My. Thighs. To. Touch.

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anyone else EXTREMELY nervous to have to eat tmr in front of everyone for Christmas Eve dinner?

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does anyone else wish that they could he kidnapped or be in a coma? that way I would be forced to starve and I would lose a lot of weight...

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I'm doing this diet for the week!

I already fasted!

10/23/20

breakfast: nothing

Lunch: soup (67 calories) + 1 apple cherry juice (60 calories)

snack: 36 grapes (72 calories)

dinner: nothing

Total Calorie Intake: 199 calories!

I managed to stay under my calorie count for today! yay! I also did a workout consisting of:

100 jump ropes

100 stepping but kicks

100 high knees

50 side leg lifts (on each side)

50 toe taps

50 jumping squats

100 bicycle crunches

30 sit ups

30 sec plank

30 russian twists

1 min scissors

30 in & outs

and 50 jumping jacks

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sorry I've been gone, my depression really just came outta nowhere and made me unmotivated for like almost 3 weeks! So ya know what that means... I binged. Oh god did I binge.... A LOT. LIKE ALMOST 10LBS A LOT. As of yesterday I weighed 188lbs. 🤡 I started fasting and I'm gonna try doing this "diet" to try to loose those 10lbs by the end of the year! Wish me luck!✨

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I've been fasting for 67 1/2 hrs so I'm going to go ahead and eat already :)

my starting weight before fasting was 184.8 and my weight now is 179.2! I can't believe I lost 5lbs! :))

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65 hrs in!!! Almost done only 7 more hours to go then I can finally eat some sushi 🍣:)

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green tea and water are my new best friends ;)

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Things I wish people understood about eating disorders:

1. Most people with eating disorders don’t literally starve themselves, they restrict. Just because you see us eating doesn’t mean we’re getting better.

2. The horrible, absolutely torturous feeling we get after we eat. No matter what it is, how many Calories… it’s always there.

3. You. Don’t. Have. To. Be. Thin. To. Have. An. Eating. Disorder. God someone needs to scream this one from the top of a building.

4. It’s life consuming. Food is always on my mind.

What I’ll eat next, when I’ll eat next, how I’ll burn it off

5. I can’t just ‘snap out of it’ and I can’t ‘just eat’

These are two of the worst things you can say.

6. I understand what my disorder is doing to me mentally and physically, believe me I do.

♡

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I've officially been fasting for 42 hrs :)

my mom went grocery shopping and she decided to get all my favorite foods 🙃

it's getting harder to resist food but I can do it :) only 30 more hrs to go

also cramps on an empty stomach HURT

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21 hrs in, starting to feel a little peckish so I chugged a bottle of water :)

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and it's begun :)

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I'm going to start my 72 hrs fast in 15 mins! Wish me luck ;)

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Lately, ever since Thanksgiving, I've felt like a slob. I keep telling myself that I'm not gonna eat much or not eat at all and then I end up binging anyways. This cycle has been going on for about 9 days and honestly, I'm tired of this. So, I'm actually gonna commit to "fasting" for 72 hrs and then when I'm allowed to eat I'm only going to eat a maximum of 500 calories.