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ive been watching Amphiba 2 years late with a friend so of course i did the thing i do best and combined it with RD <33

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im on blusky now hi chat

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hey you should watch rhythm doctor lobby RDSRT3 to see the goat smile

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My boyfriend has really vivid, elaborate dreams. He’ll often wake up and talk about some grand narrative- travel, exploration, politics, performances. I’ve always been a little jealous, he can hold really good plots together for them sometimes.

But anyway, this does have a downside; vivid, elaborate dreams make for vivid, elaborate nightmares. I can usually tell when it’s one of those nights, since he grinds his teeth pretty badly.

I was never quite sure what to do when I knew he was having a bad time of it, though the grinding alone was enough to worry me and push me towards intervening. I used to just shake him gently, hope to rouse him just enough to reset the dream or something, but it wasn’t too effective and anyway waking him up all the time isn’t good for rest.

I’m rather proud of the strategy I eventually settled on: gently, so as not to wake him up, I’d lay one arm across his hands, wrapping his fingers around me so that he was holding on. Nightmares being nightmares, I can usually count on a pretty tight grip when this happens.

It may seem a little odd, but consider that holding on to something with both hands is typically a very agentic frame of mind. We hold on to things that give us power, in one way or another, and possessing objects often makes us feel powerful in some respects. That has consequences, even for a dreaming mind.

I knew it was working when he woke up rather mystified from one such dream, and told me that he’d been running through the caverns of some dungeon or cave system, pursued by monsters, but then all of a sudden he was holding a giant anime sword and fought them off instead. So I got to be a sword for him that night, I was delighted.

I don’t usually get to know exactly what happened, since even for a very vivid dreamer like Ritter, nine tenths of these things get forgotten. But I know I’ve been things like door handles, steering wheels, stuff like that. And even when I don’t know what I am to him, he doesn’t grind his teeth nearly as much- the sleep is deeper and more peaceful, so I get plenty of feedback that it’s working.

It’s such a perfect encapsulation of love in microcosm, isn’t it? No matter how much you mean to them, and how much they mean to you, the gap between two conscious lives is fundamentally separating you. But fundamental does not mean insurmountable. There’s this whole world in him, full of dreams and perspectives that I’ll never truly experience. But I will be a part of those worlds all the same, finding little ways here and there to make sure that the dreams of me make him a better, stronger, and happier person.

Or at least, so one hopes. It’s a difficult challenge, and things often go awry. But usually you get at least a little lucky.

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go go my assorted RDCC doodles

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Zenith Martlet (oo she mad)

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it fukmn snowed

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been 4 days got. 20 hours in balatro help

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watch how many redesigns i can do to my ocs

though i am pretty satisfied with these designs tbh may draw them more at least lol

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moved house !!! very tired lol

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Death by Metal and Magic

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Guess what, I know, that you’re all alone “tear” ing, I’m wise to it Sob sob sob and depressed, solitary karaoke lamenting in the night

eyestrain warning below the cut:

i think a LOT about that analysis of Monitoring that discusses the possibility that the person on the other side of the camera is having some form of disease that's causing them to hallucinate and misinterpret the visitor's words!!! i think that it makes for an interesting concept. anyway be normal about this ian or ill explode and never post art again

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Flavor Foley's your rd

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idk what i was thinking trying to go from never drinking anything fizzy in my life to drinking ramune i was not built for that

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IF IVE GONE MISSIN IVE GONE FISHIN- anyways mcc island fishing is the best thing ever heres some more art of it