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Take me beyond the edge of control, where passion burns brightest, and every breath is a plea for more. I want you to strip me bare, not just of what's seen but what lies deeper, where the soul hides its secrets. Let your touch unravel me, pulling at the seams of my restraint, until nothing remains but the raw, desperate need for you. I crave the moment when you leave me undone, when your hands sculpt my very soul into something new, something that exists only in the fierce intensity of our connection. Claim me fully, completely—until I am nothing but an extension of your will. There's a thrill in surrendering, in knowing that my very essence is yours to command, to shape, to hold—and I want nothing more than to lose myself in it.

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You, a moonlit ghost, elusive and fair, with eyes like oceans, deep and bare. Your laughter rings, a melody sweet, but I am just dust beneath your feet.

Each moment of our interaction is a bitter mockery, a cruel game where I am forced to play the role of the hopeful fool. I am trapped in this endless cycle of longing, each day a fresh wound, each glance a bitter reminder of what can never be. I cling to the fragile hope that someday, just once, you might turn your gaze towards me and see the depth of my affection.

My mouth hangs open as I softly intone prayers that only I understand, each murmur a private confession in the quiet of my solitude. So let me burn in this silent fire, a martyr to a heart's desire. For though unrequited, this love is true and in my pain, I find you.

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The Wound of Unspoken Farewell.

The final farewell came too swiftly, a cruel twist of fate that stole away the chance for words unspoken. These unvoiced confessions drift through my mind like forlorn specters, their weight a constant, gnawing ache. I roam through our shared spaces, seeking solace in the fragments of a past that now only serves to deepen the emptiness.

I crave one more moment to tell you of the depths of my love, but that moment has been stolen by the inexorable march of time. Now, I am left with a profound, unrelenting grief, a dark, unyielding shadow that obscures the fleeting light of memories. This farewell, stark and final, has etched a wound upon my heart, forever reminding me of a love lost to the cruel march of time.

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Preface to Grief Lessons by Euripides, translated by Anne Carson.

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DERIAN GRAY.

To streamline our interactions and cultivate a sense of familiarity, feel free to call me Ian or Deri. I welcome any other nicknames you might wish to use, as long as they carry a positive essence. I belong to the earth element, embodied by the symbol of the ‘bull,’ often recognized for its unwavering stubbornness, much to the amusement of those around me. My personality type is INFJ according to the MBTI, accompanied by the Enneagram designation of 5w6, and I express myself using masculine pronouns. No worries, I’m well past the legal age, so all’s good on that front.

This account will not be confined to a singular label; instead, it will serve as a tapestry woven from the diverse threads of my experiences and interests. You may find discussions about the books I’m currently engrossed in or the movies that have captured my interest. There will be times when I might drift away from this digital space, whether due to energy constraints or other commitments demanding my focus. If my absence becomes disconcerting, please refrain from following, as my presence may fluctuate like the changing seasons.

Additionally, should you seek more details, a trove of information lies beneath. You are warmly invited to explore at your leisure.

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My interests are wonderfully varied, with a deep passion for immersing myself in Manga and Manhwa, alongside a love for watching Anime.

MANGA: Tougen Anki, Jigokuraku, Kaijuu No.8, Moriarty The Patriot, JJK, Ron Kamonohashi: Deranged Detective, Brutal: Satsujin Kansatsukan No Kokuhaku, From the Red Fog, MADK, Innocent Rouge, Vagabond, Tsui no Taimashi ―Ender Geisterー, Gachiakuta, Soloist of the Prison, Midnight Rain, The Summer Hikaru Died, Dorohedoro and Sakamoto Days.

ANIME: Mushishi, The Idaten Deities Know Only Peace, Shōwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjū, Kemono Jihen, Occultic;Nine, House of Five Leaves, Paranoia Agent, Banana Fish, Joker Game, Dou Kyu Sei, Durarara!!!, World Trigger, Dungeon Meshi, Run with the Wind, Welcome to the Ballroom, Salaryman's Club, Death Parade, Psycho-Pass, 91 Days, Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade.

MANWHA: Return of the Mad Demon, Killer Peter, Hero Killer, Lumine, To The Stars and Back, How to Become Dragon, Eleceed, Distant Sky, My S-Class Hunters, Terror Man, Devil Shot, Prince of Prince, Trauma Center, Castle, The Evil Ring, The World as Seen By The Pizza Delivery Man, Semantic Error, Dear Door, King's Maker, Wet Sand, Shutline, Roses and Champagne, Love in Orbit, High Clear, Stranger, Smyrna & Capri, Nerd Project.

I frequently find myself delving into a wide array of films that pique my curiosity, fueled by my profound admiration for the cinematic arts. While I appreciate many genres, I am particularly captivated by Psychological Thrillers, Horror, Fantasy, War, and Historical films.

In music, my tastes lean towards the dynamic energy of Nu Metal, the emotive depth of Alternative Rock, the intensity of Metalcore, the raw power of Post-Hardcore, and the eclectic charm of Indie Pop/Folk.

BMTH, Deftones, Pierce The Veil, I Prevail, Korn, MCR, Sleeping With Sirens, Slipknot, Architects, Sum 41, Get Scared, The Cure, Slowdive, Loathe, Metallica, Bad Omens.

Fiona Apple, Mitski, Radiohead, Laufey, Lorde, Ethel Cain, Clairo, Tame Impala, The Crane Wives, The Amazing Devil, Daughter, Novo Amor and The Neighbourhood.

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Fragments of a Wounded Odyssey: Tales of Hearts and Havoc.

Almond. Cursed Bunny, Lie With Me, The Cat Who Saved Books, Dua Dini Hari, Giovanni's Room, Kelab dalam Swalayan, Dikoneksi, Gong Nyai Gandrung, The Poppy War, A Little Life, Lord of the Mysteries, Di Tanah Lada, Heaven.

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Countless times that feeling of guilt still follows; almost as if it were a translucent white thread tied tightly to the little finger. Can't be seen with naked eye, but it can still cling to its host like a parasite. If I cut it off, selfishness will ensue.