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Spy x family is very very good because there's a bit where a far right terrorist group says that they want to start a war and a main character responds by saying to them "have any of you ever killed anyone before? Have you ever been killed before? Have you ever had a limb torn off by an artillery shell? Have you ever heard the sound of bones shattering? Have you ever smelled the reek of rotting flesh? Have you ever found the crushed bodies of your parents and siblings in a pile of rubble that used to be your home? Have you ever discovered a blown-off piece of your lover stuck to a wall? Have you ever been so hungry that you tried to eat tree bark? Or stewed a pot of human flesh? Have you ever convinced yourself that your enemy was subhuman so you could...slaughter them like animals? Have you ever been so haunted by shame and regret afterwards that you cried until you vomited? Have you ever had friends who did the same, and then took their own lives? Did you learn nothing about war at your university?!"

and that's the same volume where they adopt a dog that can see into the future

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In my ongoing quest to prove that Twilight is full of feelings and was into Yor immediately, I am going to point out something small and silly that you probably already noticed.

When Yuri visits and, completely drunk, demands Yor and Loid kiss, the Best Spy in the World and known expert in seduction panics for 0.1 seconds. In that short time, he logically thinks through the problem and comes to the conclusion that it’s totally not a Big Deal.

Later, after his tennis game with Fiona and all that crazy stuff, he attempts to explain his relationship with Fiona to Yor (For some reason. Why does he feel the need to do this if he and Yor are just fake married roommates?) and at Yor’s bizarre behavior, he comes to the conclusion that Yor has romantic feelings for him. At this shocking revelation he once again takes 0.1 seconds to react, but this time, for that whole 0.1 seconds, he is completely dumbstruck.

Both moments are played up for humor, but there is this slight change to his reactions, because the idea that Yor is into him is simply Too Much for his whip smart brain to handle. He completely blacks out. When he finds out Yor actually does have romantic feelings for him? I wouldn’t be surprised if he is struck speechless for a whole chapter.

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"I'm not your kind and gentle husband" He says, kindly and gently.

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Slay the princess × Cult of the lamb

'If you don't slay the lamb the world will end'

Echoes of the prophecy reverberate in my mind, repeating endlessly like a solemn prayer.

It is the work of death to bring peace.

I have no say in this matter.

I have to kill the lamb.

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Such a fun game!

.☕️.

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Haha so uhmmm remember how I said Narinder fell first and harder? It doesn't go well for him for a while lmao.

He confessed with full confidence that they would accept him over everyone else cause of course. Why wouldn't they? Oh? They said no! Well actually, they said they're gonna pretend that they didn't hear that haha whoops. Lamb fumbled for another 200 years.

Its fiiiine this opened them both up to talk about it later and they'll test the waters soon.... In another few years. Boy gotta yearn for this lamb. It's what they deserve.

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my favorite genre of fictional character is like "i am terrifying to almost everyone, i'm very good at killing, i can endure anything, i've become exceptionally good at playing into my reputation, and if you try to give me positive social interaction i will react with confusion and cower in a corner like an abused animal. and i may try to shoot you. but there is also a chance i may imprint on you like a feral dog receiving its first loving touch! good luck."

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Trod Bad End doodles from last night + older ones I'm posting so I can delete the files

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hoping lantern rite gives me some interactions

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One of those fandom things that I love is when there’s new characters around and, with the unwavering confidence of an old farmer appraising cattle, fanfic authors take one good look at them, tilt their imaginary hat, and go “Aye. Praise kink, that one. Mighty case of praise kink if I ever saw one.” And everyone else just “aye.”

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Labru vibes

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this is so devastating. laois should have just shot him with a gun

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TRUE CRIME PODCASTER: *in the same cadence you would tell a preschooler a bedtime story* ...and this guy was kinda freakin gross! He would hang his victims on meat hooks in his shack! I'm not gonna lie guys, that sounds pretty icky! Major red flag moment, LOL! But do you know who WOULDNT send you human organs? Our sponsor, HelloFresh!

LOST MEDIA YOUTUBER: *in the same cadence you would issue a debriefing on a terrorist attack* Number 7. The Oonglydoomples. *scary transition sound to slowed down footage of a kids show with a crt filter over it* The Oonglydoomples was a kids show on Nick Jr that ran from 2001 to 2003 that was about Jake Oonglydoomple's adventures in the big city. Only one episode of it has ever surfaced online. We have tried to get into contact with the shows creator, Mark Wankencock, but we've had no luck. Maybe someday, we'll all oonglydoomp once again.

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daily reminder that diagnoses are clinical tools not ontological categories ❤️

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Twilight's Guilt

*Spoilers for Spy x Family Chapter 107*

I haven't seen anyone talking about this yet, but I just can't get it out of my head.

Chapter 107 is a real goldmine for Twilight The Spy. All these amazing connections! All this potential intelligence! He can finally feel like he is extracting what he can from Anya's hard-won connections at Eden, and he is fully using every opportunity possible to squeeze what he can for Operation Strix.

And then Jeeves had to go ahead and say this:

Jeeves really hits the nail on the head here.

He probably knows about the responsibilities and expectations that are put on the Eden kids by all of their parents - of which he understands Damian's position the most intimately - but at this point in time, Jeeves (likely) has no idea of the extra burden that has been put on one child in particular.

That is, Twilight's burden on Anya.

Not just the burden of becoming an Imperial Scholar, and doing well in her tests, and making friends with the right people: only Twilight knows about the burden of being a fake family, of having to complete a mission, and dispose of her when it's over.

"How I hope that these children are to remain forever unburdened by the statures and standpoints of their parents..."

This is what I love about Endo's storytelling so much: so much is said with so few words and gestures.

Because after Jeeves says his piece, we get a look from Twilight. It's interesting - he almost looks bored, but the lack of response is by itself so telling, even when the other parents express their remorse.

To me, he looks exhausted. This pretence must be so exhausting.

Then his gaze turns towards Anya.

And: he's guilty.

Twilight knows that Jeeves is right; that by taking up a fatherly role for this child, he has automatically burdened her with his own goals and expectations.

Which then leads us to this panel:

I love this panel so much. I honestly felt myself tearing up looking at it.

The first thing that the reader notices is the vast expanse of negative space: everything and everyone else has faded away, and now it is only them. Without the bustling festival and rowdy kids and background characters, suddenly the reader is so aware of the distance between Twilight and Anya. We know that this distance is emotional as well as physical; because Twilight has put himself in the position of the 'onlooker', he is separating his emotions and keeping himself distant from Anya as a person.

I also couldn't help but notice that this panel, unlike every other one on this spread, did not have a border. Endo intended the negative space around them to be endless and borderless, to show that the guilt has the potential to swallow Twilight entirely.

Finally, the size difference between them: while we can interpret this as distance, I also see their physical forms as an illustration of their difference in power. In that sense, one could say that Twilight is larger in this panel, because he overwhelms Anya in the power that he holds over her. He is her 'father'; the man who took her away from the orphanage; and the man who could put her back without a second's notice. Twilight is fully aware of all of this.

(Despite his ignorance of Anya's telepathic power, the scale is still very much in Twilight's favour.)

We even see this side of Anya as though from Twilight's perspective: suddenly, Anya is just a child that caught up in something so much bigger. With our view just of Twilight's back, we can imagine the weight that this must have on his shoulders, bearing a burden that only he is aware of.

And yet, here you are, Twilight...

Despite the attention paid to Twilight's guilt in this double-page spread, Twilight is still very much back to 'business as usual' within the next couple of pages after this. After all, he has a mission to complete. As a spy, he should be adept at compartmentalising his emotions by now...

... Or perhaps, his only option is to keep squashing his guilt down, before he drowns in it.

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The new chapter (chapter 108) I noticed there is a difference on Anya's wording in Japanese about "bullying"

In this chapter, Anya use two different words to describe "bullying"; いじわる (ijiwaru) and いじめる (ijimeru). While it seems like it's the same, turns out these two words have a slightly different meaning.

I did some searchs, turns out the word いじわる (ijiwaru) means "mean", it's an expression that is suitable to describe for someone intentionally annoys, irritates or harshly treat them, but without malicious intent/result, and it tends to be a one-off occurrence.

Meanwhile the word いじめる(ijimeru) means literally "bullying", a malicious act of feeling superior to those weaker than oneself and getting satisfaction from the other person's sadness, and it's continuous.

I'm going to compare how Anya use the words here, I'm taking example from chapter 15.

In chapter 15,

いじめてくるからきらい (iji mete kuru kara kirai)

(he bullies/intimidate (me) so I hate (him))

This sentence is used for Anya to describe how she feels about Damian. It was reasonable, considering this was set really early in the story, right before they had the dodgeball game. Anya's didn't know about Damian's good nature yet and she still see him as a real bully.

However, in chapter 108

いじわるしてくるからきらい (iji waru shite kuru kara kirai)

I feel like the supposed closely correct translation is (he's being mean (to me) so I hate him).

Like I explained earlier, the word いじわる (ijiwaru) isn't as harmful as the word いじめる (ijimeru), and I feel like it's important to point out too because of the next scene..

じなんのははらすぼす(じなんのちち)にいじめられてる…？ (jinan no haha rasu bosu (jinan no chichi) ni ijimerareteru...?)

(second son's mother is being bullied by last boss (second son's father?))

Here, Anya use the word いじめる (ijimeru) when describing of what she thinks of how Melinda and Donovan's relationship be like.

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Well, I'm loss at words. Let me know what you think lol (and feel free to correct me if you can speak or fluent about the Japanese language!)

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This has been a most worthwhile evening 🍽