sin-sweet-honey

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sometimes i wish i had an easy answer for why i’m depressed.

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I have apologized too many times for what my sadness made me miss. I have lost friends and family because leaving the bed felt like running a marathon and the thought of actually leaving my house made me dizzy. Each time that I skipped a family event or declined an offer to go out, I tried to explain that truly I would love to but there is this darkness that lives in my head listing hundreds of reasons to stay home. that cripples me and makes me lose my breath. that makes me shake like I have just walked through a field of snow with nothing but a t shirt on. but no matter how many times I try to describe this darkness, they never understand. so I cannot apologize for what my sadness made me do anymore. and it is simply because you wouldn’t understand anyways.

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It’s simple, really. I was never more than your maybe. Maybe we would work out, maybe you loved me, maybe I was good enough for you.

- C. H.

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“I thought it was the end — it was the end of it. It was the moment when I lost you. Little did I know I had to lose you more than once. You think I lost you over the last text messages we exchanged, but it was not it. I lost you the next morning again when your name no longer appeared on my phone screen. I lost you once more when my friend said my eyes have lost their shine and I lost you one more time when I picked up my phone to dial your number until I realised that my love was suffocating you and you wanted to breathe. I lose you every time I miss you and realise that you don’t miss me at all.” by memoirsofbilal (via Instagram)

— and I’m still losing you

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And I should have

done the same thing,

like the way you did,

I should have

let you go so easily,

without even thinking.

But you see, I couldn't //ma.c.a