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just thought about an inquisitor!anders au in the context of my worldstate. ruminating.

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the whole 'nobody would miss me if i were gone' line of reasoning is so completely and mindblowingly false, it's almost laughable if you take a couple steps back. there's a lady at work who has been there for maybe two or three weeks and has only talked to me a handful of times, ask where the necklace i usually wear went. another person asked where i was cause i wasn't scheduled for about a week. i regularly think of friends who have deactivated their accounts or who i've lost contact with and what id tell them. i still think about people i haven't talked to for years even though i didn't know them well. people still think about you even if you're a passing specter on the street. and that's not even holding a candle to how much the people who are personally involved in your life care. people do notice and care. all the time. it might be hard to see it or remember it but people do care. ily.

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Good for you.

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Adult realization: you will make mistakes, you will act irrationally. You will commit some wrongs that cannot be fully righted. People will dislike you and misunderstand you for all sorts of reasons. None of these make you a bad person. All you can do is try your best to be kind and just to people, grow and learn.

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comic about driving i guess

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which morrigan is the hottest

origins

inquisition

veilguard

no nuance, just which is the best

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I haven’t really streamed or posted much about streaming the last few months because, at risk of being a little too real, I have been in the worst depressive episode of my entire life!

But good news! This horse has become a load bearing pillar in my mental stability!

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ricebourbon.....

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No fr it is like.

I do not know any of the people who’ve worked on Dragon Age personally. I cannot say with certainty that they’re hyper racists who just want people to stop talking about the suffering of minorities and move on already.

However. When their body of work, consistently, depicts minorities of an actively oppressed culture as being obsessed with “old” grudges and needing to let go and be willing to understand the people who are currently still oppressing them, it leaves a really bad taste in your mouth!

At best, there are some ignorant and gross attitudes these people have that they did not (and considering veilguard, still do not) interrogate and need to unpack. At worst, they have written their frustration about being white people told to feel empathy for groups of people who have a suffered and are currently suffering into their fantasy setting.

That’s uh. That’s not good BioWare! That’s really bad actually!

Also just wanna slide this in here (i’d @ sunlight-shunlight but im actually still pretty new to tumblr and do not know if that’s a faux pas. if you see this you’re cool and i love your opinions)

And like this is the thing, right. Dragon Age’s complete dogshit treatment of oppressed people dovetails right into the franchise, and its writers, continuously kind of resting on their laurels because what, gay and trans people exist? Yeah I love Krem! Yeah I’m glad Weekes was able to come out! Yeah it’s awesome that Rook can be trans and nonbinary and actually have a meaningful discussion about that, genuinely! That’s such a rare freaking thing in even media that includes non-cis identities. But when this comes alongside the actual blood libel bullshit they do with the elves, the worst the Qun have EVER been depicted, the way Taash being NB is treated as mutually exclusive with their cultural identity, it’s like the exact kind of shit white queers are told about regarding how they devalidify and downplay the struggles and experiences of queer POC. And it’s a blind spot these people refuse to take real criticism of. Like fuck, I’m not defending some of the more personal attacks, but no wonder people got nasty when it’s four games of this. Being queer yourself doesn’t mean you can’t also be insanely racist! It’s all flash and no substance.

okay it's been so long since i played awakening and. love this expansion, love all the characters introduced in it

but man did i forget that all the weirdest stuff about how these games treat the dalish come out ROARING in the the way velanna is framed and treated, which sucks because i love her so much,,,

It's just so striking to me that all your options, even as a Dalish yourself, are consistently to talk down to and demean Velanna, to make her feel foolish for being "fixated" on the past, which is...consistent with how the Dalish overall are talked about going forward.

Like the first conversation for example, she's just. Openly grieving her people's lack of coherent stories and heroes. I didn't have the foresight to screenshot the earlier bits, but she talks about how she's envious of humans having so many different heroes and role models of all stripes. The Dalish don't have that. And your responses are to...tell her to get over it? For real? Not a single option to empathize with her.

Velanna is a genuinely introspective character for as young and angry as she also is, but that's often painted as a negative, like the ways she introspects are still "wrong." I love Velanna, but I dread talking to her because every time I do, I know I'm going to see dialogue where I like none of the options because they're all purpose built for lecturing her. It sucks! I don't like it! A lot of the things she feels are valid and I don't like that it's assumed you'll only want to tell her that they aren't.

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been playing uma musume for one singular day and had a dream last night about training a 6’5” uma named slipknot. i guess this is my life now

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yeah Im amab... assigned MONSTER at birth... I clutch half my face RRRARRGHH... I CANT... CONTROL IT... my eyes start glowing daemon fire and I grow wings one angle one devil and I grow one horn and and claws and a tail and my teeth get big and sharp and my arms and legs are stained black red

BEAUTIFUL TRANSGENDER ELF GF: fight this my love... it isn't you...

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Whats the julia equivalent of the scene where you beg ricardo to not shave off his moustache. Do you beg her to not shave off her bush

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esther:

im sorry why is this so fucking funny

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LMAO so, recently someone tried to SCAM me, so i'll show you what happened and the telltales of it being a scam.

This one is quite obvious but i know people who are just starting their artist careers and might not have experiece.

Follow the thread:

🚩#1: They pick your most famous/Popular art as reference. They don't know what you actually sell.

🚩#2: They will pick a random popular character. They're not roleplayers or anything. They're not here for the art in any level

You ask me, what are the odds they really like Goku? Oh, well, you'll see. At this point i check their profile for anythign that might indicate it, but as you'll see you won't have to.

🚩#3: They say they saw my ToS. On it i state i only work with paypal and google forms.

🚩#4: Random issue with payment method. They might have a real problem with it, but see; they'll never ever accept any other payment method, such as Zelle, CashApp, Payoneer, Ko-fi, etc.

I already knew this drill so, let's continue.

🚩#5: I love playing dumb lmao. Anyway, this scam revolves on them either sending you "too much money" and asking it back or something like it. I won't be following through because i know it'll be annoying.

BE ADAMANT WITH YOUR METHODS. Do NOT EVER bend them for randos.

🚩#6: They're so ready with the info on how the payment works it's fucking funny.

The reason I PERSONALLY use PayPal INVOICES (no any other payment within paypal) is that they're safe for both me and my client. My rules are stated clearly.

MAKE A ToS I BEG YOU YOUNG ARTIST

🚩#7: They're not even a good scammer lmao they REFUSE to go on my PROFILE to get a link or read anything.

I use Forms because it collects the client requests and it's easier for me to read it all in one place. It ALSO makes scammers bored.

🚩#8: They're so disinterested on the art they don't care for posing, vibes, colors, nothing. Again, they're NOT here for art. That's hilarious.

🚩#8: Same as above. They don't care for posing or anything.

On my art they link me, i have a vampire almost staking himself in a state of euphoria.

IMAGINE VAMPIRE GOKU STAKING HIMSELF THAT'S SO FUCKIGN FUNNY MY BRO, THINK YOUR SCAM THROUGH MAYBE

🚩#9: They will price your own work for you. And they'll overshot what we, smaller artists, charge for it.

They'll overshot by a lot.

They want you to be impressed and showing "generosity" usually gets people who need monay into risky situations. That's just plain cruel.

🚩#9: Same as above. Over generosity and eagerness to pay.

They're not even with the sketch, this haven't been an hour, they don't have any work form me but OH GOD they're SO READY to pay you NEED TO KNOW they WANTS TO PAY YOU SO BAD

Lmao yeah it's working out ❤️

THIS ONE IS JUST HILARIOUS BRO I CAN'T EVEN.

ANYWAY let's continue

🚩#10: They don't know me. They don't follow me. They broke every rule on my ToS. They're making me go through a payment method i am unfamiliar and don't use.

They don't care for my process. They're not interested on my sketch.

BE. ADAMANT. ABOUT. YOUR. RULES. AND. PROCESS.

Now, for the beautiful closure of this:

Have a ToS. Don't bend the rules for randos.

Use Invoices. Be sure you're safe.

Use forms if you'd like. Requests through DM and Discord ARE COMMON FOR OTHER ARTISTS. I personally don't like it, i have ADHD.

Being an artist on an online space is dangerous. If you need help, poke an artist you know, see how they operate and if it fits you. Most of them would help you.

🚩#11: goku isn't even on their icon 😭

This is the account that tried to scam me.

#art is life ❤️

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im sorry this frame with varric is actually about to make me burst into tears