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Uthy guthy my puthy he wanna thake him a lthooky

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Food Log 10/19, 800cal limit

Breakfast: 3 Egg whites+toast (108cals)

Lunch: 1 Cup of green beans (60cals)

Snacks/other: Popcorn+C/S cake (115cals)

Dinner: Grilled cheese+burrito(410cals)

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683cals in- 2116cals out= -1433 net total

683/800cals eaten!

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My safe foods•

Top 5 is french cut green beans, egg whites, almond milk+vanilla flavouring coffee, popcorn, and wheat toast w/o crust.

All are lower than 60calories per serving and they’re the only food i eat outside of dinner(aka when i’m with family).

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Fear foods i try to avoid•

Any baked goods or non-diet sweets. If there’s a large amount of them and the tiniest inconvenience happens to me, 90% of the time i’ll binge. it sucks that pretty much every holiday and gathering has sweets and desserts because now they stress me tf out which causes me to binge :/

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What kind of ed do i have•

I don’t have a diagnosis, but i feel like i fit with EDNOS the most. i go through periods of being obsessed with restricting every single calories that go in and out of my body, then i can’t stop stuffing my face, then i don’t even feel like i have an eating disorder. it all comes and goes and leaves me losing maybe 5lbs after a few months.

To sum up: Ednos w/

Restricting, fasting, binging, purging via vomit, purging via over exercising, and periods of “normal eating”

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i didn't weight myself for 2 weeks i think

and i think i gained weight

IM SUCH A FAILURE

im tired of crying

im tired of being fat

im tired of seeing thin people

im tires of seeing thin people says 'iM fAt'

im tired of binge

im tired of eating

im tired of calculate calories

im tired of this life...

i just really want to be skinny.

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Bad diet advice to ignore•

Never ever use fucking laxatives, they’re addictive and gross and they fuck yo your body faster than you think. if you’re constipated or whatever try a saltwater flush, they suck too but at least they don’t ruin your intestines.

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i imagine all those impossibly perfect people in thinspo feel so light. just able to take a huge breath, rejuvenate their body like drinking cold water and feeling it go through your throat. imagine them having put together lives, plenty of friends and family around them, all jealous of their body. imagine they’re happy.

maybe i’ll be too when i’m that small

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did i mention my mom sold our scale because “no one used it”?

fucking hate it here

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Stats•

Height: 5’4”

Weight: estimated 135(mom got rid of our scale fml)

SW:145lbs

Goals•

Stop binging

Do the Among Us Diets i found

Do school everyday

Lose 1/2 inch off my waistlin

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i did a salt water flush today and almost shitted myself at tennis tryouts🤪

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sorry i’ve been gone i’ve not been doing well. i feel so out of control over everything. my family, finances, friends, school, covid, the stupid ducking gov. i wish i was one of those people who lost their appetite when theyre stressed, but i’m not. i’ve been binging and working out like crazy, but i’m trying to stop. planning on having 3 meals today, 2 tomorrow, and 1 the next day. after i’ve been doing OMAD for a comfortable amount of time i’ll start CICO again.

i just want everything to go back to precovid. no living between checks, no binging, no loneliness. i just want to go back.

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1)I’m seeing myself fall into a binge-restrict cycle. The last time i’ve binged like i have been, I gained 20lbs in 2 months and i was so devastated, it’s what drove me to start restricting. I can’t let that happen again.

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omfg

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How to Ditch Amazon

Support your local libraries and the small businesses that are actually making the products you want.  Fuck Jeff Bezos and the systemic, universal worker abuse, gaslighting, and brutality they live off of.

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Reason #1

71% of adults in America are overweight and 40% are obese. don’t add to that horrible statistic.

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Reblog if you’d be okay if your friend came out as transgender

let’s see how many transphobics we can weed out