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you ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎were ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎my ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎everything .

but , to‎ ‎ ‎ ‎you , ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎i‎ ‎ ‎ ‎was‎ ‎ ‎

nothing ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎more‎ ‎ ‎ ‎than‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ a

warm‎ ‎ ‎ ‎body.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

yet‎ ‎ , ‎ ‎ i‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ still‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ love‎ ‎ ‎ ‎you‎ ‎ ‎ ‎,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎darling‎ ‎ ‎ ‎.

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I’ll play you songs

I’ll wright out our dreams

anything you want or need

I’ll make you gifts

I’ll kiss when you bleed

anything you want, baby

all I ask

is one small thing

call me when you’re ready…

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it's all fine and dandy till you've got an 88 in one class and you're a perfectionist and you wanna kys about it till you've got a bunch of nti's in this one class and you're so fucking burnt out and you keep having mental breakdowns in that class and you hate the teacher and the kids and it's terrible till you only have two things keeping you alive and you feel like none of youre friends would care if you died till you tell people the wrong things and they were the only people keeping you from shing/killing ys and then they stop talking to you till you deserve nothing till you daydream about your death till you stop talking to everyone till you make everyone hate you till you clam up till you deserve that trauma till you hate yourself so much that you force yourself to stay alive just to spite yourself because you don't deserve to die till you're a walking corpse and no one notices because no one notices you till you wish that attempt had worked because anythign is better than this till you wish that they had gotten the best of you till you wish you could have stayed home so you could relapse till you can't do anything without hating yourself can't think a thought that isn't hatred towards yourself towards the world till youd sacrifice yourself for even the smallest of things till mere existance is a chore till you cant help but add hate to a world already full of it till you wish people would forget you existed till you wish you could maybe tell someone and maybe they would be ok with you till you wish you could just exist without someone most likley yourself beating you down

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tbh i dont think anyone would care besides two people like fuck the ecosystem none of them would actually do that its just a lie formulated to make sure my friends dont do it. like yes i will if they will but i dont think they give enough of a shit about me that they will if i do-

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ok but why do people go "so whats your legal name" ???? like ermm i dont go by that name so please just call me by my chosen name !!

the person who asked is rlly nice so i dont think they meant any harm by it but it was still kinda scary. i dunno.

like yes ive wondered what peoples legal names are before but ive never asked because thats not rlly something you ask i think?? i dunno it could be one of those unspoken rules that i just dont know about. the wonder kinda went away by now so i dont rlly know.

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no profile yet but i rant here cuz life is chaotically interesting i have a main account but i will not link it

i make typos!! i dont go through my posts after so there will be typos