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I never realized how calming sh really is until I'm almost ripping my hair out and hitting my head trying to not cut and distract myself, now I've relapsed and I feel so calm w the blood running down my arm

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Why the hell did I wake up at three am, fall back asleep, wake up at four am, Fall asleep again and then wake up at five thirty which is 20 minutes before my alarm rings so it doesn't even make sense to sleep again bc I'd be waking up 20 minutes later. And I have a headache ughhjdjxjkdkskxjdkidkxnykykxk

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Real <3

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I hate this, I'm so tired I can't even properly cut myself without collapsing back onto my bed bc it takes too much energy, I haven't done one productive thing all day and I want to smash my head into a wall but I'm guessing I'm too lazy for that too. Fuck everything why the hell do I also need to deal w school and fuckin grades now like genuinely this is probably the worst I've been in a bit and idk what to do abt it. Can someone just come over, cuddle with me and cut my body for me and then clean it all up n praise me? I genuinely cannot with life rn and sleeping will not make it better bc that's the only time I can be alone and fucking think

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I'm gonna cry I think one of my fav moots just got t worded :( I can't go on their acc and the username says disabled how do I find them againnnsnjsuwvdjaka

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Feelin insane in a good way w this in my hand at night

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AHHHHH I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE CLINGYNESS, MY FP WAS CONFUSED BC I RANDOMLY DISSAPIERED AND THEN THEY SPAMMED ME AND EVEN CALLED ME ONCE UGH WHY DO I LOVE THAT SM AGAHSHHSUWISBDBAJJWYDJA

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Omg myself is that you??

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Couldn't say it better

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I can see this happening 2 years from now lmao, if I'm still alive by then ofc

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I need this I fear

Syncing up our self harm times when

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Lmao I'm in biology and the teacher js said "being a teenager is an interesting time for the brain" as I'm scrolling through Tumblr and looking at bloody cuts like, yeah ya think?

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So I'm at school right? And suddenly I stand up and I feel smt wet running down my leg under my jeans and like I cut there yesterday and I'm pretty sure that the wound opened and the blood just decided to run down my leg so that's a fun first day lmao

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Already know that I won't have any social battery the moment I step in that classroom

Gl at school for those that have it

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TW some boring rant

Mentions bpd, ptsd

So I guess I have an fp according to my fp lmao. Idk we talked and apparently ur not supposed to be this attached to a person without it being smt else but also I don't have bpd and don't experience most of the symptoms so idk. I might have PTSD tho so that's nice /s

Idk I'm not sure how to feel about this so I'm just posting it on Tumblr like a fuckin maniac

Anyway that's all

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Wow this year is going so well I'm already crying about something I can't control^0^

(I hate myself and hope I did this year)

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Man can one of my mooties ask to see some pics I didn't post I really want attention and I'm having such bad urges fuck