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Doing this for the little girl who got body shamed by everyone.

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Honestly if i told someone i had 3d or 4n4, I'm pretty sure they wouldn't believe me bc I don't look the part

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Khreshchatyk at night, Kiev (Kyiv), Ukrainian SSR, 1979 (photo by Mykola Kozlovskyi)

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nobody support you like that one internet friend you’ve never met

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so, i'm working out again, drinking little to no soda (and only diet!) and less caffeine in general

but also more determined than ever to set all my savings aside for a fucking tummy tuck because i could work out 23 hours a day and this loose skin just isn't gonna go anywhere without surgery. i'm fucking tired of it.

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30 ✌️

Where are the ADULT Edblrs at??

I wanna follow people but everyone that shows up in my for you feed is a minor 🥲 please interact if you’re an adult edblr. I’m 23🫶🏼

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Me: Wow I feel good 

My body dysmorphia: You look like this

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i've gained 13 lbs in the past few months and i'm so angry at myself

started working out again today, need to make sure i actually stay dedicated to doing it every day

ugh. always the same old cycles.

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the constant struggle of

”WE WOULD HAVE BEEN AT OUR GOAL WEIGHT IF YOU DIDNT BINGE”

and

“its okay everyone binges you can try again”

anywho today is going much much better than yesterday 😁🙏

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my first instinctive thought was "nah i couldn't follow this" but then when i stopped and thought about it...i already eat a very small breakfast, and 2 whole sweet potatoes is a LOT. the only part that would be super difficult would be the protein shake because i'm so horrible about snacking after dinner even when i've eaten real food. but that's what would make it a challenge. hmm 🤔

trying this kp0p d!et for a week

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I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

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what truly kills me is that i'm literally at a place right now where i lost so much weight so rapidly a few years ago that no matter how fast/slow/healthy/unhealthy i continue to lose now, i'll never be toned or flat unless i get cosmetic surgery. my loose skin is in places where no amount of physical exercise can tighten it, my ONLY option to ever look flatter is to be able to have a tummy tuck someday, which i cannot afford and don't want to have until after i have kids anyway.

so i'm just stuck being decently happy with my weight but deeply unhappy with my shape. and it sucks.

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going to the gym the second i get home from thanksgiving dinner >>>>>>

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it starts with one. one binge, one snack, one cheat day, one sweet, one piece of pizza or fried chicken – and then you're 30, 50, 100 pounds heavier and miserable day in and day out. that's how you get fat, by letting yourself be weak. suck up the hunger so you don't have to suck it in for once in your life.

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does anyone else get angry when they see a skinny person eating unhealthy or eating a-lot like why can’t that be me?