shleyitsme

[shleyitsme]

When all you think of is him and that’s all you want to do. No one else just you. I don’t want to move on because you’re still in my mind.

- 5JUL21

[shleyitsme]

Day 2

Looked at my phone.

Checked my messages.

Nothing.

Read something about someone not ready for commitment.

I know I can’t wait for you.

I know I got to live my life still.

I don’t want to be emotionally attach to anyone right now, but you.

I can’t keep thinking you are everything when you can’t do the same for me.

I have to keep moving. I have to be strong.

19Jun21

[shleyitsme]

Day 1

I woke up expecting you Kevin.

Anything of you.

Any touch of you.

Any message of you.

I expected you.

This is going to be hard. I miss you already.

18Jun21

[shleyitsme]

My heart feels heavy. I can’t do anything about it. We’re going to drift away soon.

[shleyitsme]

No tears

Our last night. Our last night in San Diego. I hope I summed up San Diego for you. No tears just forever. You know Ashley now you know me. There’s no tears, there’s just forever. You’re forever in my heart.

I think I know why I cried so hard when Diego left... that was forever a goodbye.

- 04DEC2020

[shleyitsme]

Gotta keep pushing

- 01DEC2020

[shleyitsme]

Love

I never have loved like this before.

- 28NOV20

[shleyitsme]

Ashley please don’t give up

- 25NOV20

[shleyitsme]

God

I have been so distant again. I am so sorry, it’s crazy because I really do need you and I haven’t been in you presence at all. I am unknown in my life and I can only hope and have faith that you will be guiding me. Thank you for staying with me even if I didn’t even recognize it. I love you. 

- 22NOV2020 

[shleyitsme]

123

We are apart right now and I can genuinley feel how much I love you. How did you do this? How did I fall for you?

- 16NOV2020

[shleyitsme]

[shleyitsme]

Kevin

I am falling in love with you, because of that I’m realizing my weakness and the things I need to do for myself. I’m not ready to be in love with someone. I am still recovering from my past and I’m not sure how long it’s going to take but I know it still eats me up in the inside. I love it when you’re there for me, I love it when you reassure me, I love how you give me every word I need to hear to know you’re there. But I’m not there, Ashley at her greatness is not there. I still have things about myself I need to work on. I am not me yet. You said to me the other day “ You’re trying time build a relationship you had with Diego”. I don’t want to do that, I want to build kash. I want kash for the rest of my life. I want you. I have to be me before it can be us. I love how the love for you makes me realize how much of person I want to be for the both of us. I know we are going to be far apart and we don’t know what it’s going to be like for us. I do know I love you and it would break me so much when you find someone else to love. All I know God will bring you back to me if it was meant to be. Kevin Joshua Joseph, you have experienced a glimpse of my love and I hope you open your heart out a little bit more and show nothing but love and I promise you things will come falling to the palms of your hands. I told you from the start I love you for your mind and heart... nothing else. Everyone else just gotta see what I see and you will achieve so much in life. Thank you for being my Kevin. I always will be here for you, always.

- Ashley

20OCT2020 @ 0354

[shleyitsme]

Why do I love you so much?

- 05OCT2020

[shleyitsme]

I was so In love that it still hurts me till this day.

- 03OCT20

[shleyitsme]

[shleyitsme]

Push away the pain and fill the void.

[shleyitsme]

I hate it when I feel like I’m going away from someone. I wish I can stay and love someone the way I do.