shittydrawnsollux

[shittydrawnsollux]

this account is pretty much abandoned (despite recent news) so i just wanted to make some notes on my time here in the bdhs community

- a lot of you are great, wonderful people im glad to have gotten to meet, and look forward to continuing my friendships with

- some of you less so! boundaries were crossed, unsavoury actions were taken, and unfortunately i did often find myself dealing with cleaning many, many, many messes up

- shipping the characters is one thing. shipping the mods was weird 😁 we were all 14-16 during the height of bdhs and i had grown adults in my dms sending me shipping charts of us the people. that was weird.

- related point, sending in nsfw asks was weird! buckets, pailing, we get it, wish far less of that happened in the first place

- the point is its badly drawn.... just as a general rule dont make demands of random people on the internet they owe you nothing theyre usually making content for their own purposes. if anything youll just push them to burn out faster then boom no content at all

- still, the badly drawn part of it did inspire so much creativity and enabled people to explore things without fear of perfection, and those parts i think were genuinely really awesome

but yeah! solmod out

[shittydrawnsollux]

I feel like I will lose. My mind.

Sollux *does* care about you. Back when you two were younger he ignored you, that's what he does. But here he has zero reason to continue interacting with you, but he does it anyway. He could easily ignore you, easily treat you like a yelling wiggler, but he engages with you.

It just so happens you and him are both so on guard that it usually dissolves into fighting. But even then- you know as well as I do that he is crazy powerful! He could easily fry you into toast, and has had many opportunities to do so! But even at his angriest he's held back. He's just looking for excuses to be near you.

I wish you luck in figuring out your own feelings because I'm sure you two have a lot of history that you must work through first. But even if you two don't want to admit it, you work *well* together. And he cares. Do you care too?

since shittydrawnsollux has moved on i feel like i can post this now. this is the oldest ask in my inbox right now and its over a year old, this is exactly where we were going with that arc congratulations anon you win

[shittydrawnsollux]

sollux is getting LAID in these polls

he gets bitches on this blog all the time

[shittydrawnsollux]

do your best ❤