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a sweet little bit of john and taka in these trying times-

Late Night Talks

“Do you think they love me?”

Taka could feel John shifting on the opposite end of the bed. He knew it was going to be one of these nights, nights where John couldn’t help but overthink the day, spiraling into thinking about the week, the month, the year, their whole relationship—

“I know they do.”

He answered with as much sincerity as he could muster in his voice, his hand reaching out to feel John next to him. He felt his bare chest, and then slid his hand up to his cheek, brushing over his cheekbone before thumbing at the scar near the corner of John’s lip.

It was quiet for another moment, Takahashi feeling John’s lips quiver before they finally dipped into a frown. He moved this thumb to press into John’s dimple, as if he could massage it away.

“I think they think I’m too much.”

There was another moment of quiet, Taka’s lips pursed, knowing nothing he said in that moment would make it past John’s ears.

“I think I’m too much,” he murmured, Taka humming non-committedly as he felt John’s hand rest on his hip, thumbing at the waist of his briefs, feeling over the raised texture of the brand name.

“They probably think I’m annoying, at the very least.”

Takahashi heard him sigh like it was the truth, like part of him knew for sure. He let his hand reach for John’s lower back, pulling him a little closer. John moved without even thinking.

“They probably think I’m obnoxious. I bother them all the time, never enter a room without hitting them with a pick up line, never leave without a stupid quip or a slap on the ass…”

Taka could tell that John was in his head, ignoring his gentle pushes and pulls, moving how Taka guided him. He just kept talking, letting his thoughts out in a constant stream of doubt and anxiety, Taka letting it wash over them both as he pulled John to be closer to him.

“I mean how stupid could I be? I’ve always been too much, for everyone… hell, even Sonya told me to tone it down. And I mean, I did, but I’m still… y’know…”

Takahashi just hummed again, busy tangling their legs together while John sighed. He felt him tuck his head against his collarbone, turning his head to fit just perfectly in the little crevice Taka had made for him.

“…You really think they love me?” he asked, finally aware enough of his surroundings to remember that Taka was there and awake. He squeezed John a little tighter, turning his head to plant a kiss on the top of his head.

“I know they do,” he murmured, nosing at his hair and enjoying the lingering smell of his oak-y shampoo, “I know I do. And I know you’ve worked incredibly hard to get to where you are today, John. You’re not annoying, you’re never a burden, and you will always be loved.” Taka couldn’t help but curl around John more, as if he could physically shield him from his late night thoughts.

“…So you do think I’m annoying sometimes?”

“That cannot be your takeaway from what I just said to you,” Taka couldn’t help his sass, the hand on the back of John’s neck squeezing as chastisement. He couldn’t help but melt at John’s tired laugh.

“I’m messing with you… mostly,” he muttered, Taka squeezing again, “Alright, alright… I know you love me.”

Taka hummed, kissing the top of John’s head again, nuzzling closer and dragging John in with his arms and legs, holding him tight.

“…Thank you.”

Takahashi knew he wasn’t going to elaborate further, knew what he meant and could only hum and nod in return. He couldn’t help but pull away just enough to tilt John’s head up, pressing a sweet kiss to his lips. His version of ‘I have you’ that assured them both.

He relished John’s gentle sigh, couldn’t help but almost cradle him as he melted, pulled back just to kiss him all over again.

He took special care to turn his head and give him one more kiss, right at the corner of his mouth, right over his little scar… Taka loved him more than anything.

“I love you,” John let the words out in a breath, as if they were so simple and so easy to say. Taka pursed his lips, pulling John’s face back into his collarbones, tucking his chin over his head and holding him tight, pressing his nose to his hair again.

“I love you too.”

The words were small, and fragile, and so terribly quiet in the stillness of the night, but John had heard. Taka could tell with how he felt him smile against his chest, with how he tried to burrow into him and get closer and closer and closer, with how he held them together all on his own.

Taka hoped the morning never came, his one selfish desire to keep John in his arms like this forever, tucked away and comfortable and safe, hidden from whatever it was that plagued him in the night. Taka could only sigh, melting into John’s form and cradling him from the world, and pray that John would stay with him those extra five minutes in the morning.

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figured it out lol

i just spent 30 minutes editing an ao3 skin only for it to not save bc i was doing it in the ao3 editor and i fucked up and out two hashtags for a singular hex code

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Hi

hello

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can some1 explain to me how when i copy and paste the exact same code it still breaks. its the code without any changes. the exact same thing as the code that works. and it doesn't work. wh. what.

i just spent 30 minutes editing an ao3 skin only for it to not save bc i was doing it in the ao3 editor and i fucked up and out two hashtags for a singular hex code

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no bc this is ridiculous because all i did was change the hex codes and half the code isn't working anymore???? it's hex codes.

it's fucking hex codes

how could i have fucked it up THAT BAD????

ITS HEX CODES.

it's been an hour of me JUST CHANGING HEX CODES

i just spent 30 minutes editing an ao3 skin only for it to not save bc i was doing it in the ao3 editor and i fucked up and out two hashtags for a singular hex code

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i just spent 30 minutes editing an ao3 skin only for it to not save bc i was doing it in the ao3 editor and i fucked up and out two hashtags for a singular hex code

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wanted to watch a show and netflix japan doesn't have it

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ood au johnshi drawing with Bagi (their tw and bsky) aaaa,.,.,. lil sillies,,

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just meet me at the!!!!

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I'll boop back anyone who reblogs/likes this post! I need to BOOP!!

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!! JOHNSHI IS CELEBRATING THE ONLY WAY THEY KNOW HOW AND THAT'S... well... read the fic--

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augghhh doodles,,,

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every time i go on twt im reminded why i prefer tumblr and then i go to tumblr and forget how it works

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kung lao doing johnny's makeup (gone wrong)

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love seeing ghost plug my tumblr like i use it more than once a month

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OUR BOYYYSSSS

it's been a bit since i've busted out the drawing tablet but i did some doodles today after having.. a rough week- little guys based off their animalities!! i hope you enjoy them as much as a i do 😌

(also as per usual shoutout @shinshoyu for fueling my delusions and coming up with this au with me-)