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So it started so randomly, like I was making notes on "how to talk to girls" for this shy kid at school, yeah I was at school, and I spent some time stressing cause I didn't have a small notepad. So I was like okay whatever.. I'll write it down on a portion of a regular notebook, then cut it accordingly and make a small "How to" book. But instead of using scissors like a normal person, I proceeded to use those rectangular knives they use to chop meat.

Afterwards some guests came over, two kids. They immediately took a liking to me. The boy, looked about 14, had two rows of teeth. Up and down. I mean he had his regular teeth, and behind them were more teeth. I questioned it, he said he never lost his baby teeth. Neat.

Then I was going through like a maze to reach.. somewhere. I had shadow like creatures guiding me, and they lead me to a room where a cute guy was unconscious, sleeping beauty vibes. Shadow creature dude told me I had to kiss him to get the next clue. I said that's wrong, I can't kiss an unconscious guy. He said it's in his contract so it's alright. So I got on top him, like I was hovering over his abdomen as I leaned down to kiss him. I'm so extra. He woke up, mumbled about my next location, and went back to sleep.

Next I was in a forest. A dead forest. Just skeletal trees. A woman was there, wearing tattered clothes and filing her nails. She looked up at me briefly, uninterested, and told me, "This isn't the time, just wake up." And I did.

12.10.2020

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Apollo showed up in my room, and turned my alarm off. I woke up to find that my alarm didn't ring, I'm very late and my class starts in 10 minutes. Apollo made me sleep in and I missed my class.

- 09.06.2022

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A giant snow monster showed up and fucking crushed Olaf the snowman, and I cheered, but this mf kept regenerating. It was a fucking nightmare.

- 12.05.2022

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Thought I'd quickly write down a weird dream I had back when I was 4 years old. Yep. I was scared of it for quite a few days after that. Then I forgot it.. and then it suddenly came back to me when I was much older. I remembered the house in that dream, did the math, figured out my age.

So I had that dream when I was 4, when we were living in a two bedroom apartment. The rooms were quite big, so our couch was set in one of the bedrooms. In the dream, I was in that room. I was sitting on the bed by myself, my mom and brother were on the 3 seated couch, and my dad was on the single seated one. The room was dark, with a blue night light on. And there was a monkey. One asshole of a monkey.

It wasn't a realistic monkey, more like a cartoon monkey? You know, brown, skinny arms and legs, no hair on face and hands and feets, long skinny tails with the tip curled in a question mark position. Think Boots but lanky, brown, and creepy. This fucker was annoying af. Just jumping about the room, climbing stuff, throwing things. At first I was annoyed, cause why is there a monkey in our room? Why aren't my parents kicking it out? Why were they all just sitting around, not even moving.

The monkey seemed to notice me right then. It crawled it's way to the bed I was sitting on, then jumped over to me. Now I was scared. My parents still weren't doing anything. The monkey jumped around me for a bit, poked me in the arms, back, head. Made monkey noises. Got off the bed, jumped around the room, back on the bed, back to poking me, rinse and repeat. I was so upset. Aren't my parents supposed to protect me from all the bad things? Mom says I'm a little angel and god looks after little angels, then what was happening to me?

Okay. Went a bit dramatic at the end, but that was pretty much my thought process the day after. I didn't really tell anyone about it then. Idk.. I was pretty secretive. But I was glued to my mom for a few days after that. I remember I insisted on bathing by myself back then, so mom got me this tiny bucket and tiny mug for bathing, and she would let me be alone in the bathroom for bit so I could "take a bath like a grown-up" (rinse myself for no reason after she was done bathing me..) but I stopped that little session for a while because I was afraid the monkey would come and get me while mom was away. That earned a question from her tho, but I denied anything's wrong. Man I started lying so early.

So yeah. I really hate that monkey. I hope it shows up in my dreams again so I can shoot it or something.

- Some day, during summer months, 2002

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I envy you bitches that don't remember dreams.

So I woke up at 5am, was like "Something's off. Homeboy is in danger.", dreamed I sprouted wings, flew to his house, jumped inside of his chest, and comforted his inner child. Like, I held a little boy while he cried. Wtf?

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I have this kind of dreams often. Too often. It's frustrating and it feels ominous, I really don't enjoy it. Usually it involves me needing to go somewhere, but a heavy storm always comes as an obstacle to my goal. For example, I saw that I am unable to attend my cousin's wedding due to a heavy rainfall that just won't stop. I saw that I am unable to go out to buy a certain dress due to heavy rainfall and clouds that never clear. Silly things, probably because I was thinking about those stuff, cause I worried that I actually wouldn't be able to do it. Why is it always a storm or rainfall that stops me, or why do I always see a terrifying clouded sky, is something I wonder about. The last dream I had was a little different though, as I wasn't going anywhere or had any goal.

I was lying down on our roof, looking up at the sky. It was fully clear, and it was starting to get darker and darker due to a lunar eclipse. I watched as the moon got slowly engulfed in a shadow, with light peaking out from it's edges, which is odd because that happens during solar eclipses, but it was the moon. The eclipse happened slowly, but went by very suddenly, and I was almost blinded by the moonlight. It was so bright.. too bright. I stared at the grey night sky, when suddenly from the west I saw some clouds emerging. Dark clouds, almost black. Soon the entire sky was covered in clouds, the moonlight faded and I was left in the dark again. Wind started blowing and at this point I got scared, I got up to get inside. But it didn't rain, instead the clouds started to clear up, and suddenly it was morning, the sun was up, warm light spreading everywhere. I almost felt relieved, but I couldn't as sun had oddly rose from the west. I got scared again, and clouds started to come back, dark clouds, spreading across the whole sky and leaving me in the dark.

- 26.05.2021

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A lot happened, and I don't care about half of those, and this dream sucked honestly.

I was shopping with ma, for shoes. School shoes. Even tho in the dream I wasn't any younger. And our neighbour was selling the shoes??

Huge wheat field. Hundreds of baboons. I don't know how I got there, or why what was I doing, but I hate baboons.

Home. Kinda. One of Minu's (neighbour's cat) kids almost drowned, I saved him. But it was like.. sewage water.. and I didn't wanna tell ma that I stuck my hand in shit to save a kitten (even tho I wouldn't hesitate to do so irl and ma wouldn't care that I touched shit) so I said Panda (my fucking cat) saved the kitten. That bastard was just sitting there, as he does..

In conclusion fuck this dream.

- 14.10.2020

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I don't remember much of how it started, but I remember the most important part.

This dream was heavily influenced by a tumblr post I read just before. It was about how someone dreamt that the night sky changed and the stars were closer and brighter and bigger, and I thought "I wish I could see that," and my brain just went "aight."

I'm on the rooftop at night. It's definitely not my house, I'm surrounded by tall buildings and the building I'm on is real high too. I walk to a deck chair nearby, and I lay down, looking up at the sky. But it's not the sky I know.

There are stars, more stars I've ever seen before. They are bigger, brighter, closer together, like how I wanted to see. But it was far more beautiful than I ever could imagine. I didn't see a moon, and it didn't matter because I wouldn't notice it among the stars anyway. And there was shooting stars too, more than I could count. It was all too beautiful, and I wish I could see more of it.

But I suddenly felt cold.. darkness creeping in. I woke up with a feeling of falling.

And found that I pulled the blankets so far up that my feet was out and stone cold.. bruh.

- 25.11.2020

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I don't remember much of it, but I know I didn't like it. Honestly nothing good can ever be in the sewers. Rats, ugly frogs, literal shit, murder weapons, Pennywise.. in my case there were several white sacks tied up and hanging from above. I don't think I uncovered what were in those, but probably dead bodies.

I think some things happened between me entering the sewers and finding the sacks, but I don't remember. And I don't want to so that's that.

- 30.11.2020

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I was heading upstairs in a dimly lit elevator, in a giant corporate building of some kind. The elevator stopped on an upper floor, and this man got in. He was wearing a black suit with a white shirt, black tie, black shoes. His hair, eyes, brows were black too. His face looked normal, average, nothing special, yet there was something deeply unsettling about him. He didn't acknowledge me, didn't even look at me, but I was very uncomfortable and kind of scared.. I eventually got off on one floor, he stayed in the elevator.

In the dream it happened for 3 days. Every time he got on after I did, stayed silent, never got off. On the third day I made the mistake of looking at him, to find that he was looking directly at me, for the first time in the past days. He had uh.. long front teeth like a rabbit's for some reason, only 3 times longer.. I was terrified, but I couldn't look away. He smiled at me, and at this point I'm internally crapping myself.. but he opened his mouth to reassure me. "Don't be scared, I'm not going to hurt you. If you have a question, feel free to ask."

I took at least a minute to gather myself, and asked, "When will the Covid end?"

He shrugged and said, "About 5 years or so."

And then I woke up..

- 29.12.2020