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Blog #7: With Love We Will Survive

“One of my closest friends at the time grew tired of seeing me silent. I wouldn’t talk about how I felt for months; I barely talked at all. I bottled everything up. Of course, this was incredibly unhealthy for me. I wasn’t allowing my heartbreak to heal and I wasn’t making the effort to pick myself up. My friend presented me with a wood covered diary with gold-lined paper for me to get my thoughts and emotions out. And so I poured – I stayed up nights filling the pages with writing. I have considered ripping the pages out of the diary and trashing them many, many times, but I can’t bring myself to. When I look back now at the things I have written, I remember how I felt I was at rock bottom and empty. I remember how I thought I would never be able to open myself up again, how I thought “love” would forever be meaningless to me. I don’t want to forget the feelings I felt, the thoughts I thought, or the lessons I learned from that unsuccessful relationship because all of it is a part of me. I don’t want to throw those pages away and forget, because they serve as a reminder to never allow myself to sink to that point again. Despite my determination to shut out love and relationships and to keep myself boarded up, I let my guard down after a realization. Sure, love was the cause of the deepest pain I had ever felt, but it also took me to heights. I took the risk and made myself vulnerable once again to the pain that comes as a package deal with love, but I also opened myself to all the love and care and happiness my current relationship has to offer. Relationships provide what friendships provide and more – the given, somebody who you can share good and bad news with, who will encourage you, who you can depend on, who enjoys your company, and all that a friendship encompasses. In a relationship, there is a drive to better yourself so you can progress in your relationship with your significant other, who will grow with you. You learn to have more patience and be understanding, to be more thoughtful and selfless. Being in a relationship provides a different sense of belonging, a different sense of fulfillment, a different sense of love. I believe in the backwards interpretation of Aristophanes’s statement about love: “We start complete but isolated, and slowly give ourselves to the people we love, our families and our friends and our partners, until we’re incomplete without them.” When I love somebody, again whether it is a family member or friend or boyfriend, I want to give. And give, and give. I give all I can and present everything that I have to them, to a point where I lose myself and I’m incomplete without them. And though at times I definitely feel hurt and tired from not receiving nearly as much as I give, I give out of love. Regardless of my past heartbreaks and the potential heartaches awaiting me in the future, I do, and will continue to, believe in love.”

I wrote this for a blog in my English class as a high school senior, back in 2011. My English teacher was the most thought-provoking and meaningful instructor I have encountered to date. I had never undergone so much introspection and reflection until that class, and in the years since then, I’m not sure I’ve thought deeply as often. I find it interesting how I feel very detached from the person I was prior to this past year, yet some of my old thoughts and writing still resonate with me now. It’s relevant and meaningful, though sometimes I seriously wish I could travel back in time with all the knowledge I have now and go through those years again. I remember the anxiousness of college applications, when the future seemed so big and scary, the pain from people I thought would stay, letting my emotions override logic & reason time and time again. So many things I would do differently and decisions that I would change, but of course, only hindsight is 20/20. And all past experiences have shaped me into the person I am today. 

So Jessica, keep going and keep growing. You can’t share your knowledge with your past self, but you can give advice to younger people (and of course your future kids, your life fulfillment)! Lead by example, continue aspiring to be the best version of yourself you can be, and remember Feraco’s words:

"Don’t dwell on the past so much that you forget to live in the present." 

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iconic mark tuan lyrics

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｜2014｜

dare to dream big my baby! you look shine on stage as always! 

一步一步陪你慢慢往上爬，我相信總有一天 你的好會被大眾看到

❤️

＊JJP Comeback hwaiting!! 😘

CR：MB9397

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He looked at her the way all girls wanted to be looked at.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby (via thelovejournals)

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My only relief is to sleep. When I am sleeping, I am not sad, I am not angry, I am not lonely; I’m nothing.

(via broken-wings-and-cracked-halos)

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sometimes my hands they don't feel like my own, i need someone to love i need someone to hold

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” 感謝你在我平凡無奇的青春中添上濃墨重彩的一筆。“ ------- 斯克先森 

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my dear yi en,

“ May good luck be your friend in whatever you do, and may trouble be always a stranger to you.’

loveyou❤️

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“Why are you so afraid to be loved I am right by your side what are you afraid of“ ---------Fly

這次Comeback好不容易終於放開變得話比較多比較開朗了的宜恩，

這件事過後你會比以前更安靜嗎.....?   💔 但願一切都���好的

晚安 親愛的。

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你們還好嗎...?

看到這機場圖預覽 我快心疼死了 💔

現在在Twitter上段宜恩被罵的最慘，還有甚至要他離隊的 😭😭😭

希望你們都好好的 

拜託🙏

GOT7一個都不能少啊🙏

CR: I GOT U , ORBIT OF LIGHT , MYBAMELODY 

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May only good things come your way, my babies.

GOT7, 우리 천천히 가자!!

iloveyou ❤️

G-O-T-7 JJAI ❤ STAY BY YOUR SIDE!

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親愛的Got7，親愛的段宜恩，斑斑還有有謙

你們還好嗎？對不起 你們對鳥寶寶那麼好可是鳥寶寶卻用這種方式來報答你們

說真的 這次的巡演我最期待的就是美國場 因為很久沒有回家的你

終於可以回家了 也可以在自己的家鄉表演給家人朋友看 讓他們以你為榮

可是現在都不一樣了

段宜恩是實力背鍋王，什麼事情都能和你扯上關係

就因為這次是你的朋友，讓你在各個社交網站被罵慘了

從出道���看著你們一步一步的慢慢往上爬

然而這幾步你們爬的並不簡單，途中很辛苦

可是你們都爬過來了不是嗎

好不容易事業的巔峰才剛要開始 就讓你們遇到這些事情

有時候我真的覺得很不公平，這7個那麼善良那麼努力的孩子 為甚麼要傷害他們

這次的事情很可能會毀了他們一生的事業，他們的前途

只希望如果你們真的做了 說了，那就好好道歉

希望公司不要給太嚴重的處分

希望粉絲能好好接受道歉

希望上天保佑你們

希望上天眷顧你們這群愛笑認真努力的孩子

希望上天保佑你們跌倒了也要再站起來

加油!!!!!!!!!!!

套一句段宜恩常說的話，

“ GOT7，우리 천천히 가자!! “

   ❤️❤️❤️❤️🐎🐜🐍❤️❤️❤️❤️                                                                                    

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In which Jinyoung tries to control his members but realizes that Perv7 cannot be stopped

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你不是很好嗎....?

喜歡你的理由 那時隨便說了一個

現在我告訴你

你不是很帥嗎

你不是很男人嗎

聲音不是也很好聽嗎

你不是很多情嗎

你不是很溫柔嗎

不是會緊緊的抓住我的手嗎

對我說晚安的時候

對我說愛我的時候

每次這個瞬間

我 喜歡你

比你帥的人

比你man的人

那樣的人也是有的啦

比你還多情

比你還溫柔

其實我喜歡你的理由

就只有一個

那就是你

你就是那個理由

因為是你

所以我喜歡你。

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最好的事

擁抱青春往往最需要本事 愛從失去以後才會記得 原來的樣子。

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Ian in kinmen for the first time ❥ ｜ kinmen taiwan 2015

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“創作 是為了紀念美好的曾經，把過往的回憶，拼湊成幸福的模樣。“ ｜taiwan 2014