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i recently lost a very close friend to leukemia. we always wanted to get a tattoo together but it never happened. last month i got this tattoo dedicated for him. from the lyrics of my fave song Above The Clouds by DAY6, "i want you to promise me one thing--smile. and don't get sick anymore, be happy above the clouds" ❤️ one of my constants, this one's for you. 🤍🌦️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb7tw1iB9yN/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Nari,

una sa lahat, hahahahha, di ako magaling sa ganito, okay? pero ayun na nga, diko din naman alam kailan mo to mababasa?

okay lang ba sabihin na, ang cute cute mo lang talaga kapag naka yellow ka? cute ka naman lagi eh, pero kapag suot mo yung favorite mong mga damit na kulay yellow, mas nagiging cute ka.

pinakilala ka lang naman sakin dati ni sungjin, tapos dun na naging mag ka tropa tayo.

nakakatawa lang kasi ikaw yung babaeng hindi talaga nag papa talo pagdating sa asaran? ayan tuloy target na kita lagi. pati puso ko ikaw na yung target.

una palang naman, nahalata ko na parang may gusto ka din sakin? pero wala akong ginawa kasi ayokong I-take advantage yung feelings mo sakin, at saka pati, 2nd year college palang naman tayo nung nagkakilala tayo. sabi ko, focus muna sa studies at saka pati sa barkada.

okay naman na ako, kasi nakakasama naman kita halos araw araw? nakakasabay kumain, kasabay gumala, kasabay umuwi, nakakausap pa sa group chat.

gustong gusto kong inaasar ka kasi sobrang ganda mo kapag nakakunot noo mo, tapos galit ka, at saka titingin sakin ng parang naka pout. sabi mo nga hindi ka nagpapout ksi for cute girls lang yun, sabi mo. eh hindi ka kamo cute, maganda ka kamo. Tama naman? cute ka, pero maganda ka din. Sarap mong panggigilan eh, putangina. 😭 pwede bang akin ka nalang?

akala ko steady na yung relationship natin non? yung araw araw ganun, kaya nga lang kasama ang tropa. pero okay lang din sakin yun kasi sapat na nga yung nakakasama kita araw araw.

not until may nakilala kang bago. hindi mo na ko laging hinahanap para asarin, hindi ka na din laging nakakasama sa tropa. hanggang sa nalaman ko na naging kayo na.

tanga ko din sa part na yun.

gusto kong malaman, anong feeling ng girlfriend ka? anong feeling ng inaalagaan ka ng isang Nari. kung anong pakiramdam ng nasa nga braso kita, hahalikan kapag gusto. ano kayang feeling? putang inang napakaswerte naman.

natatanggap ko naman na, baka crush lang nga naramdaman mo sakin. kita ko naman kasi yung effort at pagmamahal na ibinuhos mo nung time na yun sakanya. mahal na mahal mo sya, ri. anong laban ko?

isang taon, ri. tiniis ko makita na masaya ka sa piling ng iba. pero ayos lang, basta masaya ka ri. basta masaya ka.

hanggang sa nalaman ko na niloko ka nya. na nabuntis nya yung ex mo habang kayo. nabaliw ako nun kakaisip na umiiyak ka gabi gabi kasi iniisip mo yung halaga mo. na iniisip mo na hindi ka pa ba sapat. hindi ka nagsasalita sa gc nun, ri. nag alala kaming lahat.

pero laking pasasalamat ko na nagmessage ka sakin noon. nangamusta ka, at humingi ng pasensya kasi di ka nakakapagchat sa gc natin. sabi mo sakin, hindi ka okay.

"hindi ako okay dowoon eh, ang sakit masyado haha"

sinundi kita sa dorm mo nun, nag aya akong punta tayo sa coffee shop. sabi ko treat kita. ngumiti ka pero hindi totoo eh.

habang nagkekwento ka sakin noon sa coffee shop gusto kong magwala. sa lahat ng taong nakilala ko ikaw yung alam kong malakas, hindi agad umiiyak. pero pag upo palang natin noon sa upuan.. ngumiti ka sakin tapos bigla kang umiyak.

sobrang ganda mo, pero ayoko na makita ka ulit na ganun. ayoko, ri. ang sakit din kasi.

inalagaan ka namin ng ilang taon, tapos gagaguhin ka lang? tanginang yan.

pagkatapos ng gabing yun, nakipagusap ka na ulit saming lahat. alam namin tinatry mo maging okay. kitang kita ko yun nari.

natakot akong umamin sayo.

paano kung hindi kita kayang alagaan? paano kung masaktan kita. paano kung masira lang pagkakaibigan natin?

alam ko namang hindi ka pa din handa eh. kaya hinayaan ko na munang bumalik ulit lahat sa dati, yung dating tropa, yung walang iba.

okay naman, ri. tumagal ng isang taon.

kaso pinaglalaruan ka ng tadhana kasi naging kagroup mo sya sa thesis mo. natakot ako ulit, ri. na bumalik lahat sayo, na yung mga totoo mong ngiti ma palitan ng lungkot.

hanggat maaari, sumasama ako sayo. hanggat maaari dapat nakikita kita lagi, hindi pwedeng hindi. Hindi ako mapapalagay.

kaso, ri, isang araw naging ilap ka sakin. Hindi ko alam kung anong nagawa ko. indirectly na umaamin ka sakin, pero wala akong ginagawa. Ayoko kasing ikaw ang aamin, ri. dapat ako yung mauuuna.

dahil don, hindi ka na naguupdate kung kailan meetings nyo pati lakad nyo. pero bakit ka nga naman mag uupdate, hindi mo naman ako boyfriend.

nalaman ko kay sungjin noon, na nag overnight ka ng hindi ko alam. nagkaproblema daw at hindi ka makauwi. gusto mong umuwi pero hindi mo magawa.

laking pasalamat ko na likas na madaldal yung tropa nating si sungjin. Hahahahhaha.

sinundo kita noon, ri. umiyak ka nanaman. umiyak ka nanaman sa harap ko, ri. putanginang mga luha yan.

bakit kailangang makita ko nanaman sa mga mata mo yan. nung nakita ko yung gago mong ex pinigilan ko lang sarili ko na suntukin yun eh.

hanggang sa sabi mo ayaw mo pa umuwi.

ayaw ko pa din sana noon nari. ayoko umuwing alam kong hindi ka okay. kaya pumayag akong magpunta tayobsa coffeeshop.

kailan ka kaya magiging akin, ri?

hanggang sa nag aya ka na umuwi. halatang antok na antok at pagod ka na eh. ang kaso, umamin ka nanaman sakin. sabi mi hulog na hulog ka na. wag ka mag alala, ri. salong salo na kita. noon pa man.

pero natakot ako ulit. bakit naman kasi inuunahan moko, ri?

after nanaman nun, naging mailap ka nanaman. si jae na yung sinama mo sa meeting. kapag magkakasama tayo hindi ka lumalapit sakin.

gulong gulo na din ako sa sarili ko nun.

hanggang sa may nag aya sayo makipag date.

oo nga pala, nakalimutan kong marami dn palang ibang nagkakagusto sayo. ganda mo kasi.

charming. sobrang cheerful. sobrang adorable. yung tipong ang sarap alagaan? doon na ata ako napikon, ri.

ano bang ginagawa ko, bakit hinahayaan ko lang?

di ko na natiis, naki epal ako kahit alam kong mali. hahahahha. pero worth it naman pagpapaka epal ko di ba?

kasi ngayon alam mo na. mali inaakala mo, ri. na mas mahal mo ako? hindi ata. kasi mahal na mahal na mahal kita, una palang. pero okay lang, kahit sabihin mong mas mahal mo ako. sarap din naman sa feeling eh?

corny ampota

basta ayun

akin ka na gago ka

sayo lang din naman ako :">

wag ka kiligin masyado pota, ang corny nga ng blog na to. hahahahhahahahahaha. labyu, ri! 💛

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Minsan lang magmukhang tao, sulitin na natin. 😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/CViQObShNO1/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Truth or Dare? We asked The Rose's Woosung to perform a few dares and answer questions to celebrate the release of his solo single, Lazy!

Check out our full, exclusive Truth or Dare video above 🌹

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On another episode of 'i have to buy this book because i have nothing else to read and then goes home to 36 unread books on the shelf' 😌🤘 https://www.instagram.com/p/CQBdma7MVcb/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Quick shoot during break just to avail the free trial of @ayudakathleen photography services 😌🤘😂 also, flexing the plaid top she gifted me 💜 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPvhFUfM7CD/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Another year of holding up so well. Proud of you, self. 💚 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPnpS6mMXcs/?utm_medium=tumblr

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DAY6 <The book of us: negentropy>

I can’t. All of them are so handsome🥲 quite excited but also nervous for Jae and Sungjin’s teaser....

IT’S OUT!!!!!!!!! Omg Park Jaehyung😭😭😭😭😭😭 he looks absolutely stunning?! Oh God....

I is dead. RIP. Snskakbdwldhwkwosn oh my god😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 he’s so breathtaking?!?! I’m in love.

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Etheral

(Photos not mine, found on twitter)

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DAY6 <The book of us : Negentropy>

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(191031) YOUNG K x SWEET CHAOS

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They deserve it

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demon!jae + human!reader

no one asked but i delivered anyway (this is so dedicated to @grim-rapper ASDFBHSJFD) | [masterlist in bio]

you have the worst roommates ever 

when u graduated high school, u thought uni would be different

no more Snakes, no more stupid teen drama

well 

BINCH U THOUGHT WRONG

your roommates ended up being the worst snakes of all

they were nice to everyone, including you, but talked shit about you behind ur back

AND THEN EXPECTED U TO STILL LEND THEM UR NOTES AFTER

WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE 

(u still lent them ur notes anyway ahsdbfnf)

ur classmates all warned u about them, but it’s not like u could do anything ;;;;

u tried to switch rooms, but u ended up not being able to because apparently, THE WORLD HATES U OR SMTH

so u just have to suck it up and deal with snakes for the next few years of ur life :’)))))

it doesn’t help that you’re so hecking nice 

reader u don’t deserve this shit 

ur roommates always take advantage of you and borrow ur clothes, eat ur leftovers, make u pay for the pizza they ordered 

hHhHhHhhHh ur 2019 new years resolution is to STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH

actually, u kinda just made that up on the spot right now 

because here u are

locked inside a dark room, lights turned off, taunted by a bunch of giggling girls outside 

“come on, y/n, don’t be such a baby!”

“just light the candles and start the ritual!” 

WHY DID U AGREE TO THIS 

o wait

U DIDN’T 

ur roommates ran into ur room just a few moments earlier, frantic, all like “y/n, omg u gotta help us!” 

SO OF COURSE U BEING A DECENT PERSON, U RUSHED OUT TO SEE WHAT THE ISSUE WAS

AND NOW UR LOCKED INSIDE THE BATHROOM WITH A GODDAMN PENTAGRAM ON THE GROUND 

you wanted to cry 

momma didn’t raise no fool ok, U DON’T FUCK WITH SUPERNATURAL SHIT

U DON’T WANNA LIGHT THE CANDLES

U DON’T EVEN HAVE UR PHONE WITH U TO CALL UR CLASSMATES AND ASK THEM TO BREAK U OUT

THIS IS THE WORST NIGHT OF UR LIFE

“we’re not letting you out until you perform the ritual, y/n, so you might as well get it over with.”

FINE 

FINE 

u put on ur best ‘this is the fakest thing ever and i’m totally not scared’ face and light the damn candles 

and of course we can’t forget abt the incense 

it smells of vanilla and it oddly calms you down for a second

but then u remember ur here to theortically summon ur worst nightmares AND NOW UR NOT CALM ANYMORE

THE WORST THING IS U DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT UR SUPPOSED TO DO

THEY DIDN’T GIVE U ANY OTHER INFO EXCEPT TO LIGHT THE CANDLES

SO NOW THERE ARE 5 CANDLES LIT, ONE AT EACH POINT OF THE PENTAGRAM AND THE ROOM SMELLS LIKE SWEET BAKED GOODS

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 

“i-i don’t know what to say, but,,, um,,,,, i-if any s-supernatural beings are out there,,, um,,,,,, s-show yourself?” 

u don’t know when or why u closed ur eyes (probably to brace urself from what might happen), but as soon as u finish speaking, u open them again slowly, greeted by,,,,,

absolutely fucking nothing

the candles are still flickering and the room’s still as quiet as ever

the wave of relief that washed over u ? a godsend

thank the lord 

you hear the girls laughing outside again and for once, ur kinda glad to hear their voices

the door began to creak open, small bits of light shining through from the hallway

“holy shit, y/n, did you hear how scared you sounded? you-” 

YOUR ROOMMATE GETS CUT OFF BY HER OWN SCREAM AS THE DOOR SLAMS CLOSED, DISTINGUISHING THE CANDLE FLAMES AND LEAVING YOU IN THE DARKNESS ONCE AGAIN

FUCK 

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK 

ALL U COULD THINK OF WAS “MOM I AM SO SORRY” 

U SCRAMBLE TO FIND THE LIGHTER, YOUR HANDS PATTING THE COLD BATHROOM TILES 

AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN

you hear a chuckle 

you freeze because there’s no way in hell that that came from your roommate 

it was too deep, too, well, manly, and way too fucking sinister 

u felt ur eyes sting and GOD U CAN’T BELIEVE UR CRYING 

U CAN’T HELP IT

WHEN UR SCARED U JUST START CRYING 

FUCK UR GONNA DIE 

“here, i’ll help you out.” 

the candles flick on again simultaneously and you find yourself trailing your eyes upwards, following the silhouette of a ridiculously tall boy 

and when ur eyes finally reach his face 

you’re met by a boy (a very cute boy, mind u) dressed in a black suit, his irises a dark red

what the FUCK 

WHY ARE HIS EYES G L O W I N G

AND DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE SMIRK ON HIS FACE

IT MAKES YOU WANNA C R Y 

ur brain: oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck 

ur heart: oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck 

ur stomach: gurgle gurgle OH FUCK gurgle gurgle 

“w-who are you?”

when the smirk on this boy’s face grows, a condescending laugh falling from his lips, u feel a chill run down your spine 

“shouldn’t you know? you’re the one who summoned me.”

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