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Love of fire 3

Eris x reader

Summary: Y/N doesn't feel like her place is in the night Court.

!English isn't my first language!

I was fiddeling with the hem of the dress that Eris got me. It was a simple dark green dress with enough fabric to hide my shaking hands.

Eris was somewhere in his room searching for thinks he wanted to take with him. For me this one was easy. When he took me here I had nothing with me so what should I pack when there wasn't anything I could take with me.

His dogs where around me, feeling my anxiety creeping up. It was one thing, being in this cabin with Eris but staying with his father was a big difference.

A person who was cruel and not even his own son likes him, not even to mention trusting. I never met Beron jet but I could keep it that way and stay the next days here with Eris.

For sure I don't know his intentions but he makes me feel safe and I don't have to were a mask around him.

When Eris stepped out of his room, he came to me and helped me of the sofa. "I don't know in what mood my father will be, but I will protect you. You must believe this. I know it will be hard, and I will not hold it against you if you don't trust me, but I will do everything I can to keep you safe."

I could see that he didn't wanted to go back to his father himself. My problem was I was already starting to trust him against my knowledge.

Upon arriving at the Hermitage Castle with Eris he gone completely silend and i could see the mask he was wearing over his happy self i got to know in the last two days. We entered the imposing hall. The castle was a somber yet majestic place, its walls adorned with autumnal colors and peculiar, glowing vegetation. The echo of our footsteps resonated through the empty corridors as we approached the room where Beron awaited us.

Beron, the ruler of the Autumn Court, slowly rose from his throne adorned with golden foliage as we entered. His gaze, sharp and penetrating like a frosty wind, fixed upon me. Goosebumps crawled up my arms as I tried to conceal my nervousness.

Eris, who unexpectedly appeared calm and composed, stepped forward and bowed before Beron. "My Lord, I have brought her here as the Pact demands," he said.

Beron nodded curtly, then turned his gaze back to me. "The fourth Archeron sister, how intriguing," his voice deep with thinly veiled mockery. "You are in my court now, and here, my rules prevail. But for now, you shall find respite and take residence in one of the guest chambers and we will have a conversation at dinner."

I breathed a sigh of relief that he did not press further questions for the moment. I followed Eris to one of the guest chambers, where I could find a moment of reprieve. Although the future remained uncertain, I felt a tad safer in this strange and perilous world of the Autumn Court.

As we got to my room for the rest of the week, Eris stopped me before I could go into the room. "I know you can protect yourself but I please don't open this door when it is someone who isn't me. My father has way to many friends that have the same opinion than Beron. My privat rooms are on the other site of this castle and I can't protect you but when you feel okay with it I will get you one of my rooms prepared."

I could see how nervous he got at the end. "Thank you Eris, when it isn't a problem for you I would take one of your rooms and I will not open this door till you get me for dinner"

The relief was clearly visible in his face. "Thank you Y/N you don't know how much that means to me."

You don't know how much this gesture means to me Eris and that you allow me to make my own choice.

In one quick moment of bravery I raised up on my toes and kissed his cheek. "See you later fire boy." And before he could see blush on my own face and hearing my heart running out of my chest. And closed the door fast behind my back.

What are you doing Y/N you can't fall in love with him.

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Love of fire 2

Eris x reader

Summary: Y/N doesn't feel like her place is in the night Court.

!English isn't my first language!

Part 1

Nesta seemed to come out of her shock before me. "You are high lord and lady of the fucking night court and you are telling me that there was no other solution than sending Y/N to the autumn court." They started bickering about it but I didn't listen to it.

They should have asked me without a question but what can I do about it. The deal was made. I searched my way out of her and found Azriel talking to Cas on the other side of the room. It looked like none of the two Illyrian knew yet what would be my future so the shadow singer was my way out of here.

Neither my sisters or my brother-in-law seems to notice how I slowly moved away from them. But does I Feld his eyes burning into my skin. Like he was trying to burn down my walls to see the small girl that hide in a corner trying to protect herself from everything around her.

Carefully I locked in his direction and for a small moment a saw something like worry in his eyes but in the next moment it was gone and he concentrated on the man in front of him. It'd sad how your brain tries to trick you into something what wasn't there just to comfort you.

When I came to a hold next to the Illyrian warriors, they stopped their conversation and looked at me concerned and then in the direction where my sisters and Rhysand seem to continue arguing. Thanks for not asking me what happened. So as treading me like a little child that doesn't have an opinion for itself.

What happened that everyone thought they have to control my life in a good and bad way. "Can you bring me up." But the shadow singer kept ignoring me. In his eyes I could see how he wasn't even listening to me instead he kept on looking to the other three, thanks for nothing. I felt how the anxiety kept climbing up my throat. Everything around me seems to get lauder, the voices coming back from the walls.

No not here. I hide my hands behind my back and started playing with my fingers breath they treating you already like a child a panic attack wouldn't help with it. When he doesn't want to help me to get out of here, I will find a way to at least making a fool out of myself and find a quiet place. My vision started to get blurry and black around the corners. I need to get out of here. I need to leave the darkness was eating me alive more than usual. This place was eating me. I needed to get out before the panic blocked my legs and I would break down in the middle of the room.

The door was only a few steps away when something warm stooped me at my hip. "I think our first weeks starts now." I was pressed against a chest when warm flames surrounded us and in the next moment we were gone.

"Breath little fox the forest has enough air." Slowly I could make out our surroundings we were standing in the middle of a beautiful forest. I stood in a forest. No people, no notices that stressed me, just a calm and quiets forest and air filled my lungs "See it isn't so hard." I could feel his lips at my ear. Normally I would push him away to get some distance between us but I didn't have the energy to do it.

With every breath that filled my lungs I could make out my situation. Eris has decided to start the new agreement a little early and brought me into the autumn court. "Why did you bring me here. This isn't really polite of you."

"Oh, I am sorry my little fox I will work on it but you looked like you needed a lift after the shadow singer didn't react when you asked him. And only for the protocol I think that is rude." He turned me in his arms and know I could look him into the eyes. "Alright fire boy however you decided to bring me to autumn instead of my bedroom so the task wasn't completed to my wishes."

I could see a smirk on his face. "Oh, I am sorry I could bring you to mine I promise you it is wonderful." "Thank you." I laid my hands on his chest and pushed myself away from him. "But no thank you."

I freed my feed from the horrible shoes and started to walk through the forest. Eris was silently following me; he gave me space and that was more that I could ask for in the moment. It was getting darker but I could make out a small light in between the trees.

Because he didn't stop me and I didn't know how long I could keep on walking so taht I was walking towards the lights. We ended up in front of a small cabin from the inside I could her dogs and when only a few meters were left five dogs ran out of the door. It seems like they opened the door for themselfs because there was no one standing in the door. Eris behind me stiffened and the distance he had given me was getting smaller quickly.

I kneeled before the dogs could reached me; I always loved these little creatures. "Y/N be careful they can." But I didn't listen to him I was way to occupied with petting the dogs.

When I turned around, I could see Eris with a shocked impression. "Normally they didn't like strangers." "They are yours?" "Yes they are" He came down to me on the ground and started to pet them but they didn't seem to have a lot interest in him. "I will be honest with you I never thought of you like a dog father fire boy." "Most people don't think of me any good so dogs are definitely not in their description involved when they talk about me."

He got up from the ground and hold his hand out for me. For a moment I looked between him and his hand before I decided to take the hand. Before this evening started, I thought that he needed a chance or at least that every villain has his own story.

The house was warm and little fire was on. I let myself fall onto the comfortable looking couch. Eris was standing in a doorframe that looks like the door to a kitchen.

"I will get us something to drink do I have to be concerned that you will try to escape?" I shacked my head. There wasn't a reason for it.  The deal was made I will stay a weak with him nobody could do something against it and definitely not me.

"Good when I am honest, I didn't even feel like running after you this evening I would let you stay the night outside and capture you tomorrow." He turned around and walked into the kitchen. Three of his dogs followed him and the other two jumped to me on the couch. "I am not sure that your dad allows you on here." The dogs just keep snuggling into me and I laid down. Eris brought me into this forest and not strait to his father and just with that he owned a little bit of trust for me.

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My peaceful sleep was interrupted when something heavy laid on my feed and I couldn't turn like I wanted. Slowly opening my eyes, I could see one of Eris dogs lying on my feet. Slowly my arm reached out to his head and petted the black dog. "Hello little one." The dog stretched himself and walked over the cover too the top of the bed. He put himself down, so that his head was lying on my pillow. "I definitely need to ask Eris how you all named." and I definitely need to ask him how I ended up in his bed. Because the last thing I could remember was sitting on the sofa in front of the fire.

Especially because I am not even remembering the last time, I fall this easily into the dreamland. My feet met the cold floor and walked over to the small closet in the room.

When he thinks I will spend the whole week in this dress he can start wearing it for himself. I stole myself a sweater and a pair of comfortable trousers that I need to fold a couple of times so I wasn't walking on the fabric.

Now with the sun and and a lot more sleep than last evening I started to look a little bit more how this cabinet was looking. Most parts were made out of wood and it was looking warm and comfortable. When I walked into the living room, I could make out three bookshelves.

Every single one of them was full filled with books even some of them in two rows. It must be fantastic to read them it was like a small big Privat library that stayed comfy because of the rest of the atmosphere of the cabinet itself. My knew black friend walked past me too his siblings who were lying on the carpet in front of the fire place.

And then I saw it a bit of red hair was visible on the sofa and when I walked around it, I could see Eris who was peacefully asleep. How could he look so cute I was sure I looked like a witch and he was looking like a small boy who has been falling asleep on couch surrounded by his fluffy friends.

He looked so calm that I decided to let him sleep a little longer and walked into the kitchen. I found some fruits and something to cook so the breakfast was clear. I started to toss the ingredients into a bowl.

The fruit salad was easy made but now I stood in front of this stupid stove and didn’t have an idea how to turn that stupid thing on. It wasn’t like I didn’t know how to turn this on I learned that early in my human life but in this kitchen was nothing to help me to start a fire.

"May I help you little fox." Shocked I turned around and saw Eris standing in the door. His red hair was standing in every direction and his smile warmed something in me. I tried to push that new feeling down. Behind me I started to hear the familiar sound of burning wood.

When I saw the wood burning in the stove, I started to made the pancakes I wanted to do. Who needs something to start the fire when you can manipulate the flames. "So, what do we eat this morning little fox?" I smirked and turned around and looked up and down my kidnapper.

"I will eat pancakes with some fruits. What you will eat I don't know but when I feel like it, I could think about and perhaps share with you." "And what do I need to do? That I can get something of my ingredients for breakfast?"

Slowly he came into my direction until he was so close that I could well the warmth that he radiated from his body. I needed a moment to find my voice again before I answered "That may be your ingredients fire boy but I am the one who is working with it so you will go and set a table outside on the porch and when I like it you get a little taste."

"All what you wish for my little fox." He leant further into me and kissed my cheek. Stunned I watched him leaf with the dishes on his arms. What the hell was that, the spot where his lips touched me felt like it was sparkling.

Okay calm down Y/N you must keep your head clear you may want to give him a chance but don't fall blind and head first into a trap. You are a hunter don't let yourself fool by another hunter.

I made one pancake after another until I had a little tower of these fluffy pastry. I took the plate and walked outside onto the porch. Eris was already sitting at the table and watched his dogs playing on the gras.

That was the second time in one hour that I could see a calm Eris. His dogs recognise me faster than their owner and run to me. Each one laid down in front of my feed looked up to me with big puppy eyes.

"Oh no I don’t think that pancakes are standing on your menu." "And don’t even try to look like your all are starving you’ve got your breakfast already."

I put the pancakes on the table. "Are you sure?" "These eyes are telling me a different story. I’m sure that when they could talk, they would say there are never getting peds or even food." "Oh, I am sure about that." Eris smiled and stole himself a pancake.

We started eating in peace. It was wonderful I don’t know when the last time was that I didn’t need to watch out how I was acting and keeping my mask up. When I was honest Eris made it easy, he took my talking and didn’t seem to pity me all the time.

"Did you read all of the books that are inside?" I started a conversation. "I took you from the night court into the woods of autumn and that is the first question you ask?"

"Yes, that is my question." "You are fascinating little fox." he smiled. "Says the one who brings me here. In this forest to a small cabinet that seems like nobody knows of because" I pointed to the dogs and the cabinets. "Way to personal as if someone you don’t trust are would know of."

"You are clever little fox and right. Nobody knows of this cabin, especially not my father and my dogs are staying most of the time here. It is better for them so I know that they are save. And yes, I read all of the books and some of them twice." My small black friend came back to me and laid his head into my lab.

"That brings me back to my question why am I here and not in your fathers castle. Why do you lay so much trust in one person you didn’t even know really. I am the sister of the High lady of the night court." "And you are Y/N the person that made her own decisions about people and doesn’t always listen to what people say to you. You decide on your own who you trust and who not."

It was true but why does he know that already Nesta didn’t even notice that until now. She just thinks I am too stubborn to listen to her and Freya thinks that I give to many people a chance that doesn’t deserve one in her eyes, but there are always two sides of the story. It just depends on who his telling you the story."

"Alright than so when you trust me and even when it is partly, we can go on further in our proof of trust game." He nodded "Let’s hear maybe I will answer." he leant further over and laid his arms down on the now empty table. "What are the names of your dogs." For a moment he starred at me with big eyes and an opened mouth before he falls back into his chair and started laughing. A true and honest laugh and I couldn’t denie it, it was beautiful.

"Let’s start with the first one that little trouble maker there in your lab is Viggo." The next two days where the most relaxing ones that I had in month. We have eaten and cooked together walked through the woods, played with the dogs, read books and talked.

But something was different this morning when I walked out of Eris bedroom. He was staring into the fire that was burning in the fireplace. His whole body seemed tense and the dogs were nearby him.

"Eris are you alright?" he shook his head but didn’t even turn. I walked around the sofa and sit down next to him, "What happened Eris?" I laid my hand on his face so that he needed to look at me. "What is it?" He laid his hand over mine and hold on to it. "My father knows that are you already in autumn he wants to see you, us. We must your last days with him. With my father in his castle."

Oh no please not. This can’t be. I know that he fears his father and that doesn’t mean anything good for me. Fear creep up my body I couldn’t stop it I could fell how even my hand started shanking in the one of Eris.

He noticed to and in the next moment Eris hugged me. I laid my head onto his chest and listen to his heartbeat. The steady rhythm calmed and, in his arms, I felt protected and save. He laid down his chin on my head and his hand started to go up and down my spine in a calming motion. "I am sorry little fox. I thought I could protect you longer from him, but trust me I will do anything to keep you save from him. He will not get the chance to harm you. Only over my dead body."

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Love of fire

Eris x reader

Summary: Y/N doesn't feel like her place is in the night Court.

!English isn't my first language!

Everyone was happy. Each one has found his place his person. Everyone but I. I was lonely, didn't know what to do. So it was my whole live and it didn't seem to change in my knew life.

I loved my sisters and the others without a doubt. But I was lonely. Being the youngest Archeron wasn't always easy, in the mortal lands I helped Freye in the woods and when she was gone and came back as a Fae, Nesta was close to kill me as I hugged Freye.

I had spend the night with her and the brothers to catch up. Clearly she looked different bit she was still my big sister. The one who teached me to hunt, the one who hugged me tide when there was thunderstorm. Never could I turn my back at her.

And over some time in Velaris even my relationship with Nesta became better when I learned how to read and fell in love with books, so connecting with my oldest sister became easy.

So why am I not happy why does it seems like I am alone in this big family that loves me .

It was hard because I didn't want to disturb the happy bubble my family lives in. The dress for the evening was lying on my bed.

Today was a big ball in the court of nightmares and the special guest was Eris and everyone made a bug deal out of it. Yes he had made bad decisions in the past but when they be honest only Elain would be maybe the only one who could have an opinion about it.

I decided to leave my hair open it was easier and I could lay it over the two scars on my face. I have got them when me and my sisters got taken by Hypern and after I fell out of the stupid caldron. Let's say my face was similar too Cassians wings in that moment.

Everytime Freya looked me in the face the first think her eyes scanned were my scars. Both starting at my right forehead and one ending above my eye and the other above my cheek. I was prout of it they showed that I didn't give up but she saw it as her error in protecting me.

I stepped in the dark green dress that fell softly around me the upper part laid on my skin and got a big skirt till the floor. My mirror showed me the person who I really was the sister that tried to please her sisters to keep there peace but broken so deep down that not even the shadowsinger could get to this secret. I needed a moment to but on the smile I performed so often that it was easy to keep it up all day without struggling.

The darkness was eating me alive when Mor winnowed me to the court of nightmares. It climbed up my legs and laid itself around my throat. Breath Y/N you are alive it is over that suptip thing doesn't even exist anymore. There is no reason to freak out.

Mor kept on talking and doesn't even noticed how I was struggling to get air into my lungs. The room was already filled with many people talking and dancing. "I will go over there don't do anything I wouldn't do." Mor pointed to a big table with wine and some females standing around it.

"As if there was that much." I laughed "Let's go girl." I smiled at her before I tried to find the best corner to hide before so many eyes. Here are so many people that aren't trust worthy that this was my best solution for now.

I found a place and very good wine to watch over the room. It was simple to see how people talked with each other without really trusting the person they where talking to. Nesta found a good solution to go around that whole thing she was dancing with her mate. Or it was Cas idea to prevent my sister from killing someone. I smiled and kept on watching them, I never saw Nest so happy and in love when she was with Cas. I was appy for them I couldn't denay it.

My eyes wandered in the room and found my other sisters standing infront of her throne next to Rhys who had a protective arm around her hips. They were talking to a man with short red hair and even that I only saw his back I knew it was Eris.

And by watching the facial expressions of my sister I knew she doesn't enjoyed the conversation she was having. By watching her I doesn't notice someone approaching me I could sense a hand nearing my shoulder and out of reflex put the arm of that person and turned his arm on his back.

I noticed the complicated hairstyle of my oldest sister and pulled back my hands. "I am so sorry Nes I didn't notice it was you." She turned around and smiled. "It's alright Y/N it's good to know that you can protect yourself."

We kept on talking until Freya and Rhys stood infront us. Freye facial expression was something I am going to kill someone or I am going down in guilt. Oh no what happend now.

"Y/N please belive me I don't want to do this to you. If I could chance it I would do it." She pulled me into a hug that could easily break my rips. "Hey, hey everything will be become okay we have always found a solution." I gently pushed her away and Rhys hand looked again around her hips. Even he had a guilt in his eyes. Maybe it wasn't that easy, it can never be that easy for us. "You..." Freya started but struggled to find the words.

"Rhys could you please help my sister." Nesta faced him she noticed aswell that something was definitely of.

"To get a better alliance with the autum court Y/N will leave for one week each moth the night court to spend the week at autum to gather with Eris for her protection."

They can't be for real. They can't decide that without even asking me. I scanned the room to find the red head and when our eyes connected and I saw his wicked smile. Oh please I can't take even more I already crumbling under my mask.

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Part2

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Stupid rain

Cassian x reader

Summary: You blame the rain for getting hurt.

!English isn't my first language!

The sun woke you up shining into your face. You turned around and wanted to hide your face in his chest. But there wasn't the warm body of my mate, You had kept your eyes closed and tried to feel where he was but the only think your hands made contact with were the cold sheets.

He was already gone. You snuggled deeper into the covers trying to ignore the fact that you need to get up and go to work. Because you couldn't ignore it any longer you got up and searched for some clothes. With your natural talent it don't go without falling over the covers and landing strait on your face. With grabbing the keys to look the door you found a little note

Hello love,

sorry that you needed to wake up without me but my bothers had captured me for this day. They said we need to spend a day together with out our loves. That I didn't want to wake up this early was totally ignored.

See you this evening for my lovely cuddles.

You smiled at his words, the big bad general were mad at his brothers for waking him up and was looking forward for cuddles. A warm feeling waved over to you that made the smile on your face bigger.

He maybe was out with his brothers but still checked on you. When you opend the door the sun that woke you up and you were met with cold rain hitting your face. You've got to be kidding me. You picked out a outfit for a sunny autum day and now it was raining.

You rapped the coat thight around your body and ran to your bookstore. That youran didn't made any difference. You were completely wet and not even a part of your clothes were dry.

Gladly you had a towel to at least try to desiccate yourself. It didn't help much and stardet to shiver over the day not even the heat of the bookstore helped. Every single costumer looked at you with a compassionate face. When it stardet to get later and the most customers where starting to leave the streets and heading home you but the new books ito the shelfes. It was just one single series left that needed to be but into the highest shelf.

But the ledder you needed because of your hight stood on the other side of the shop. Cassian had told you more than ones that you should use that thing and not stand on lowest part of the shelf to reach the shelf on the top. And as always you ignored it, it never happend anything so why use it?

The books were under your arm and you climbed the shelf. The only thing you didn't thought of was that your fingers were that cold that you couldn't hold on to the woodenbord. You tried to hold but I didn't work.

A small crack was audible and a strong pain was in you right wrist. Your vision got blurry with the tears in your eyes. He will never shut up about the fact that he was right was the first thought that came to your. Mad you looked at the rain that was still falling down. Wouldn't it be the rain you wouldn't have been cold and tour wrist wasn't fractured.

As carful as it was possible you stood up and looked at the chaos around you you couldn't do something against it now.

Aware of your wirst you tried to get into your coat. On the outside it was still raining. At least your wrist was cooled. Madja was on the other side of Velaris so you walked to you best friend.

You opend the door and she small bell was audible above your head. "Small moment." Freye said from somewhere in her gallery as well you could her small giggles that must come from Nyx.

And you were right he flew through the back door and landed in your arms. "Aunti Y/N" you tried to cover the pain in your face with a smile and switched the small boy to the other arm.

"Hello little boy are you helping your mommy today?" The high lady came after her son. "Are you alright?" She could see that the smile wasn't real. You giggled "am I not supposed to ask that?" your high lady was covered in paint and you were sure the small boy in your arms was the culprit.

"I clean that up later. What is with you? You look like you are in pain." She took Nyx from you and looked your body up and down.

"I have may or may not have broken my wrist" "Oh no what have you done?" She let Nyx down was run to the back of Freyes gallery. She took both of my hands and I winced by the right one. "I will be carefull just a quick look." "Your wrist was swollen and didn't even looked like it was un the position it should be. Super it couldn't even be a simple fracture. "I fall down the shelf because I didn't wanted to use the ledder."

Freye smiled "how often has Cas told you to use it?" "As you would listen to Rhys when he would told you to step on that thing?" A smile creeped on her face. "Nerver. But let me bring you to Madja"

Madja helped with your fracture and now you had a bandage around your wrist and meds for the pain.

For getting your body head to get up to a normal temperature she demand warm food a thick clothes for the rest of the day. That resulted that you had steeled some clothes of Cas and were sitting on your kitchen counter with Nyx in your lap.

Freye was cooking you a chicken noodle soup. "You don't need to do that you know that I could have get a soup in the city." "And? You are my best friend I will definitely take care of you so you don't get hurt more and the soup ist such a small thing it calms me down."

"Thank you, you are wonderful." You smiled and shifted Nyx away from the knifes he will learn soon enough how to use them correctly. "Does Cas know yet that you have a fractur?"

You laughed "Do you see him here?" "No" She laughed. We both know that our man's are even freak out when we have small cut. For a small moment Freye looked like she was somewhere else. In the next moment she kept cooking the soup. "They will both come here when they are back. So we can eat together."

The soup was nearly done when the boys came into the kitchen. Both you and Freye scanned the body of them. It wouldn't shock either of you when they would be hurt but it lookes like you were the only one today.

Nyx was already in the arms of his father before your mate reached you. Cas came straight to you and prest you against his chest. Immediately you calmed down. He buried his face in you neck and brushed with his nose over you skin.

"Hello love." He said so that only you could her him. In the same volume you answered. "I missed you this morning. It was cold without you." "So I am only a heat for you?" He chuggled "Not only." "Right my clothes are good as well." With one hand he pulled at the hoody you wore "When you think so. In my opinion you are also a good pilow to sleep and read on."

He brought a small distance between you and looked you in the face and kissed your nose. "You were gone the whole day and I only get a kiss on the nose?" you pouted.

"You need to kiss auntie Y/N wrist uncle Cas than her pain will wash away. Cas freezed in his movement. Nyx you small traitor.

Your hands were covered by Cas clothes so he couldn't see it. "What happend Nyx" Cas asked the traitor like you wasn't even there. "Auntie Y/N broke her wrist when she fell from a shelf. Madja gave her meds and now she is better and mommy is cooking soup because auntie was to long in the rain."

You tried to hide in Cassians chest as Nyx started talking. "Love where was the ladder?" "Nothing would have happend when it wouldn't have rained this morning. The rains is the one to blame it wasn't my mistake." Carefully he lifted your chin and looked you in the eyes. "Love where was the leader?" he asked agai "On the other side of the store." you bounded.

"How often did I say to you to use it?" He looked at your wrist and shook his head. "Once or twice? But when i wouldn't have been freezing because of the rain nothing would have happend i am sure."

"I think i have told you multiple times " He said ignoring the part with the rain "What should I do with you love?" He kissed you on the lips. "Love me as I am?" you smiled and blinked up to him. "Oh believe me I couldn't love you more"

"The soupbis done so when you two are done we can eat." Freye plubed our little bubble. Cas lifted you from the counter and carried me to the dining table. "I can walk Cas." "With the chace you get hurt even more. No chance love." He kept you on his lap and even started to feed you.

You felt so embarrassed but Freye calmed you down and told you in your head that Rhys would do the same to her even when they were dinning with the other high Lords.

Later that evening you layed on Cassian snuggled against his body. "At least I can give you the cuddles I promised you without hurting you." He kissed your head and played with your hair. "Cassss?" You turned your face so you could look him in the eyes. "Will you read for me?"

He shocked his head and smiled to down to you. Of course I will love." He reached over to grab your book. You changed your position a little bit and snuggled deeper into his chest. He laid an arm around you so he could hold you when he was reading and laid his wing over your body.

You loved it when he does that you not only felt protected as well as proud that he trusted you so much with his wings to lay them above you, like another cover with his own heat.

With the voice of your mate in your ear you drifted into your sleep and at the next moring you woke up in the strong arms of you mate.

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[shadowcrowsworld]

Disappering (4)

Azriel x reader

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

Summary: will they find the truth

!English isn't my first language!

Velaris

Freya and Nesta found their sister in her little garden planting a new flower. With the sound her sisters made Elain lifted her head and smiled in the direction of them. "Hello you two" Elain cleaned her hands on her dress and walked out of the colorful flowers. The other sisters looked at each other when they smelled it.

Nesta brushed against Feyres mentalshield and was let in. "Why does she smell like Azriel?" "I don't know but I don't like it. Y/N's is gone since this morning and he spends time with Elain." "That is one part the other is that they didn't say goodbye to each other. Azriel doesn't know where Y/N is. Cassian would tourn the whole Court around when I was just gone in the morning without a word to find me." "Rhys as well. When we wouldn't have this situation know and you would have asked me two weeks ago I would have said Azriel would have done the same, when not being even worst."

"I think we need to talk about something" Nesta started the conversation, without anypart of friendliness. "Did something happen? Is everyone alright." Feyre could see the concern in her sisters face but she had the feeling that there was more beneath it. "Everyone is okay, nobody is hurt." at least not physical, but let see how the talk between the boys turn out Nesta thought. "Did you see Az this moring?" Feyre asked.

"Yes we had breakfast together before he is gone to traing." At least she was honest Nesta thought "Don't you think it is a little weird meating with a happily mated male in the morning after the day of his anniversary." Nesta was like always, strait to the point. Both could see a change in the body language of their sister.

"I think it is his decision. When he likes to spend time with me I will not do something against it." There wasn't even a small hint of remorse. The sisters keept on with their conversation but the only answer Feyre and Nesta got was that Elain was acting strange.

There must has happend something because it seems like Azriel and Elain spend more time with each other as before Azriel and Y/N even met. And with the mating bond clicking for the shadowsinger then everyone could see how much he adored and loved her. That couldn't chace over night.

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Cas and Rhys found theire brother already traing with a sword. Cas was angry "Don't you think your missing something?" "What should I mis?" Cas grapped after a sword and let it colide with Azriels

"I don't know let me think about it maybe your mate?." Cas let out between clenched teeth. "She is at work. Go to Madja if you want something of her. Or do you need me as a delivery boy?" Rhys grapped a sword as well and swung it in the derection of Azriel. "We need you to get your brain back into your illyrian head."

The boys were dancing around each other and the swords of Cas and Rhys always colliding with the one of Azriel "Sorry to disappoint you but I have no clue what you are talking about." Azriel answered"Your mate stod infront of my door this morning." Azriel rased his eyebrows "So what? Let her be I don't need my mate attached to my hip." Azriel the one out of the three who always cared about where his mate is even letting his shadows with her didn't care about it. That must be some kind of a stupid joke. Cassian thought.

"Feyre brought her to the Summer Court." Both of them saw something flickered behind there brothers eyes and his shadows started swirl around nervously, like there where trying to escape the strong hold of the shadowsinger to get his mate. At least they are showing emotions towards Y/N, Rhysand thought "Why is she in the summer." He asked like he didn't really care about his mate being so far away from him. "Learning and teaching Tarquins healer." "So let her be she is doing her job."

The general and the high lord tried hart to get behind theire brother thought but it was like talking to a wall there was not even a hint of the Azriel they knew when it came to Y/N it was like he never existed. The topic with Elain was even harder he didn't even saw something wrong in his behaviour. When they were done with training the two just hoped that the sisters had a better conversation.

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The Summer Court was different to what you were used to. It was warm all the time it was warm even when the clouds let out some drops of rain it was still warm. The work with the healer of the Summer Court was was different as working with Madja but not in a bad way. Felon was talking so much you sometimes didn't even know if he was breathing.

But he was a help for you, he distracted you from your thought that were butting you down. So the night was your problem after the second night you talked with Varain. You knew him trough Amren and talked to him before. You asked him if there was a possibility to train and just tired your body down so you fall into your bed. It didn't need an hour after he was back with you. He made a little plan with Tarquin and you were sure he organised it so fast because he had contact to Velaris. The plan was you were working with Felon till lunch and then you train with with Varian.

The next day Varian picked you up and brought you to a traing space. "So something special or do you just want to knock of your thought." He asked carefully. "I don't know some endurance training with a little bit of fighting." "Alright nether Cas or some of the girls trained you so let's see where are you standing and we see where it goes from there." You nodded, "what is more your thing swimming or running." "Swimming definitely. I hate running." He smiled. "Alright then let's get started."

He let me swim for an hour, the it goes on with some stretching, and then he started my first defending lessons. When your first training session was done you tried get even some air. It was like your body wanted to swim away in your sweat. You were just lining on the traing mat and Varian was standing over you with a smile on his face. "That was better than I acspectet of you. But I think should bring you to your bed now and we keep on training tomorrow." He pulled you up from the ground and onto your feed.

We were standing in front of my room that Tarquin gave me for my time in the Summer Court before I turned around to him. "You can tell them that I am doing fine everything else would be a lie but let the training part out or Cas will get jealous." "I don't know what you mean with that Y/N." "You know what I mean. Don't act dum Varain I know my family good enough for being sure that you are playing my minder." "I pleaded innocent." "It is alright at least they care. Goodnight Varian." You've got in the room and only undressed yourself before you fell into your bed.

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You have staied now nearly a month in the Summer Court and you were missing your home, you were missing you mate. Even when he has sown you nearly no attention before you left he was still there.

Felon and Varian have done anything they could du distract you and mother were you proud when you disarmed Varian for the first time but immediately your smile had fallen. You wanted to tell it Azriel and the rest of your family hearing a comment of Cassian about Varians fighting skills. To get disarmed by you the little monkey.

Today you had a day of you've asked Tarqiun if you could get this day it was full moon and you family had made the traditio to meet at the night of the full moon for a family dinner and spend some quality time with each other. Everything that was attached to Court duties and Problems was banned from the evening so everyone could just relax.

You looked yourself in Tarquins library and were scrolling trought a book with flowers and there healing and poisoned abilities as well as special powers. You didn't were paying much attention to the book until you saw a flower that locked quiet familiar.

First you couldn't make out where you saw that before until remembered. You saw it in Elains garden and not even one there was nearly a field of them.

As fast as possible you read the chapter. At the end you rushed out of the library and were hoping that Falon was still in his personal office.

You didn't knock at his door and just run into his space. He was sorting some ingredients and nearly let some of them fall to the ground with your entry. He carefully put them on the table before he turned to you. "Y/N you can't do that to me." "Sorry but I need your help."

"What is it that I nearly had a heart attack." You flunged the book onto the table and opend the correct chapter and turned the book around so he could read it.

"Y/N I don't want to but you down but do you have a clue about how rare this flower is?" "Yes I know I have read the chapter as well but our lovely Elain has a whole field of it." Your hands ruffeld trought your hair and you where walking from one side of the room to the other.

This speculation wad your only hope that there was change to get your mate back. Falon stopped you from walking and took your hands out of your hair. "I will help you to make the antidote but you will need more then just the antidote." "I know I already have a plan for the rest but the antidote will be the main thing I will need." "Okay than let's get started."

You nearly needed an hour to get ready and every single second felt like a eternity. With the antidote and one last hug with Felon you searched for Varian. You hoped that he wasn't part of your family dinners today. It would be much easier to walk with Varian into the house of winds as with the high lord of the summer Court.

You found him and Tarqiun in the dinning room. "Hello can we help you" Tarquin has been sure he wouldn't see you anymore on this day. "I am sorry to disturb you but I need Varian to bring me to the night Court." Both man frown. "Is everything alright Y/N?" Varian asked carefully. "Yes and no I may or may not have found the reason for Azriels behaviour." "Are you sure Y/N?" Tarquin asked and you nodded. "Than I will not stand in your way."

He nodded to his cousin who walked over to you "Do you want strait to the house of winds or are stepping by somewhere else before?" He asked outside of the dinning room. "First we need to go to Elains House" without asking why he took your hand and in the next second you where back in the night Court. The cold air hit your skin but you just ignored it you didn't have the patience now.

"Why are we here?" "Because of the stupid flowers in Elains garden." You mentioned in the direction of the flower field on your left. Elain has many flowers what is knew about it?"

"Do you see the wonderful pinkish ones with the grey center?" He nodded as he saw them. "They are extremely rare and with the right treatment they can be a wonderful love potion. That will make the person who stands under it fell in love with the producer and is so strong that it can even manipulat matet persons."

You could see how he connected the new Informations. "Y/N do you know what that means when you are correct?" "Surley what do you think we are doing her? Felon and me have already made the antidote so I just need to find some material in this house and I have everything I need."

"And how do you think we will get into the house without knocking down the door?" A small smile creeped onto your face. You knew the front door was to strong for even Cassian to knock it down but the balcony door looked like you could open it.

Without a explanation you climbed up onto the balcony and pulled out of your trousers a small filament and the dagger Varian had given to you. "Y/N do I wanna know why you know how to crack up a door?" He stood behind you and looked over your shoulder. "Let's just say one or the other task in truth or dare helped to gain this ability. And with that being said the door gave swung open.

"What am I looking for." Asked Varian after he followed you into the house that smelled like a flower garden it self. When you were right there was no wonder that not even your mate discovered the poition. "When you find vials with a pinkish serum would it be fantastic." He nodded. You separated and walked trought the whole house. You were already searching for so long that you were just one step away from giving up. "I have them, they are on the attic."

You climbed onto the attic and found Varian leaning over a big chest. There they where that must nearly be twenty or even more. And it didn't even need a lot of that liquid to manipulate someone for one week. The anger built up in you and your blood started to boil. You hand clenched harder around the dagger.

"Bring me into the house of winds. Now." You said trying not to let your anger out on him. Wisley he just grabbed you arm and you were falling down onto the training space on the roof.

You didn't look behind you if Varian was following you. You could make out theire voices behind the door to the dining room. You burst trought the door and everyone's eyes shoot in your direction. But your whole concentration was lining on the female next to you mate. "Hello little monkey." You hear Cas voice but keept ignoring it.

"Elain I give you one second to step as far away from MY mate or I will need to hurt you." You said with a very sweet voice. Elain didn't move and your mate stood up and covered her with his body. Don't take it personal Y/N he can't do anything about it. "Y/N what happend?" Feyre asked not sure if she should protect her sister or just let it go and see where it goes.

"Oh there is a wonderful explanation the so sweet Elain had bred a flower that has the ability to manipulate even mates to fall in love with the brewer." Never letting Elain out of your eyes.

"Is that true Elain?" Rhys asked but Elain shocked her head. "No why would I do that we love each other. Y/N is just jealous and can't deal with the fact that he choosed me and not her." "Elain stop lying we where in your house I saw the poitions as well." Varain said who has gone to Amren and stood behind her chair. "Nesta you must belive me." She tried to find help in her sister but Nesta just looked into your face.

She could see the hurt the damage you have gone through over the last weeks. Elain saw that Nesta wouldn't stand on her side and laid a hand on the shoulder of your mate. "GET YOUR HANDS OF HIM" you walked into their direction and Azriel stept infront of you. Mor, Cas and Rhys were all ready to step between you and the shadowsinger to protect you.

You could feel his breathing on your skin he was ready to fight you could see it in his eyes but hos shadows calmed you much to his indignation. They were brushing gently over your skin like they were checking you on any harm and welcoming you back. "Get out of my way please Azriel." you plead you didn't want to hurt him you saw something in his eyes but the moment was gone really fast and he looked at you again like you were his enemy. "No I think you need to leave no one wants you here." "Azriel!" You could her the voices of your family.

"I am sorry." As fast as you could you go down under his arm and kicked his legs away from under his body. You pushed your knee on his sternum and pinned him like that on the ground. In one hand you held your dagger against his throat and in the other was the antidote and brought him to drink it.

When the glass in your hand was empty you stood up from his body. He was knocked out, you knew that this would happen so you just stood up. "Can someone tell if I am dreaming or did the little monkey just said ur shadowsinger on his ass?" "I did and when you don't shut up you will be the next one but first Elain." You looked to her she was now completely with in her face.

"Tell the truth and step out of my sight or I will forget myself." "I... I..." "You what Elain why do you had the need to stell my mate?" The fear in her face switched to anger. "Because he I mine I was her before you. He was so close to love me and then you came around and stole him from me. You dumm whore. He is mine." Before your anger could get the best of you the shadows around you were getting more and you felt something what you haven't felt for weeks.

Azriel he tucked and bond and you opend up. You turned around and saw him he was conscious again and held up by his brothers you saw the guilt in his eyes. I don't deserve you. You could feel the guilt the self hate how he was butting him self down and the love. The endless love.

You broke down ro the floor sobbing. He was back you had your Azriel back your mate. He crawled to you and pulled you into his chest. Like his life was depending on it. His shadows and wings capturing you in a cocoon. He saying charming and calming words one after the other but his presences the bond and just his body was al you needed. It was like coming home after years. Because he was your home. Your emotions get the best of you and you dosed of into the blackness.

One week later you were in ur bad prest against Azriels body with a blanket over you two. One wing trapped over you aswell as his shadows. Since the day you have stormed into the family dinner he didn't leave your side and apologised so many times. But it wasn't his fault you knew that.

"I love you Y/N I will never leave your side again." "I love you too." You clinched more on him and buried you nose in his chest. "But I need to go to the Summer Court for a week." "Oh no you will stay here or I will come with you. I don't care what Tarquin says. You will never leave into another court without me again." "I think I can talk to Tarquin so that you can come with me but now I just want to lay in your arms."

"Oh that will be no problem nobody will ever separate me from you ever again" He gave me a quick kiss on the lips before we keept on cuddling. With Elain wonderfully faraway in the Spring Court.

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[shadowcrowsworld]

Disappering (3)

Azriel x reader

Part 1, Part 2

Summary: Y/N has left to the Summer court

! English isn't my first language!

Feyre was back home and walked into her mate who was standing in the living room with a frown on his face. "Why do you smell like the Summer Court darling?" He laid his arms on her hips and pulled her to his chest. "Y/N came to us I brought her to Tarquin." The frown on Rhys face didn't wash away. "A day after her anniversary with Az and after he was gone for a week?" "Do you know if something happend?" "I don't know what but there need to be something. Y/N looked like she was about to brake down. And when I think about it she wasn't herself the last couple of weeks." "We should talk to the others before we go to Azriel my darling. Before it is nothing."

An hour later they all meet in the house of winds. That means Cas, Nesta, Mor, Amren, Madja, Feyre and her mate. Elain and Y/N never were close to each other so Feyre thought she doesn't need to bring her. "So what is it that you felled the need to wake me up this early brother? After I missed my mate for a week." Cas mumbled, she could see how sleepy he was leaning against her sister "When I need to guess it has something to do with Y/N." Amren said eyes fixed on her. She definitely had talked to Varian this morning. "What is with the little monkey and why isn't Az her then?" "I brought her to the Summer Court this morning."

Everyone except her mate and Amren looked shocked. Even in the face of her sister she could see that Nesta wasn't expecting that. "Madja do you know something. Did something changed in her behaviour?" Rhys tried to get to the point. "She stayed longer at work. First I didn't think much about it but then she looked tired every morning like she didn't sleep. I send her yesterday home early I thought Azriel could bring some peace to her and allow these to to spend there anniversary together." So this was going on longer and wasn't just a small argument between the two. "I have met Y/N in the streets sometime ago and it was raining like hell and she didn't seem to care about it." Amren added to the list. "She was restless when she was her with me. Every evening she walked trought the house but I let her be. I thought she would come to me when she was ready to talk." Her sister and Y/N were friends like she and Y/N but it seems like she didn't go to nether of them. The problem was none of them knew what was with there friend. That she left as far as she could. "Cas when you know something open your mouth." Her mate said and she looked to the General who fiddled with his shirt.

"Cas talk now." Mot said "or I ask your mate to get it out of you." Feyre was sure that her sister won't hesitate and do if he don't use his mouth. "I love that bastard I really do but I think the little monkey ran away from our brother." Cas looked up and found the eyes of his other brother. "I don't know how much you notice it but I just came to the point were I could see clear when I picked her up." "What do you mean?" It was like none of them existed and the brothers were alone.

"I don't think he told her that we were leaving last week. She looked so shocked before she tried to play it of. And then I started thinking. Did you notice how much time he spent with traing, was with one of us or was with Elain. Sometimes I just smelled Elain on him and not even a little bit of Y/N." She could see how her mate was thinking about the last couple of weeks and you could the realisation in his eyes.

That can't be Y/N was his mate why did he smell like her sister. "There is more." Mor said. Oh please don't tell us he cheated on Y/N. "I don't know if it was just for the week but we all know that Az like to leave some of his shadows with Y/N expect when he is gone and is spying around. So I would say that he left some here with her." Everyone nodded but before could keep on talking Madja interrupted her. "They were gone before last week. I'm not sure when they left but with you saying that. I can't even make out a point when there were around her wrist the last time." That is definitely not good he always used them as a protection for her and because they really adore Y/N. In the beginning of there relationship he had a hard time to hold them on a leash because he feared they would scare Y/N.

"Cas I think we need to talk with our wonderful brother." Feyre could her the anger in her mates voice and youbcould see it in Cas face. Y/N was for the two like a small sister and Az was now standing on the wrong side for his brothers.

The two men left trought the door. Mor brought Madja back in the city and Amren left who knows where. And she was left with her sister. "I think we need to talk with our sistere as fell." Feyre never saw her sister being angry with there sister but the day has come today and she couldn't denay she was mad at her as well. Noone should stand between mates especially, when they are happy with each other.

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Part 4

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Disappering (2)

Azriel x reader

Part 1

Summary: He spent more and more time with her

!English isn't my first language!

He was gone again. You smelled that he must have come home after you've go to sleep but he left before you woke up. Your full body hurt you missed him so endlessly but you gave up more and more. Carefully you stretched your senses along the bond but met with a wall. The wall wasn't thick but she was existing and that hurt even more. You didn't try to go against that wall. Before everything started to go down hill there was a light wall of shadows you always could slip through without any afford. But that was before.

You crawled out of the bed and got ready for the work with Madja. "Good morning girl. You look a little bit tired, do I have to talk with our shadowsinger because he didn't allow you to get your rest in the night you need." You forced again that familiar false smile in your face. It was to easy already to do it. "I will talk to him myself. I will talk to him and get my sleep back." "Hopefully I need you with your whole concentration." or else you are worse than already and I didn't need your help anymore. I finished the sentence for her. "Let's get to work or our patients getting more whiny than they are from time to time." Madja smiled and we get into the treatment area.

The day was long it seems yoy wasn't the only one who was in the rain yesterday because we had al lot of patients with a cold. And you could feel yourself getting a little bit sore as well. Before you could leave to go in the bed to get some rest Madja came to you withe a small leather pouch. "Before my favourite helping hand get sick herself." "Thank you Madja" "and before I forget it I have a invitation for you." I frowned and waited for her to continue.

"You sure remember that I was in the summer Court last month." Sure I did she left me with the full responsibil. "I had talked so much about you that the healer wants to spent some time with you to learn something from you. And you it will be a learning experience for you as well." The frown on your face get deeper. "When he wants to learn something wouldn't it be better you go there?" "Oh darling you are so talented and I never saw someone handle patients with so much love and skill as you. Don't talk yourself down all the time." You could feel how your blood streamed into your face. "Think about it I will talk to our High Lord and Landy and see if it is okay with them. But you need to talk to your possessive illyrian warrior." He would be the smallest obstacle in this. She seem to notice that you hesitate. "You don't need to give me an answer now think about it. Talk to your family and then decide."

Completely in your thought you wandered around Velaris. Going to the Summer Court was a big opportunity for you. But what happens when you are actually gone and not even near him anymore. You knew that it will affect you you already crave for his presence and just the smell was left for you. When that was gone as well you didn't know if you could still go on with your life without collapsing. You couldn't keep on thinking because someone grabbed you at your hips and wind hit your body.

The scream that came out of you must have been heard in the hole city. The familiar laugh in you back made you relax. "Cas you Idiot are you more out of your mind than you are already." "Oh come on." He changed my position in his arms so that I was able to lock into his face with big fat grin in it. "Oh come on monkey you love to fly." "Sure but a little warning would have been nice." and it remembered me how long I wasn't in the air with him. "And don't her that funny scream? Never." "Someone really needs to teach you a lesson again." He giggled. "Maybe you should do that. When I think about you really need to learn a little bit about self defense." He wasn't wrong You were a part of the inner circle and was a absolute zero when it came to fighting even protect yourself.

"When we come back you will get some lessons from me and Nesta." "When you come back from what?" He stopt flying around and stood still in the air. "Rhys, Az, Feyre and I are leaving today into the mountains. There is a illyrian holiday week? Don't tell me that bastard didn't talk to you about it you will stay with Nesta at the house of winds, Mor will bring you down and pick you up for and from work." He didn't say a word but who is surprised. "He mentioned it I just suppressed it." "Did he at least said goodbye to you because he left this morning." Ouch. "I was already asleep when he came home last night he probably left a letter. Because he didn't want to wake me up" He didn't left a letter you knew without looking into your apartment. "What a gentleman. I would have wake Nesta for hundred percent and make sure she doesn't forget me." You weren't the one who forget your mate it was him forgetting you.

Cas let you down at the house of winds and sad goodbye to Nesta in a way you would have looked Nyx away. Rhys and Feyre also sad goodbye to you and talked with you about the invitation you got. They stand behind you and said you should take that opportunity. Nesta and you spend the rest of the evening together talking and reading your books.

But now you were in your bed and turned from one side to the other. You already tried to read another chapter in your bock but you couldn't concentrate on one single line. He left. He left without a single word. Not even over bond did he tried to contact you and this trip was planned weeks ago. When did he start hiding things from you had he even lied to you without you even noticing. You couldn't tell and the option of asking had he take from you a well. You gave up you couldn't sleep not with all the thought circling in your mind.

Sometime ago Nesta mentioned to you to that traing helped her to shut her mind down so why not try it. You switched the fairelights on to see wich equipment was left. You started simple doing some stretching and at some point you ended infront of a punching bag. Your hands were covered and withe each punch your thought were getting quieter and quieter. Finally everything in and around you wad quiet and that felt awesome.

For the following nights this procedure repeated itself. You waited till Nesta was a sleep and sneaked onto the training place. The week was now over and your mate would be back home today. You couldn't even concentrate on your work and you were so jittery that Madja send you home. "Go and catch your mate you little lovebird." It wasn't just the day he would come home it was also your anniversary day one year ago you completed the matingbond. Whatever happend in the past weeks he couldn't forget this day.

At the market you bought fresh ingredients and started cooking. The dinner was ready when he should be home and you started to wait when it was near midnight you gave up and get to bed. Again you were left with the situation that you couldn't sleep. You didn't know how long you waited but you could feel his familiar presence. You turned to the wall and waited till he come to the bed. You could her the sound of his clothes and the bed sinking beneath his weight. But he didn't brought you to his body like he always did and tuck you to his chest and his shadows flowing over you both he just covered you more in the blanket. A single tear streamed down you face there was nothing. It was hurting so much to have the love of your life next you and feeling how he doesn't feel the same as you anymore.

In the morning you were the one this time who was awake before the other. As quiet as you could you packed a small back with your stuff. Before you left you turned one last time to him and sangdown next. Your fingers glided trought his fluffy hair and his shadows creeped around you and danced over your skin. But your decision was fixed you gave him a light kiss on his head and left to the door his shadows stayed the way with you and were tugging and your clothes like they were pleading you to stay.

Nervous you knocked on Feyres and Rhys door. A sleepy Feyre opend the door for you and frowned. "Y/N is everything alright? Did something happend?" "No nothing happend I just wanted to ask you to bring me to the Summer Court." "No problem but are you sure nothing happend?" You just nodded trying hard not to breakdown. "Can you just bring me away from here?" She still tried to find your intentions but nodded and grapped your hand.

Warm air hit you and it was like a whole mountain left your shoulders. "Hello Feyre, Y/N. I didn't expected you today especially this early but it is nice to have your company." The high lord of the summer curt greeted you. "Take good care of her Tarquin she is our best healer and friend." "For sure High Lady." Before Feyre left to go back home she hugged you and brushed over your mental walls. I take my falls down to let her slip trough "whatever happend we will always be there for you. Don't hesitate to contact me when you need something or want home." "Thank you Freya. You are good friend. I love you for that" "You too Y/N whatever it is we will find a solution." And with one last smile she left and you were alone with Tarquin. "Than let me bring you to my healer Y/N so that he can learn from you."

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Part 3

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[shadowcrowsworld]

Disappering

Azriel x reader

Summary: he spents more and more time with her

! English isn't my first language!

It hurts everytime you see them it was like the dagger in your heart was twisted again. He spent time on a mission, training or was with her.

Like why not she was lovely, one of the three famous Archeron sisters. Why wouldn't he choose her over you. Everyone was better than you.

Your only role was to help Madja and that was it and most of the time you didn't even though you were good at your job.

And than there was Elain, tougher than most people think of. The gift to see parts of the future the ability to like and trust everyone around her. And beautiful.

And he spent his time with her you didn't even know when the last time was that you have gone to bed together, cuddled, kissed or even spend time together alone in one room without someone around you or you already sleeping because couldn't stay awake any longer, and in the morning he was already gone.

Even his shadows left you. Normally there where some of them around your wrist even when he wasn't there just to keep your company. But after his last mission you didn't have the comforting feeling around your wrist anymore.

He always had took them when he was on a mission but they were back with you immediately when he was home. But they didn't came. They were something that still calmed you even with his behaviour now there was nothing.

You were at the point that you think he wouldn't even recognise when you just left. It was already dark in Velaris and the sky was covered in clouds and it smelled like rain. Rain had always calmed you down. The calming sound of rain on the Sidra or against a window. A single tear was streaming down your face, month ago you would be in the arms of you made cuddled up against him with a blanket over you body's. The tears were getting more and mixed with the rain drops that started falling down the sky. You rapped your coat thighter around you and walked along Sidra.

There was no reason to go to your shared apartment he wasn't there and it felt empty so why go there. You didn't know how long you were walking already when a person stopped you by your wrist. The hand pulled you out of your thought and you looked into Amren's face. "What are you doing outside. You are a healer it isn't you job to get sick yourself?" She looked down on me and you could feel how she tried to get into your mind. But she was meet with a wall.

"Go home you little monkey." She used the nickname that Cas started with when your first meet the inner circle the first time. You had a lot of respect for them but they were your mates family and you couldn't always ditch them. You hung close to Az and used his wings to hide yourself from everyone. Cas found it funny and pulled you infront of Az and hugged you. "Look how adorable this litter monkey his she is even smaller than Amren." That sentence brought him a hit from his own mate and a threat from your mate who pulled you back against his chest and in his shadows, closing his wings slightly infront of you. "This idiot will never have the ability to shut his mouth." He mumbled in your hair.

The evening ended wonderful and you've got new friends you somehow on the way started to call family. Amren was walking by your side till you were at your apartment. "Thank you Amren but you didn't have to walk me Home." "Maybe, but our shadowboy would never forgive me when you slipped in the rain and I was the last one seeing you before you get hurt." "Who says he would have known that I saw you this evening." You forced a smile on your face. "When he would ask you if you have seen any of us this evening he would notice you lie. He always knows when something isn't right with you now go inside and dry yourself Madja need her little helping hand."

You opend your door and she left. You wished so much that she was correct but he wouldn't even notice that you left because you were just the little helping and you didn't were important. The empty apartment just clarified that to you. Because he wasn't there again like all the nights before.

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Part 2

[shadowcrowsworld]

Captured

Rhysand x reader

Summary: Reader getting captured from opponents of the inner circle

Warning: language, abuse of the reader, dark childhood, blood, self-doubt

!English isn't my first language!

I prest myself more and more in the corner behind me. Trying to escape from my brothers standing tall infront of me.

They are rare on one page but when it comes to me they are one big company. Beating up there little sister was a perfect amusement. All three standing tall infront of me.

My vision was already unclear and I couldn't say who was who. But by the hits that contacted my body I knew what they had in their hands.

One had chain, the second a whip and the third crowbar. They didn't really choose places were I could hide their marks they left on my body. But the deepest ones were on my back and ribcage. They were nowadays so deep that they were permanent that not Evan my Fea healing could do something about it.

"Oh look at our toy trying to escape." "But still to dump to remember that nobody would save her." "She will forever be our little play toy. I mean look at her nobody will take her like that." "Not even her mate would take her so powerless so useless a nothing that is what she is."

I didn't cried for such a long time when they or our parents were beating me up. I always swolloed my tears and screams because I knew how much joy they had when I did. I didn't want give them this victory as well, that was the last thing I could controll and what I could take from them. But that was the last straw I had today and they broke me again.

Every night I dreamed of my freedom lying under the night sky so close that I had the feeling I could touch them walking on colorful, joyful Street were everyone had a smile on their faces.

Escaping and cuddle into strong arms that protect me from my family and the life I was currently in. But they were right who would like to have someone like. My mate would definitely reject me.

"Oh look at her she is crying. Was the truth to much for you little sister?" "Oh sweaty we must tell you the truth so you know how your future will be, so you are not disappointed when you are older."

There voices where one, they were the truth so it doesn't matter who was talking to me. But they doesn't need to keep talking about my future I doesn't want that future everything should just end.

That was moment everything goes completely black around me.

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It was hard to open my eyes. I wanted to wipe away the sleep in my eyes and climb out onto our roof and look into the night sky to remind myself that I wasn't anymore by my family.

But my hands were stopped in the motion, worst something sharp dug into my wrist. The pain remembered me were I was.

I maybe just woke up from my memory but the place I was in was in the personal dungeon from my family. The day I escaped from this place I had sworn to myself to never come back.

And now I was back in this wales chained to the wall behind me and one chain around my neck. I could barely hold my own bodyweight and was more hanging in my chains than standing on my own two feet.

I had a happy life when I escaped from my family. Cassian found me in the middle of a storm.

I most possibly had diet when he didn't found me that night. He brought me into Velaris and to Madja. She tried to heal my wounds as best as it was feasible.

Mor was the one who showed up in my temporary room by Madja. She asked me were I and especially my wounds came from. The only thing I said was that my family did that to me and i tried to run away.

I pleaded to her not to send me back to them and she didn't. She didn't asked further and who my family was.

That maybe was the luckiest I've ever got. My father and the rest of my related family tried to get into Rhysands place to rule the night court like he wanted.

Maybe they had just placed me back into the woods or to the court of nightmares. After all those years I spend with them after I became a part of the inner circle I didn't know how they would react to that information.

Even when Mor became a big sister to me. Amren the one who just teached me so much more about history and magic. Cas and Az who became the brothers I always wished for and Rhys.

Rhys the person I always ran to when I feeld weak had a panic attack or just needed to feel safe. Who listened to me without digging deeper. Who made me smile when not even Mor our Cas could bring a smile to my face and sitting in the night with me on the roof when I couldn't sleep.

When he was under the mountain with Amarantha it was like something was missing. And with just hearing the rumours and nothing really clear tore me apart.

The day he came back just coming into the dining room like he never left I couldn't belive my eyes. All of the others stood up and they where like big ball of limbs. Just Amren stood a little bit beside them and waited till Rhys was free from the others and welcomed him back.

I was still sitting and the table when he kneeled infront of my chair. "Are you really here?" I didn't trust my voice and wasn't even sure if he could her me.

But he just smiled at me "Yes I am back little moon." He brushed little with his fingers over my faced and captured the tears that were streaming down my face.

His touched waked something inside me and jumped on hin and hide my face in his neck and inhaled his scent. He pushed me even harder against his body and laid his wings around us.

I didn't know how long we were sitting on the ground that evening but I didn't left his side for the next weeks. In the fear he would just disappear again.

And now I was the one gone. The men of my father captured me when me and Mor were going back to Velaris after we were in the winter Court.

I don't know if they get us both or if Mor could escape from them. Oh please Mor be home, safe.

Tears were streaming down my face i don't know when my father and brothers would come back. So just give myself this moment of weakness.

I am sure that I will die in this cell. Because when they find who I really am nobody will come searching for me.

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Rhysand:

I was training with the boys when I smelled Mors blood behind me before I saw her. I turned around and saw my cousin. Alone.

Where was my mate. Every alarm bell I had ringed in my body. Cas and Az were already at her side but she pushed their caring heads just away.

"I am fine. Everything is heald already." She walked to me and came to a hold with a certain distance.

"They attacked us in the worst. The privat warriors of Maximilian, they seemed shocked when Y/N's hood unveiled her face. There concentration was then completely on her. I couldn't even got close to her and then they were gone."

I was still I couldn't even lift my hand. Maximilian had my little moon, my heart, my mate. The bond never clickend on her side and know I feared that we didn't have enough time.

It clicked the first time I found her after one of her nightmares on the roof just watching in the night sky. That was the moment she became my hole world and know I feared again that I lost her.

The last time was when Amarantha captured me under the mountain. The only thing that brought me through the whole time was her. The memories of her, when she was so deep in a book that she didn't even recognise anything around her.

How the stars and the moon reflected in her eyes when we spend nights on the roof. How she dealt with my crazy family. She was know in the hands of my enemy.

"Rhys are you still with me." Mor asked carefully. "When did they attack you both." There was a lot of dried blood on her clothes and when they were heald that attack was not just before she appeared by us.

She looked at me with guilty eyes "Yesterday they knocked me out. I can't even say how I got out of the woods." That was a day already and in a day could happen so much to her.

She only had a few nightmares nowadays that would definitely change again when I got her out of their. Maximilian will definitely die that was already clear for me and nobody could change that.

I walked to the weapons on the other side and just wanted to grab a sword when Amren appeared infront of me.

"You idiot will not just leave now. Go change into you armour and come back here we will need a plan to get her out of Maximilian hands. And I will figure out why they suddenly changed their plans and just get Y/N and not her and Mor."

"Amren Y/N is my mate I will not leave any longer there than already" " And all of us know that so go and put on your armour."

I winnowed into my room and changed as fast as I could. I can't have been more than 10 minutes but when I was back my family was ready to fight. But every single one of them looked shocked.

"What, what did you found out." Not even Amren opend her mouth. "When none of you starts to talk I will just leave on my own."

Mor was the one who found her voice again. "Maximilian is Y/N father." No this can't be. I wasn't mad that she didn't told me who her family was. She had her reasons and understand it.

But the situation have gotten worse. My mate was in the hands of the man who hurt her already together with his sons.

They left marks on her visible ones and the ones that goes deeper. They will never gonna be happy ever again. "Let's go end get her out of their.

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Y/N:

Through my blurry mind I herd many panicked voices. Slowly I gain more and more of my senses.

I wasn't sure if I heard his voice but I didn't dear to belive my hearing. Not until the door infront of me was blown into million peaces. Theire he stood with his full armour sword in his hands and violet eyes. He came he really came.

When my eyes connected with his something in me vibrated and lashed out to him. And than I feld it the bond that felt into place. His eyes expand before he rushed to me and freed me from my chains.

I fell into his arms and started to cry he was her and he was my mate. "Did you?" I've get out sniffled. "Yes I knew" he stood up with me prest against his chest.

"Are you disappointed." I asked carefully. It was like something hit him and I looked up into his voice. "Don't ever think that again. I am the one that didn't you." And then send all of his feelings over the bond.

I was glad that I wasn't standing my legs never would have hold me. Theire was so much love and I opend my self. I took down every wall that I build up around me and showed him me how I was feeling when he was by my side and in every single situation.

A big soft smile appeared on his face. I didn't care that I was at the place were I only had feald pain. Because he was holding me and the one who protected me from everything.

He kissed my nose and laid his forehead on mine like we are not in the home of one of his enemies. And I just wanted to feel his lips on mine.

Whe seem to have the same thought because he brushed lightly over my lips before he kissed me like I was the most important thing.

My lips started to tinggle and I wanted so much more but he disconnected our lips and laid his forehead again on mine.

"Let's go home little mate."

[shadowcrowsworld]

Sickness

Azriel x reader

Summary: The reader is sick and don't want to stop Azriel to do his job

!English isn't my first language!

I was feeling sick. When I woke Azriels side of the bed was already cold. I tucked on his blanket and pulled it over my head as well. I felled like I was standing in a cold autumn rain with only a thin shirt on my body and my head was bounding.

Our bedroom door opend and Az came to my bedside. I knew that he would leave today, I don't no where he would go but he would leave. He but one lose strand behind my ear and gave me a small kiss on my head.

"Goodmornig sweetheart." "Morning." I whispered. I didn't trust my voice and wouldn't like to worry him about me when he needed to do his job. "Are you alright love?" My spymaster already sceptical.

I straightened up and leand myself against the headboard with his blanket closed tucked against me. "I just missed you next to me when I woke up." It wasn't a straight lie.

"Sorry I needed to get ready for my mission." "When will you come back." Please let it just be two or three days. Being sick sucks but without my mate it was worst. His presence calmed me down and helped me.

"I don't know yet, maybe two weeks or so." At least I wouldn't be sick anymore when he was back. "Are you sure that everything is alright? You look a litle bit pale." His shadows danced around me and played with my hair. "I spend to much time with my book inside. Don't worry give me an hour outside in the sun and you wouldn't notice that I was pale this morning."

I kissed his hand that was laying at my face and send him comfort feelings down our mate bond. "Alright than go outside a I will be back before you know it." His shadows kept dancing around me as he stood up and gave me a small kiss on my lips. I would lie when would say I didn't want more of it but when I really was going to be sick it was better when we stayed by the small kiss.

"Leave before our High Lord is standing in our bedroom with me in nothing more than a shirt of yours." A small smirk billed on his face. "If you want me stay keep on talking" he started to nibble on my neck and his shadows decided to pull on my covers.

"Leave all of you." I smiled and waved the shadows away. "The sooner you are back at my side." "Alright but don't get in any trouble as long as I'm gone" "I never get into trouble"

I forced a smile on my face. The moment the door closed behind him I felt how he blocked most parts of our bond. He always did that when he was on a mission. There was only one little past open that was for if something happend or only to feel him when he was gone.

Normally I was thankful for that but today I blocked myself from him. With him gone I feeld worse than before my head started to bounding more and a lot colder. With his cover and smell around me I walked to our wardrobe. I picked one of his warm tops and pulled it over my head.

I walked back into our bed and laid down on his side. The first tears slipped down my face and I closed my eyes in the hope that when I sleep I perhaps feel better afterwards.

I didn't feel better Az was now one week gone and felt wore than before. I started to get stomach arche and fever. I didn't left our house once.

My now comming problem was that either Cas or Rhys are would stand infront of my door. I already send Mor and Fay away yesterday withe the words that I have something important to do and no time.

As if had something important to do in our house. It definitely didn't help that my voice cracked when I said goodbye to the two. The boys were definitely coming to check on me.

I collected all the power to stand up get under the shower and put some clothes on that didn't scream 'hey look at me i am sick.'

I didn't need to wait long and I heard a knock at my door. No one kicked the door down so maybe they weren't as sceptical as I thought. I crawled out of the bed and walked down to the front door. I opend the door and controlled immediately all of you walls in front of me wasn't standing one of the boys but both.

You have got to be kidding me. How should I do that. "Do you wanna let us in our du we need to stand outside?" Thanks for nothing Rhys. "Come in you boys. I didn't even expected you to knock. I was thinking you would just stand in my living room our library."

"How do you think about us biscuit." Cas looked at me with played shock. "It wouldn't have been the first time Cas" "In my defence I never stood out of nowhere in your library." "Yea but you stood in the kitchen and I nearly burnt myself."

And my throat started to burn again and I stardet to cough. "So the girls were right you are sick." "I am not sick I am just not feeling pretty feel Rhys."

"Try it with the truth biscuit." I let myself fall in the armchair picked the blanket and covered myself with it. "What can I do for you two?" "Why didn't you say a word Y/N?" Rhys asked.

"Why should I? I have medication and sleeped most of the time how did you want to help me?" "Maybe bring you some food and watch out for you so our brother don't cut of our heads." "He won't do that." "I wouldn't be so sure about that you are his mate." "Thanks Cas." "I really like the company of you two but I would like to go to bed again."

"Would you at least tell us what you have and allow us to check on you until Az is back." "What du you wanna play my nurse Cas?" "You are stubborn as your mate." Another hit of chills met me and I sneaked deeper in my blanket.

"I have fever, a rough throat, my stomach is eating me alive and my head want to explode." "So you are going straight into your bed"

Rhys stood up and lifted me out of my place and into his arms. "Don't tell Az that I carried you." I started to drift of in his arms it was definitely to much what I did today.

The next time I woke up I was in confi clothes and beneath a big blanket. I pushed my head into the pillow beneath me and smelled Az.

I started crying. I can't anymore, I needed him by my side now not in one week or even later now. "Oh sweetheart." I heard a familiar voice. No this can't be.

I looked up and there he was sitting right next to the bed. His shadows started flow around my body and beneath the cover. His hand found my face and stroke away my tears. "What are you doing her?" Nice now I had a raspy voice as well.

"I am exactly there were I needed to be." With one hand I tried to pull him closer to me. I needed to feal him. "You didn't though I wouldn't notice that you blocked me out. I was already suspected something on the day I left."

He stepped out of his clothes and left only his boxers on before he came to me under the covers. I snuggled at his body and left out a deep breath finally he was back.

He even prest me more into his body and build a cocoon out of the shadows and his winks. "Why didn't you say a thing when I left?"

He started to trail pattern with his finger on my side and kissed my head. "You needed to do your job. I didn't want to be the one who stopped you from doing your job I should be capable of dealing with myself when you are not with me."

"And you are but when you are sick it is a completely different thing. Do you even no how often I tried to communicate with you and was always meet with silence." "You needed to concentrate and not thinking about my sick ass."

"Hey look at me." I turned my head so I could look into his eyes. "When Rhys told me you were sick and needed me I was back as fast as I could. You are the most important person to me Y/N nobody can hold me away from you not even you. The boys and I have the same opinion as soon something is with our mates everything can wait. So next time you say something alright?" "Alright." "Vow it love."

"Only when it applies to you too." "It does." and he kisses my nose. I could feel how the new pattern built on my skin. "Now sleep I will not leave your side and protect you."

"I love you Az" I said before I closed my eyes and listened to his calming heart beat. "I love you too Y/N."

[shadowcrowsworld]

Where is she?

Cassianxreader

Summary: Reader gets lost on a mission and nobody knows where she is.

English isn't my first language!!

This is my first ff so please let me know what you think.

Where did I think this was a good idea. I was sitting at a table in one of the illyrian camps, alone. Or at least technically alone. I was surrounded by illyrian warriors and their camp leader Guran. Three days ago I was in the river house and decided together with Feyre and Amren that I should go and check out what the main problem was in this camp.

Normally this wasn't a mission for me or at least a mission for one person only but our problem was that Rhys and Mor were in the summer Court and Az and my mate were in the spring Court because Tamlin decided to freak out again and doing who knows what. Amren was no option she would just rip their throat out with one wrong look and Rhys would kill us all when Feyre left to the camp.

But now when I think about it, it was the silliest idea to send me. For sure I could protect my self, it would be weird if I couldn't with the general of the night Court as my mate but this was my problem now.

They knew what I meant to Cas. For them I was an option to but him down or at least get to him without being in clear risk to lose their heads.

It was my third day in the camp and one think was clear every single one of them wanted to kill our at least hurt me. It was like walking on egg shells. My fingers where always in the near of my dagger. Mainly with what I can find out the warriors had still the opinion that they were the rolers of there part of the army and I'm sure there still clip wings of the female illyrians.

Just by thinking of this ritual I had a ticklish feeling in my finger to throw my dagger strait in their faces. Back at the table I was looking strait in Gurans face, my mask was sitting perfectly I knew that but this little sprakling in his eyes doesn't leave a good feeling in my stomach.

Again I took a sip of my drink, in the moment the glass came in contact with the table I could feel it for the first time. My bond to Cas started to feel numb. I didn't know how to describe it. In fear something happend to him I tried to find contact to Feyre but again, there was nothing. Shit, shit, shit.

I was to negligent, it was such a silly mistake. "I think I will leave to my bed the day was long." Carefully I stud up from my chair. "Oh that is sad. Do you want some company to you tent? We don't want you to get hurt." yea and Nesta is pure sunshine. Gurans eyes followed me to the exit.

On the outside the could air hit me like a punch in the face. I wrapped my clothes around me and walked to my tent. Again and again I tried to winnow away, home. Tried to contact someone of my family but all my powers were blocked.

I left my tent behind me and walked further in the woods. I had my too gladius, my dagger and warm clothes. If I would stay my chances of dying were higher. Hopefully this shit what ever it is will lose his power before I freeze to death or Cas finds out that I am not in Velaris or worse finding out where I have gone without him.

I don't know how long I was walking already but it had started to snow. Again I tried to contact Cas and tucked at our bond. Please Cas, please I need you.

It started to snow harder and the night wasn't helping to find a good way. I need a place to warm me up or I will become an ice sculpture. The snow were going to my hips already and make walking harder.

I'm still not sure why nobody was following me, probably they really thought I would die in the snow. Dimly I could make out at rock face infront of me. Hopefully their is a cave where I can stay for a while. My claustrophobia was already rining in my head but when I want to live it was the only choice I had till I can use my powers again.

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Cas:

Together with Az I landed on the front of the river house. Finally we were back home I couldn't wait to have Y/N back in my arms. I tucked at our bond to find out were I could find my love but was meet with nothing like she booked our bond.

Strange why was she blocking me out was she mad at me because we needed longer than expected at the spring Court? When this the reason is will punch Tamiln great full in the face with no shame.

"Why are you looking like you want to knock someone out brother" Az asked me. "Y/N isn't answering me. Maybe she is just mad that I was gone for such long time." "Or she was glad she doesn't has to deal with you al the time" he grin.

The door opened and Feyre came out of it with a frown on her face. Okay something was definitely of right now. "Feyre what happend? Is everything alright?"

Rhys was now behind his mate and looked like he had as well a lot of questions. "Darling what are you hide from me?" "Feyre were is Y/N?" I needed to find her to have her in my arms knowing that she is alright.

Instead that she answered my question she asked me another one what defintily doesn't helped to calm me down.

"When was the last time you had contact with Y/N?" No this wasn't good again I tried to reach out to her again. Please love. Speak to me give me something. Please. Nothing everything stayed silent. "When we left to the spring Court and when you don't tell were my mate is I'm going to lose it."

Rhys moves in front of his mate and shielded her from me. With a low voice Feyre started to speak. " I send her to the illyrian camp that made trubble it was getting worse so someone of us needed to go their." No, she hasn't gone their she is smarter than that. "You guys weren't here aswell as Mor. Amren would have killed all of them immediately and Y/N didn't allowed me to leaf. So she left and gone in to the camp." This couldn't be true. "When did she left?" Feyre stayed quiet. "When did she left Feyre" I could feel Az hand on my shoulder but ignored it completely.

My mate was my priority. "She left eight days ago." I am going to pin her against the wall behind her when she didn't say to me what I needed to know. "We stayed in contact until three days ago. I thoughtshe was maybe with you now" She mumbled. It was as somebody took the ground underneath feed.

"Feyre go inside now we will find her don't worry" Rhys pushed his wife gently back in the house and came to me. "We will find her brother"

Before I could say a word I was standing in the middle of the camp withe my brothers next to. The cold air hit me and anxiety grew from every second. I was going strait to the tent of Guran. I couldn't feel or smell her so he needed to give me some answers.

He was sitting with some warriors at a small table playing cards. "Oh Cassian I wasn't expecting you. How does it come that we are get this honer?"

I grab my dagger and hold it to his throat. A small stribe of blood was leaking down his neck. "Where is my mate and I'm telling you if I don't get an answer you will never step out of this tent ever again."

His eyes wondered behind me. Without looking I knew my brothers had pinned down the warriors. "They will not help you and I give you the advice I don't have a lot of patience today."

"She left three days ago in the woods behind her tent. I don't know were she was walking than." "Why didn't you follow her?" I knew she wasn't dead she couldn't be dead ibwould have felt that.

"We but something in her drink that blocked her powers. She must have recognised it." Sure she did my mate isn't stupid. "Why didn't you follow her?" There must be a reason for that they never would have left her so easily.

"Five minutes after she left the snowstorm started so there was no reason to follow her." My dagger ripped right over his whole face and he landed crying on the floor in front of me. I will get him later know I needed to find Y/N as fast as possible.

Outside of the tend I flew straight in the sky at the hight of the tress. Where are you love? "Cas she is smart she will possibly found a cave to stay" Az said trying to set my nerves at rest but the only person that could do that was her. Now more then ever.

"Near must be the old cliff when she really walked in the woods behind her tent we just need to find the cave." Rhys was right hopefully she made it till their on food this was a long way.

As fast as I could I flew straight to the cliff. The snow made it hard to find the correct direction. But out of nowhere I felt a small lightly tuck at the bond. Oh thank mother the poison stooped working.

I followed the feeling and ended at a howl in the cliff three meters above the ground. I couldn't see much as I walked in their but I could feel her.

At the end of the cave I finally could see her small silhouette on the ground I rushed to her and felt on my knees infornt of her. She was definitely breathing. I clenched at her small boody at prest her to my chest she ice cold but her puls was in a steady rhythm.

She wimperd in my arms and opened her eyes. Her wonderful green eyes meet mine and the world stopped spinning. "You found me." "Of course I did. I will always find you."

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Y/N:

Cas had found me. I snuggled deeper in his chest and was trying to get mire of his warmth. "It's so could." "I know love I will get you home." The last thing I recognised before everything went black again was the voice of my High Lord and smell of my mate.

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Cas:

Rhys winnowed us strait to our bedroom. "I will get some warm soup for her and Az is getting Madja" and he was gone. As soon as he left I freed Y/N from her clothes and put her in some warm trousers and one of my tops. I layed her down under the covers and wanted to leave to make her a warm drink as I feeld a hand on my arm.

"Please don't leave" pleaded my beautiful little mate. I could never reject something like that from her. I freed my self from my clothes and snucked under the cover San d pulled her in my arms and coverd her with my wings.

"I will never leave you love"