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I'd love to find the comforting peace this blog brought me a few years ago. No need for anybody to be with me. No need for anybody to answer my messages. Of course loneliness was unbearable but it is today too. Yet today I am dependant on other people, on things, words and actions that I can't control. They're hurting me much more than loneliness does. I have turned into a fragile glass statue that I myself can't even touch and that I give to people who can't understand clear enough to tell me what's the shape of that statue.

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My little sister's new boyfriend got a tattoo for her about a month ago and he wanted matching tattoos so he decided to get uh. The tattoo on her ankle of her ex boyfriend's name that she hasn't gotten covered up yet

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No I don't want to study for the finals I want to make people feel seen with my art!! I want my friends to know we're together in this freaking boat!! But also if anyone actually sees my art I may cry

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The tailors at Colonial Williamsburg made a suit for their cat

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Not really nsfw but more like nsfhw. Not safe for homework. Cause wth was this class

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Coming soon to Tumblr: a button on posts that allows you blast the 'pain3' sound from Half Life (1998) directly at the poster

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I think I want to post my drawings. Why don't I? Why should I be scared? It's been so long since the last time I did

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Friend tried to tell me things the implicit way. Obviously I didn't understand something correctly or missed what they were trying to tell me. Friend withdrew from me one random day when everything was fine between us just the day before. I try to explicitly tell Friend they need to tell me what I did and why they stopped talking to me so I can 1) try and fix what I did/the relationship or 2) learn from my mistakes. Friend said they are fine and nothing happened. What !!!

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Does anyone know how to escape those moments where you have to do something easy and you don't remember how to so you stress out and you can't do anything anymore and time passes twice as fast as usual. You don't even know if you're hot or cold or hungry or anything and you're just. Not doing

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"why is EVERY song about love" I'm begging you to dig just a tiny bit deeper, there's literally thousands of songs that aren't love songs. You don't even have to look for the most obscure underground artists ever, the fucking Beatles of all people have a song about a guy who kills people with a hammer

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Hey, no homo, but I am sitting on the broken swing set out back in the perfect, quiet, 2:00am blackness and picturing the softness of your voice and the darkness of your eyes with such perfect and terrible clarity that it feels like I'm choking on my own heartbeat.

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if i were a drink i’d be cherry vanilla coke

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Yet I am so glad it's not earlier tho. I am absolutely sick of waking up at 5-6am everyday for 3 years. I feel privileged when I wake up later

Waking up at 7am to go to a class I have nothing interesting to learn from but if I don't I'll loose my scholarship is insane

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Waking up at 7am to go to a class I have nothing interesting to learn from but if I don't I'll loose my scholarship is insane

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is he autistic?

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hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???

i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)