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I wanted to give you the world but u did want to

I opened up my soul nd u didn’t enter ..

I exposed my weaknesses as I did to no one nd u didn’t understand ..

I wanted to show you how true love works nd u were stubborn

I was screaming for you to love me nd u didn’t hear me

I trusted you when I knew I shouldn’t but I did offer you my heart

I wanted you to numb the scars u didn’t see

I was the book you couldn’t read ..

You wasted my time..

My time was all for you but u didn’t appreciate it..

I was there ,I was there when I couldn’t breathe..

I was there when u hurt me..

I was there when I could have gone..

I chose to stay

I was telling you; love is a choice it’s never a feeling, feelings are unstable.,

I was bagging you to love me right nd I was still there ..

I was there when I drained from tears..

I was there when I had no energy left.. I stayed..

I fuckin’ was there when I was loosing myself to love you ..

I was there even when It felt like dying..

I could’ve given you my life but u didn’t believe ..

I was close to die for you but u still wouldn’t see me .

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feeling like i'm constantly too much and too little at the same time is so exhausting

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He’s just like the others but He.. He tastes like magic..🖤

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Love me more than you love yourself

and I’ll love you more than I love myself

So you could take care of myself and I’d take care of yourself..

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-Why me?

-You reached out to pieces in my soul that no one has ever even seen ..🩶

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and I wonder why his presence and even his absence both makes me sad..

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The truth is that maybe I’ve never really wanted love .. I only wanted to be wanted..

I wanted passion, someone who can’t get enough of me, obsessed and hunted by me..

Truth is that I didn’t want to spend my life with anyone, I just wanted someone who’s surrounded to me his whole life..

and I didn’t want anyone by my side ,Actually I wanted to be absent from time to time nd yet still my presence ruin their minds..

I didn’t want happily ever after, I’ve always wanted to be the scar that won’t heal..

I didn’t want love, I only wanted the thing that makes you go crazy and lose control..

the truth is I didn’t want love ,love is boring , but addiction is dangerous.. And I.. I wanted to be the drug they take in moderation..

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“You’re my weakness.. though I’ve never thought that I would Have one.. ”🖤

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“And now I’m just gonna step back and be content by missing you.”

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I’ll forget you! I’m forgetting you already! Look how I’m forgetting you!

Marguerite Duras, from ‘Hiroshima Mon Amour’, tr. Richard Seaver

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Just give me one reason to stay and wait.. and I promise I’ll wait for you forever ❤️‍🩹

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Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

Richard Siken, Crush (Little Beast)

George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones (A Song of Ice and Fire)

Margaret Atwood

Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

Yves Olade, Bloodsport

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The proverb is wrong. Time does not heal all wounds. It merely softens the pain and blurs the memories.

Antonia's Line (1995)

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How about the more someone else tries to get close to me the more I hold on to u.

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I’ve always been forgetting the whole world when I’m with you, Until one day I wasn’t able to find out how to forget you..

_shades of you