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lionsanarchy

The sudden grinding upon plump rear made Chris flinch slightly, merely than the unexpected as opposed to not wishing for such contact, goosebumps instantly billowing over his tanned flesh as he then settled himself fully upon Matt’s lap, podged physique now moving heavily back and forth, essentially dry-humping his best friend as a means of tease; something that he never would have assumed happening in his whole life, but could he really protest? Motions still felt perfect despite how unfamiliar they were, chapped twin-flesh merging now with a passionate vigor against the younger man’s own, whilst a muffled gasp flourished upon feeling opposing fingertips suddenly tracing upon his frame, causing even more goosebumps to pimple whilst his arousal was becoming intense, fidgeting slightly in his grinds as he could feel himself starting to get more and more impatient, yet still not wanting this heated intimacy to end for a singular second.

The sudden heavy grinding that was offered out in response to his actions from the ayatollah caused a loud moan of complete and utter need to spill into the surroundings from the rockstar, fingertips grasping tightly against Chris' tanned flesh to pull him even closer whilst his lower half continued to fidget slightly beneath the older man's frame, feeling his arousal almost reaching it's damn peak at this point as he too was becoming incredibly impatient, unable to wait any longer as he pulled away from the heated kiss only for a brief moment so that fingers could grasp onto the hem of opposed shirt, pulling it quickly over the Lion- heart's head before throwing it carelessly to the side. A low growl of complete lust spilled from Matt's lips as he allowed green orbs to fall upon the perfect physique that opposed, lips then crashing back upon Chris' own whilst his hands began to fumble slightly with the button and zipper against the ayatollah's jeans, desperate for him at this point and there was no way of denying that.

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lionsanarchy

[message]: you still heart me though, eh? don’t deny yo’self. [message]: just imagine that dog’s parents. crying. sobbing for their baby boy to come home…and there’s you ‘omg chris! it’s so cute and fluffy, d’awwwwwww’ [message]: rolling my eyes SO bad.

[text]: ...alright fine so maybe i can't deny that. [text]: but you're mean as fuck for rolling your eyes at me and judging all the puppy shadows love, alright? [text]: he's mine :(

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?

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blvesteel

[message]: omg, stooooop! 😳😳😳 [message]: this is probs the most embarrassing thing thats ever happened to me. and theres been a lot of things, bro! [message]: in fact, might just burn my phone. I WILL NEVER TEXT AGAIN!

[text]: haha awww it's not -that- embarrassing! [text]: i'm sure you look great in a kitty collar [text]: -meow-... ;) hahah

♣ - shadcwsx

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[message]: yeah, but 😇 i just wanna ride your D again. tonight. or i can do that whole ass to face thing i wanted to give you so damn bad AND i even bought a little kitty bell this time? for me, not you, haha. if anyone should be paid here, its me homes 😜

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lionsanarchy

[message]: chris, c’mooooon! :( [message]: i’m mocking you, by the way. [message]: sorry boyo, but you stole a pup that isn’t yours. do you want God to send you to hell? ‘cos puppy stealing is a sin. [message]: it’s in the bible and everything.

[text]: mocking me? you're the rudest lion ever, man. :( [text]: puppy stealing ain't no sin, puppy shadows is mine, no dog pounds or doggy hell for either of us, he's happy here, let him stay!

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?

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lionsanarchy

The sudden warming contact upon podged physique was seemingly a motivation as Chris slowly moved in order to straddle upon Matt’s lap, an action that he didn’t even really think about but he was hardly going to stop now when his rump was now settled over clothed sensitivity, able to feel it slightly against his own pants which caused a small moan to flow muffled into the locking of softened twin-flesh. Hands moved from their placement on opposing pulse in order to wrap around the younger’s neck, tattooed hand running through darkened tresses as the kiss deepened in intimacy, not necessarily rough but with feeling that was threatening to steal the oxygen away from the ayatollah’s lungs, breathing almost a triviality at this point in time when he wanted to become lost in whatever affections would transpire between himself and the other front-man. It almost felt perfect, Chris mentally scolding himself from pulling away in the first place but he definitely wasn’t going to back out now, arousal and the need for Matt building to a point that he couldn’t walk away from this, even if he had truly wanted to.

As Chris shifted himself to now straddle upon Matt's lap, both hands remained in their tightened grasp against opposing waist whilst a low groan of complete need sounded into the heated kiss in a muffled manner, pulling the ayatollah as close against his own frame as possible since he didn't want there to be even the slightest of space in between them. His heart was pounding ferociously within confines of his chest, having honestly never expected this to happen since he was so sure he had ended up crossing a line the first time and especially when he had pointed out that he wanted to make Chris happy within bounds of a relationship, yet the rockstar wasn't about to complain about this in the damn slightest, allowing his lower half to grind slightly upwards against opposing rump, causing a low growl of wanting need to spill from his lips muffled whilst hands shifted away from opposing podged waist to trail beneath the material of Chris' shirt, allowing fingertips to trace across every inch of the perfect physique that opposed, nails then dragging lightly to leave the faintest of scratch marks, unable to deny his heightening arousal for his best friend with every second that passed they were caught up in a heated intimacy.

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lionsanarchy

There wasn’t really much Chris could say, even if he wanted to, words held back within his throat as he knew he didn’t deserve happiness from anyone, let alone Matt but he also didn’t want to discard it either, for selfish reasons or otherwise, he wanted to bask in whatever pleasantries the younger male wanted to give to him. He almost regretted pulling away from the kiss in this moment, not want- ing the situation to become awkward when they could have been lost in lust right now, but - there was always time for a second chance, right? Moving an inked hand upwards to palm lightly against the side of opposing neck, thumb rubbing lightly over the pulse, profile leaned forward, Chris capturing Matt’s lips in a full kiss, a gesture that wasn’t roughened yet as the lids of azure optics fluttered closed; the hope that he could just melt into the moment without having doubts strong within his mind.

Matt truly felt like he had messed up, like he had said one too many things and crossed a line into making Chris no longer want to be around him, letting his gaze fall to look upon the flooring beneath them since he felt like he should have possibly just turned on his heel and walked away. Yet his thoughts were soon interrupted as he felt the ayatollah's hand reaching out to lightly rest upon his neck, no words able to be offered towards Chris to ask what he was doing before opposing lips pressed up against his own, a contact that caused his heart to begin hammering ferociously within confines of his chest since he craved it so damn much, both hands moving to rest against opposing waist to pull the older man as close to his frame as possible, allowing the lids of green orbs to close as a soft muffled moan spilled into the kiss, wishing this could last for a damn lifetime since nothing had ever felt more perfect to him than right now with Chris being so close to him.

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lionsanarchy

[message]: yeah sure. i’ll play with him all the way to the pound. i’m nice like that, scar. :) [message]: just accept i’m right like usual, eh?

[text]: nope, nope, nope! [text]: you are not taking puppy shads to no pound, he stays here with me. [text]: chris, c'mon. :(

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?

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blvesteel

[message]: legit just gonna crawl in a hole and die, brb 😭 [message]: im totes macho, okay? no kitten collars, ssh, you read wrong~

[text]: oh yeah man, all macho mean are into kitten collars ;) [text]: it's cool, i won't judge, i'm sure you look good wearing one... [text]: :)

♣ - shadcwsx

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[message]: yeah, but 😇 i just wanna ride your D again. tonight. or i can do that whole ass to face thing i wanted to give you so damn bad AND i even bought a little kitty bell this time? for me, not you, haha. if anyone should be paid here, its me homes 😜

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lionsanarchy

[message]: telling me not to come? but you love me coming over…why is that not the right thing, eh? has pup shadows replaced lion irvine? :( [message]: guess i’ll call the doggy pound.

[text]: alright, alright, you can come over! but only to -play- with puppy shadows, you're not taking him back to where i got him from :( [text]: eyes on you, irvine...

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?

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lionsanarchy

‘— you wanna make me happy?’

It may have been a simple comment spoken by Matt, but it were syllables that resonated like a pounding drum within Chris’ mind, head tilting to the side like a confused puppy as brows furrowed, confused beyond all compare why any- one would want to make him happy, especially his best friend when he didn’t deserve it. Blonde tresses shook slowly as he gazed towards the younger for an answer that he would never understand, heavy sigh then streaming from chapped twin-flesh in the knowing that he could never be happy; ten years of self-loathing couldn’t just disappear down the drain, could it? At least it couldn’t within Chris’ mind.

"----yeah? Of course I do, it's not like I want you to be miserable, Chris, I want you to be happy and I wanna be the one to do that."

All Matt ever wanted for his best friend was for him to be truly happy, that was what he deserved and after seeing him put himself down for so many years now, seeing him becoming so self loathing towards himself and not believe that he was good enough, he wanted to be the person to make him realize that he was deserving and worthy of happiness and being happy with someone. He deserved to be loved and Matt wanted to eventually be the person to be there to do that for him, he just wanted to make him happy and be there for him, he just needed that.

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blvesteel

[message]: … [message]: 👻👻👻 [message]: rip nemeth. he had a good life [message]: im SO sorry 😰 

[text]: hahaha no need to be sorry, we've all been there [text]: i mean, not the kitty bell situation, but sending the wrong text ;) haha

♣ - shadcwsx

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[message]: yeah, but 😇 i just wanna ride your D again. tonight. or i can do that whole ass to face thing i wanted to give you so damn bad AND i even bought a little kitty bell this time? for me, not you, haha. if anyone should be paid here, its me homes 😜

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[text]: well i thought you'd never take the hint. ;) [text]: haha no but seriously man, i think you sent this to the wrong person..

♣ - shadcwsx

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[message]: yeah, but 😇 i just wanna ride your D again. tonight. or i can do that whole ass to face thing i wanted to give you so damn bad AND i even bought a little kitty bell this time? for me, not you, haha. if anyone should be paid here, its me homes 😜

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lionsanarchy

‘I’m not saying I don’t want to ever give it a try — fuck, I didn’t want this being heavy ‘cos of my dumb fucking doubts but this is me, man. You’re not stupid, you know what I did to Jess. I ruined a decade age marriage for a dumb groupie, I’m always hurting people no matter what, like it’s fucking in my DNA or something, eh? I’m just – I don’t wanna put you through that shit. I don’t want you dealing with the likes of me, not when you deserve the damn world.’

Chris knew this was only supposed to be making out, to see where it lead, but seemingly it had triggered his self-doubts and the voices that plagued his mind in telling him that he would hurt Matt in the foreseeable, whether it was a kiss now or an actual relationship later, could he really take that chance? With a small shrug rolling over broad shoulders, the Lionheart expressed a meek ‘I’m sorry’, apologies for the fact he had caused a ramble to surface from twin-flesh strong, not wanting to seem as if this had to become deep when all had transpired was a trivial locking of lips.

"Yeah, this is you, my best friend and the one person I know is always gonna have my back no matter what. We all do some fucked up shit in our lives, I've done it, we all have, but you can't beat yourself up for mistakes you've made in the past, man, you can't keep doing that to yourself, I've watched you to do that for too long. I wanna make you happy, you deserve to be fucking happy and that's what I wanna do. You say I deserve the world, but you're the one who deserves that and so much more."

Matt's words were laced with a serious tone as he spoke, heart pounding within confines of his chest since it seemed like all these feelings he held for Chris were suddenly now rising to the surface to be out in the open, wanting to actually take things somewhere with the man he called his best friend to see how things between them would work out. Sure, he didn't want to lose him as a friend, hell, he didn't want to lose him at all, but with the way his heart seemed to scream out for him, he couldn't just push these feelings and urges to the side like they weren't even there.

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lionsanarchy

[message]: that’s it. [message]: coming to your house so you do the right thing, i’m serious, boyo. [message]: say your last goodbye to pup shadows.

[text]: noooooooooo! [text]: you're not getting puppy shadows, you're not doing the right thing either cause the right thing would be you staying there, sitting on your ass and letting me keep the dog, mhm.

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?

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lionsanarchy

‘Want what to happen, eh? For us to just screw and it be a one-night-stand and I’m just supposed to accept that I made my best friend nothing more than a cheap-ass fuck, or are you talking about a fucking relationship, eh? What if someone ends up realizing that the sex meant more than it should have and then we’re trapped in just feeling more for each other that should have been fucking suppressed for me and I’m just gonna end up hurting you either way and –’

Words were ceased instantly with a rabid growl, Chris knowing that he was probably over-thinking this more than he needed to, surely acting on the urges that were now burning within would end up being a good thing, right? Yet his demons told other- wise, vowing that it would only end up becoming messy and emotional before both of them realized it. Would that be worth the risk? The blonde didn’t known, simply allowing another growl to flourish before he bowed his head, mane shaking slowly in the unknowing of what to do.

Matt had been completely caught off guard by Chris' sudden ramble about the possibilities of what could happen to them if they either fucked for one night or made a relationship out of their feelings, having never looked at it the way that his best friend apparently was and yet, he still couldn't understand why this couldn't end up being a good thing. They could be together, be happy, maybe even fall in love one day, why was the ayatollah only looking upon the negatives? The Cali- native let a sigh become audible, blue orbs gazing towards the other man, heart now pounding rapidly within confines of his chest.

"I--I never thought of all that. But how do you know you'd hurt me, huh? What if this happens and...things end up being good? Is that really so difficult to believe? Don't you ever want just give it a try? Not ever?"

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lionsanarchy

[message]: …calling 911 on your ass as we fucking speak, douche. >:( [message]: i’m gonna come over there and snatch him away from you. this is what you get for calling me short. i may be small, but i’m still your worst nightmare, boyo! :)

[text]: it was a joke, man, c'mon! :( [text]: you are not taking puppy shadows, no way, he's mine. [text]: not even the worst irvine nightmare can take him!

[text]: Okay so yeah I may have stole your dog while I was drunk but that doesn’t mean I’m not a nice guy. Your dog loves me. We bonded. - shadcwsx

[message]: bro.[message]: i don’t have a fucking dog, eh? you know this?[message]: are you pulling my chain or are you being serious?