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I don't think the letter convinced Silco to forgive Vander, because that letter sucked and we all know it.

I think the letter enraged Silco to the point of confronting Vander directly which ultimately resulted in intimate acts precipitated by a cocktail of anger, frustration, and deep seated desire they could not shake.

"The power to forgive" No! The power of hate sex!

Vander cried during it, btw.

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Every time I get a notification that hexhomos posted my day gets better, thank you for existing diva💜

baby i know this isn't your heart 🥺

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Sometimes asexuality is about experiencing sexuality differently than allosexual people do.

Sometimes aromanticism is about experiencing romance differently than alloromantic people do.

While it's common that allo people may experience something an a-spec person may not, it doesn't mean a-spec people can't still be sexual/romantic in their own way. A-spec people can still embrace romantic/sexual parts of their identity if they want to.

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Fem JayVik for the win.

I love them so much also fem Viktor is so me anyway.

Just sketches because recently I didn't really draw digitally or just focused on my OCs and stuff.

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random doodles

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today i painted the herald 🙏

i rarely draw in a more traditional technique but he just calls for it i don't know

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hello! i saw you on the viktor community & i had some questions of my own! ive been considering writing a fic about him exploring his general feelings (i want to explore writing about that--rough idea but whatever), mostly bc the way he described himself feeling & looking was how i used to feel... but i am also able-bodied--& thusly i have a few quick questions! ok, so first of all; do you reckon he would experience joint pain in his knee/ankle/hip--& if so what type? i have some bc of low muscle mass, but i also know that the pain from an ankle injury is wayyy different (personal experience)... but what viktor has hits me differently. would the pain jsut be from the brace? would it be from the brace holding his leg in position? would the leg's joints hurt regardless? & on a similar note--what do you reckon is the reason for his back brace? i did notice some bolts(?) in his spine, so i assume it to be alignment-related... but do you reckon it could also help with pain? (im a big fan of compression stuff, so thats the best i can think of it as an analogy to)....... also same beat of pain/etc

ok & this is WAYYY more general, but are there any other super major things to consider? mostly just about how he'd go about his life & such! tysm! its super awesome to be able to hear about other's people experiences <3

Regarding pain, this is going to be dependent on the source of his low muscle tone, but there are a few sources of pain that are relatively universal among us low muscle tone folks. I'd actually recommend sticking to those universal experiences over trying to pinpoint his exact condition as Arcane doesn't specify, there's a bunch of genetic and environmental factors for disabilities like this, and these disabilities are all REALLY complex.

I chatted a bit about brace and leg position pain in my previous ask here, so I'll skip that topic for this ask. But a source of pain I didn't mention in the previous post is the general pain and exhaustion of the condition itself, regardless of bracing. When you don't have a lot of muscle tone, there's not a lot holding your joints steady. This results in you overcompensating with the muscles you do have. For example, if you have a really unstable leg, you'll put more pressure on the less unstable leg and often push your bad leg forward using your hips, glutes, and lower back which puts a lot of strain on them. The result is that you can get further complications in these parts of the body, including chronic pain. I was born with a dropped foot (aka I dragged my foot along the ground similarly to how Viktor does in the flashback to his childhood) so to get my foot up and off the ground I had to put a lot of weight on my good leg and kind of use my hip and low back to swing my leg forward in a sort of half-circle motion (the animators did a good job approximating this in a few scenes, iirc, but I should rewatch to confirm). This is pretty bad for your body as bodies evolved in this kind of "tall line" shape so your weight is distributed evenly to your heels when you stand and is evenly moved around when you walk. Many folks with uneven walking postures end up with pain in the lower back, hips, glutes (and, where relevant, the "good" leg) as a result.

The affected joints will also hurt regardless. I actually got diagnosed primarily because I had some pretty wicked knee pain at an age where Pretty Wicked Knee Pain is abnormal. When you lack muscle tone in these regions the affected joints lose stability and you get lateral movement of the joints of the leg (so rather than the join just hinging at the knee or twisting as per usual, there's a tiny bit of sideways movement at the knee joint. This is hard to explain verbally so if I find a good diagram I'll come back and add it here). You also get something called patellar maltracking, where the kneecap moves in directions it isn't supposed to. This wears down the cartilage that lubricates the bones and eventually results in some pretty wild pain when moving the knee or weightbearing through the knee. Similar shit happens in the ankle and in a bunch of other joints. When this wears down, it makes the affected joint stiffen with cold (yes, fanfic writers who included this, I did notice and I hope you know I love all of you). This can also happen to folks who just don't have a lot of muscle for non-disability reasons, which is why some non disabled folks seem to get injured a lot.

As for the back brace, this (mostly) exits personal experience territory and enters workplace experience territory for me. I noticed the bolts too, so I think we're both onto something there. It seems like a steampunk inspired version of an external fixator (here's the wikipedia article for it, but tw for medical imaging and healed injuries) or what the skin would look like after healing around the bolts for external fixators (once the big cage part is taken off). These are usually used to hold joints in place or to slowly expand them. When I worked in hospitals I'd see these in patients with severe scoliosis who underwent more invasive forms of spinal fusion. This fits Viktor pretty well. When you have a disability that affects your muscle tone, it'll affect the muscle tone over your whole body (thus his smaller frame, gaunt facial features, and kind of "floppy" movements in some scenes), with high movement and high impact areas degenerating faster (like your back and legs). When the muscles in your back start to go, your spine loses stability and can curve, with the curve worsening over time. For most of us, physical therapy and bracing is enough, but if the curve gets too bad or is causing serious pressure on the discs, a surgery like spinal fusion is your only option to keep your back straight and keep you from getting neurological damage as a result of the spine pressure. While I've got a degree in neuroscience and do have back complications due to low muscle tone, I'm not a doctor so I can't say for sure that's what's going on here. But that's my educated guess. In terms of pain, it's a trade off. External fixation and spinal fusion are both deeply painful because they drill into bone. However, if your spine was damaged badly enough to qualify for a surgery like that, it's probably less painful to get the surgery than to not get it, and it reduces your risk of further neurological damage like paralysis.

In terms of other things to consider, oh man that's a tough one bc it's a pretty general question. Low muscle tone affects a lot of what I do, from the way I walk to how I cook to what clothes I wear. My biggest recommendation is to be mindful of two things: his disability will affect everything he does, but he was also a very independent person (when ofc not dying) in the show. So strike a balance between these things. Like I cook for myself, but I can cook for myself because I figured out solutions like buying shorter walled pots and pans, sitting while I cook, and dragging pots of water along my counter instead of carrying them to the stove. When writing disabled characters you don't need to describe every minor accommodation they make for themselves because the character themself might not even fully notice those accommodations (I didn't notice the heavy pot dragging thing until a friend commented on it). Instead, just drop in something every once in a while to show that they noticed. We tend to notice more when something is a big burden or when something disrupts our usual methods of doing things. Those might be good moments to bring attention to the ways Viktor has to do things differently. If any specific things come to mind as you create, feel free to reach out and I'm happy to chat about how I do them!

Sorry this is another wildly long post but I hope this helps! Feel free to reach out for any clarifications!

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nobody’s sexuality is a choice, except for me, who chooses to be ace every single day to piss off the ghost of Sigmund Freud.

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HOLD UP HOW WAS I NOT AWARE OF THIS

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hard truths + the master of evasion at work

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Guess what I just watched.

NEVER in my 12 years of sonic nonsense did I think I’d want eggman to be in a freaky gay situationship

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Jayvik just reminded me of something i read awhile ago. It was SCP-2989, and It is basically a short story/description about two caterpillar anomalies that transport themselves through time and space, sending messages to try and find each other. And once they finally end up in the same place they become a new species of butterfly and finally become whole, going through time together.

The vibes feel similar to Jayvik I think : )

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That's literally how he got me so yes, I agree.

I don't care what anyone says, I just KNOW Viktor clocked this man's pathetic, neglected shelter dog rizz the second they met and immediately fell head over heels for him. Argue with the wall.

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HAPPY NEW YAOI MOTHERFUCKERS

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happy viktor day!!! 🎉

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a Zaunite jayvik au I’m thinking about writing…

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She gets the flowers - Jayvik Hanahaki AU angst

Viktor had once, uncaringly, swallowed some petals from a flower back in his childhood. It wasn’t much cause for alarm, kids then would get dared to do all sorts of things to prove their bravery to the others, so swallowing a few petals from a plant wasn’t too bad. Nothing had happened to him, except a few hacking coughs from inhaling the pollen, but that was about it.

Unbeknownst to him, the plant took a hold of him.

From my new Ao3 fic, inspired by @starklike34’s post!!