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Oppositional sexism is a very useful term actually. Like, so much is better explained by the idea of “there’s a societal belief that men and women should remain opposites and should have no overlapping traits” than “this is homophobia/transphobia”. Why does society hate displays of femininity in men and masculinity in women? It’s oppositional sexism. They hate that you’re proof that masculinity and femininity aren’t inherently opposites. Thank you julia serano for another banger

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The thing about growing up with undiagnosed autism is that you’re a bad kid. And you don’t know how to stop being a bad kid. But you’re pedantic, you hate hugs, you’d rather be alone than attend a family gathering, you play by yourself instead of with friends or family, you make mealtime impossible, you can’t even look your parents in the face, you lie to get out of going to school and when you’re there you complete your assignments correctly but in a way that is somehow inherently wrong. You’re wrong. There is something wrong with you and you can’t identify it or fix it. You can’t begin to explain it. You pull for justifications and apologies. You were a bad kid and there was nothing you could do to be better.

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I've tried them all, thank you so much! Ellipsus especially is so good, it's hard to believe.

Having to find a place to write stuff other than google docs because they've nuked peoples accounts for writing inappropriate stuff is very on brand for 2025.

While I am grateful to have experienced its heyday, it's kinda sad that the Internet of a few years ago is gone.

Pinterest, bandcamp and etsy all got aquired by venture capital and enshittified. YouTube, Netflix and Spotify will surely charge triple digits for the ad-free tier of their subscriptions any day now. Twitter got bought by a biblically accurate demon.

I'm having to use fking BING image seach because google decided to make any aspect of their business worse for no good reason.

I'm really trying to count my blessings but I fking hate living the end times.

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books & comics full of scary yucky adult things were absolutely a soothing balm to me as a child, because i was already experiencing scary yucky adult things in real life. like bro i was twelve i couldn't just walk away from the real physical and psychological violence happening to me in my every day life!!!!

the fucking audacity of people claiming that BOOKS can be TRAUMATIZING to children??? a book that the child can CLOSE and PUT AWAY and never look at again, at any time???? REALLY???

idk man it just hurts my feelings. i didn't get a choice to learn about this stuff safely thru books and comics first, i was forced to live it every single day. why is preserving the COMFORT of the safest cohort of children on earth, more important than the educational and intellectual freedom/safety of kids who are like me? why are we even having this discussion. i don't get it.

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I am happy because everyone loves me

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良いお年を。

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Wildest thing to me about the online safety act is that parental controls already exist on every device. Like my mp3 player has a parental controls option. Like why should i have to give up my privacy and risk my data being leaked because some people cant be bothered to check that their kids are safe online

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in this fantasy world, theres no homophobia or sexism! but the governments are still patriarchal monarchies and everyone still adheres to the standard nuclear family, two things that have absolutely no relation to homophobia and sexism whatsoever

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big fan of the word tangentially

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if I ever strike gold and end up writing a popular book series i'd love to keep an eye on the fandom to determine the smallest crackship and make that the only one that goes canon

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hi, i saw your post about needing to find somewhere else to write besides google docs because of enshittification, and i’m aware it’s a ramble, but could i recommend ellipsus for that? anti-ai and probably will not nuke your account

Thank you so much for the recommendation! I'll look into it

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Your life gets significantly better the day you stop pretending you’re a robot. You’re a silly little mammal, act like it motherfucker. Your ancestors made tools with rocks and sticks, ran around a lot, had sex, lived in communities, ate when they were hungry, rested, chanted together, felt the sun, breathed outside air, listened to the trees and birds. You have biological needs bitch!!!

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the reason going viral on tumblr sucks is because instead of money you get death threats over statements you've never made in your entire life

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I gotta say, learning about emotional regulation has been wild.

What I'm trying to say is: it's a normal (i would argue, central) part of being a person; but not many people are aware of it as a concept. It's something meant to work invisibly and when it doesn't, we discard people who struggle with it and never talk about the process.

Also co-regulation is something pretty much any human being has experience with, but most could never put it into words. It just happens.

And since we as a society don't really see it: when somebody has a problem with regulation, we don't address it.

I've seen people in positions of power have full-on temper tantrums, but you can't challenge them on it because it would undermine their authority.

So as people become more and more isolated, the social fabric becomes more and more threadbare, these invisible mechanisms of emotional regulation stop working.

People become unhinged.

And having read a few things about how important regulation is and how central it is, especially to the development of children; it's absolutely crazy to see that the entire boomer generation is completely incapable of regulating their emotions.

Seeing my own parents rely on me for emotional regulation all my life, and seeing the same thing happening with friends and family is genuinely bizarre.

"Haven't you considered how that makes grandma feel?"

Yes i have, and after some consideration i decided she's a big girl who can handle her own feelings.

"you're in a bad spot and that scares me"

yeah mom I'm scared too and since I'm the person who would end up getting hurt by the thing we're both scared of, i could use some support!

I'm not telling people to never care about anybody's feelings, that's not what I'm trying to say. But the absolute inability of boomers to simply process their emotions without leaning on their children is staggering.

After my mother-in-law skipped town, cut contact with everybody, left all of her shit and left us to deal with the death of her mother and her sick father, we decided to still invite her to our wedding.

In between handling non-existent wills, trying to manage several undiagnosed illnesses and also having trouble with the government, we decided to send her a proper card and message her on Whatsapp, in the hopes that even with everything going on, we could build some bridges.

When she didn't get back to us, we (admittedly, out of spite) sent her a picture of the wedding. "Would've loved to have you there", we said.

You wanna know what she replied? "Yeah ok but you have to consider, i also have a lot on my plate"

What could she possibly have left on her plate, after leaving us with all of this shit to deal with? How can it be so much that you can't be bothered to show up and eat free food? Or answer the phone?

And i love my mom, she's not as bad as my mother-in-law. But when she leans on me for emotional support i just want to shake her and yell: "you're a grown ass woman with a husband, why do you need me to validate your emotions since i was 8 years old? Get your shit together!"

Looking back on it as an adult, it's crazy that 4 fully grown adults said: "yeah the 12-year old should lock in, he is always great at keeping the peace."

Maybe step up, instead of praising me for being mature? Maybe you're a grown ass adult? Maybe it's bad for young kids if you teach them that they will be held to a higher standard than adults?

And it's the same with so many parents that age. It's exhausting.

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Everyone: Please please please don't write your books in Google Docs. Frankly don't use Google Drive for personal stuff.

Their terms of service say they take down stuff like content related to terrorism and trafficking, but this Google Sheet was literally a list of movies I'd watched this year and books I'd read.

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