seven-beans

[seven-beans]

still thinking about the brainrot that fast fashion has caused in people, like i made this pair of pants that are black and white with a cool flowery design, and an acquaintance saw them and said "wow i'd pay like 20 dollars for you to make me a pair" and i could barely think with how utterly horrified i was at that; i told them that 20 dollars wouldn't even cover the materials, let alone the hours of work that went into cutting, sewing, ironing, hemming, altering, etc. they just had this look on their face when i told them that, when i said i wouldn't make them a pair for even 100 dollars because that was still way too low of an amount, a look that said "you're crazy for thinking that those cost 100 dollars" and maybe i am crazy but holy shit, 20 dollars for a pair of handmade, durable, lined pants fitted specifically to your measurements? 20 dollars for upwards of 60 hours of work? 20 dollars for several yards of high-quality fabric, thread, and buttons? 20 dollars???

[seven-beans]

having a freeze response to stress is so funny in the context of normal adult stressors. millions of years of evolution are trying to tell me that the email will not find me if i stay very still and do nothing

[seven-beans]

You know something I’ve figured out in the past few months as someone who 1. Doesn’t have a lot of friends and 2. Actually finds it very hard to make friends is that the fastest quickest route to befriending people is to engage with them like they’re already your friends

What do I mean by that? I mean, show up places and do things and talk to people. I joined the amateur theatre group in my city and a creative collective and I forced myself to go to meetups when I was tired and nervous about it but even moreso— I met a couple very cool people while working on a theatre project and I forced myself to ask for their numbers

And then I forced myself to text them! It felt so cringy and lame but that was just a fucking lie in my brain! I invited them to see movies and I sent them book & video game & movie recommendations and you know what? They appreciated that! They texted me back! I sent messages like “hey! How’s school?” Or “do you have any advice on grant applications?” And “you wanna get a beer sometime this week?” And every single time it felt like I was flinging myself off a big dark precipice into nothing and every single time I got a friendly response back

So like, the cringe is fucking fake, if you want people want to be your friend sometimes you literally just have to decide that they’re your friends and talk to them as such

[seven-beans]

My body be like:

Caffeine as an adenosine receptor antagonist? ❌

Caffeine as a diuretic? ✅✅✅

[seven-beans]

Highly recommend ordering an appetizer for yourself and just studying the entire day away

[seven-beans]

If you're struggling to make the change, it's because the old behavior is still meeting a need.

Instead of shaming yourself, identify the deeper need and allow it to exist

Then get curious about a new way to meet it.

[seven-beans]

happy autumn!

lately i’ve been catching up on research, reading for fun, and interview prep but late september, i went to california to accompany my partner during his conference trip and enjoyed an amazing mitski concert while i was there. recent goals have just been to be patient for interview invites and to enjoy the time i have in new york before i head back to california for a research elective. i love autumn and i wish it was longer! but maybe part of why it’s so lovely is its ephemeral nature.

also i made a just for fun substack if anyone would like to read it here

[seven-beans]

Where do you find cracked Libby library cards online? My local libraries are kind of limited

You don't need to crack a Libby library card lmao

Find a library system in the United States or anywhere else that lets you do online registration. Sign up using addresses that is located where the library system is located. You can look up places on Zillow. There's an American phone number generator somewhere on the internet. Generate it and use it when the form ask for a telephone number. Remember the last four digit though because sometimes they use it as a pin number.

[seven-beans]

i would be unstoppable if i could start a conversation

[seven-beans]

12.13.2024 — 안녕하세요, 여러분~ 오랜만이에요. 제 한국어 친구들이 잘 지냈어요? 요즘 너무 바빠요. 제 한국어 수업이 끝나서 지금 겨울 방학이 시작했어요. 기말고사를 아주 잘 했어요! 사실 저금 놀랐어요 ㅋㅋ. 아무튼, 겨울 방학 끝난 다음에 다시 우리 같이 봐요~

[seven-beans]

Referred to as “the Dusseldorf patient” to protect his privacy, researchers said he is the fifth confirmed case of an HIV cure. Although the details of his successful treatment were first announced at a conference in 2019, researchers could not confirm he had been officially cured at that time.

Today, researchers announced the Dusseldorf patient still has no detectable virus in his body, even after stopping his HIV medication four years ago.

[seven-beans]

Who's excited for Yule?

[seven-beans]

truly some people have no genre savviness whatsoever. A girl came back from the dead the other day and fresh out of the grave she laughed and laughed and lay down on the grass nearby to watch the sky, dirt still under her nails. I asked her if she’s sad about anything and she asked me why she should be. I asked her if she’s perhaps worried she’s a shadow of who she used to be and she said that if she is a shadow she is a joyous one, and anyway whoever she was she is her, now, and that’s enough. I inquired about revenge, about unfinished business, about what had filled her with the incessant need to claw her way out from beneath but she just said she’s here to live. I told her about ghosts, about zombies, tried to explain to her how her options lie between horror and tragedy but she just said if those are the stories meant for her then she’ll make another one. I said “isn’t it terribly lonely how in your triumph over death nobody was here to greet you?” and she just looked at me funny and said “what do you mean? The whole world was here, waiting”. Some people, I tell you.

[seven-beans]

[seven-beans]

sorry for romanticising the mundane. i have little else

[seven-beans]

this shit owns it's just a number go up idle game except the idle mechanic comes from you writing JavaScript to automate tasks it seems like the end goal of the game is to perfectly optimize against this little arbitrary system they've created. There's not any plot to speak of so far but even though nothing is happening people send you messages through the computer telling you to trust no one as they all have ulterior motives. Very relatable.

[seven-beans]

hi guys. everything feels so bad and i want to scream and cry. but i will keep seeking joy anyway. love you bye