serenity1998

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Let go and let God.

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Isaiah 60:22 "When the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen"

RPM 2025, in God's will🙏

All glory to You, Oh God!

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Sharing my vivid dream kagabi.

Buntis ako at isang gabi nagising ako sa sakit ng tyan. Katabi ko ang nanay na natutulog. Sa sobrang sakit bumangon ako at naglakad nang pabalik-balik. Huminto ako at nagising ang nanay ko. Parang tumaba ang aking pakiramdam at laylay ang tyan. Sabi na lang ng nanay na pumutok ang aking panubigan at manganganak na ako. Right at that moment, inihiga ako ng nanay. Nanganak ako pero wala akong kahirap hirap, hindi masakit at umiire ako nang parang wala lang. Ang alam ko masakit manganak, sobrang hirap. Ipinanganak ko ang babae wala pa syang pangalan. After that, bumisita ang mga kaibigan ko na may mga asawa at baby na rin. Sabi ko, maghanap na agad ako ng work pero sabi nila magpahinga raw ako. Pero, parang normal kasi lahat wala akong hirap sa panganganak.

Before, I sleep nagrreview ako sa board exam and virgin pa ako in real life

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Registered Psychometrician, own car, own house, financial freedom! By the grace of God♥️

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I am a millionaire!

I am a Registered Psychometrician!

I am working at government!

I am driving my own car!

I am living in my own house!

I am living with peace and good heart!

the goal-getter me and achieved♥️

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Aurora is the place I used to search whenever I miss you. A place that holds your identity and whole being. I will be there, I will get there without you knowing.

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I promised to someone that I will be back in October. We met in the online platform and started on June 20. Our last goodnight's occurred last July 13. In a span of 3weeks, we both feel and know what went on. We became the 9pm buddies, consistently talking starting that time until we fell asleep. Shared lots of jokes and keeping our conversation in light weight constantly giving our funny sides. We have in common when it comes to life's pressure. Currently, you are 28 and I am 26, obviously having existential crisis. Despite that, we carry on expressing the positive ways of life. Your life advices meant to me and I really appreciate it. I was having a hard time, sleeping late, crying and overthink a lot. My thoughts were keep running every night, that was every 2am or 3am. You met me unemployed, will take the board exam on September and just having simple freedom of life. I was rotting in bed and chronically online. One night, you slept first and again I left overthinking and crying for the thousandth times. I messaged you that I was not okay, that I was just pretending that I was fine every time you asked how am I doing. For the first time, I was vulnerable with you. I poured out all my thoughts and emotions to that message. I actually felt uplifted because I was listening to the worship songs. I talked to God and left a messages to you being the honest me, the real feelings of me. However, I deleted it all. I don't want to add up whatever burdens and problems you were having. I don't want you to be my ranting buddy. Then I fell asleep feeling light hearted. Little did I know, you read everything and I thought I deleted it all. Sticking to our 9pm routines, we had our conversations so funny and just sharing whatever topic that we discussed. In the middle of our convo, you brought up that you read all my messages asking if that I am comfortable to discuss that with you. I said not yet, just give me time to process and regulate my emotions. You said that, it was fine and you will give me time until I am comfortable. Sunday came, I was ready to talked everything and we ran through it smoothly. That was the time I know that you were also struggling with life and that how we started to open up more setting aside our funny moments. We can be happy, funny, serious, having chaotic topics and unending discussions. We were so comfortable finding friends with each other's back. Until that last night, we gave each other's playlist to listen if we are missing one another. I learned a lot from you. I met you when you were just waiting for the start date of your work. Luckily, you started on July 14 and have your flight on July 18 to Iloilo. You will be probably one year there, you said. You asked me to meet you a year after, reconnecting for real and hoping for the chance and the possibilities that might happen to us. We wanted to be so slow, no pressure, giving time and taking steps to level up our relationship. We will be busy, you will be busy at work and I will be busy at my review. We will not have the time for each other that's why we decided to pause and come back on October, to start again and reconnect. I promised that I will be back if I will pass the board exam and you will wait for me on October 8 to 12. I wanted you to know that I am making my efforts and giving my best. You know that I wanna be fulfilled when it comes to my career and you do really understand that. However, I doubted myself what if I didn't make it this time? I don't want this to be a cycle. You said that you believe in me and you trust me. You supported me and that means a lot to me. I left you an appreciation message and I mean it. We did not bid our goodbye's because we trust each other that we will come back together. I am missing you so much, and I think about you how are you doing there. Have you tried the binangkal that always brought in our convo? That was special there in Visayas, I think. As for me, I am getting better each day. I work out, eat healthy, walk at home, journaling and review. I hope you are doing good and please keep safe!

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Hey there!

I am reading "The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo", currently on Chapter 6. So, what happened today? I woke up 10am, had my black coffee and scrolled thru the social media. The weather is bad until now and we are hoping that the river will not overflow that would cause flood in our area. We are living in second floor and flood happened almost exactly last year. The water didn't reach our floor so the people down the building spent the night with the second floor rooms. At the moment, we are monitoring the water level. I walked at home and workout, actually this is my second day. First day was yesterday. I have to move my body and take 10k steps. I read somewhere that depression hates the moving target and it came up to my mind that I have to take any body movement. It is a little progress that I do not make myself rot in bed all day. We had our dinner and I cooked pinakbet and daing na bangus. That was so yummy! That's it for now, I'll get back to my book!

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What happened today?

I woke up late and had my black coffee. Guilty as it is, I consumed most of my time on tiktok. While I was scrolling, I went up to the video of calorie deficit content. Since I am aiming to lose weight, I said that i should try it. Hmm, I actually don't know where to start so I asked the know-it-all companion, the one and only chatgpt. Based on that, I am sedentary so I should take 1,200 cal per day. As I was having my coffee, I took the presto biscuit which had 450cal. Okay? Black coffee plus 450 cal hahaha, I really don't know where this is going. I will make a further research on this. Today is Sunday, of course I went to church. Then I walked along the longest street in the area so I can complete my 10k steps. Unfortunately, I only had 5k steps. I got home, cried and had a mental breakdown. I prayed the Holy Rosary and now I am at peace and light heart.

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but how? I am trapped

“Maturity is learning to walk away from people and situations that threaten your peace of mind, self-respect, values, morals and self worth.”

— Unknown

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I hope you know that I listen to those songs every single day. You told me that if there comes a time that I will miss you, I should listen to those songs. 3 days already passed after our last good nights. I kept myself busy but my mind is thinking all about you. Do you miss me too? Do you listen to the playlist that I sent? Do you think about me too? Do you look at your phone every 9pm? I miss our 9pm talks, I miss you. This is a torture for me to not drop a message. I asked for time, to focus on my review in the upcoming board exam. We do actually had nothing but we both knew we are looking for that chance and to the possibilities that may come. Let's make that happen. Let's be back on October. I hope you are doing well and have a safe flight on Friday!

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“A year ago, you did not know today. You did not know how you’d make it here. But you made it here. By grace, you made it here.”

— Morgan Harper Nichols

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The only darkness I shall allow into my life, is the night

For even then, I have the Moon.

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Until the End of the World (1991), dir. Wim Wenders

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I miss writing. I miss myself and my adventurous mind.

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Manifesting to have a mini library and studio for my instruments.