seoulcalstudios

[seoulcalstudios]

wtf

what the actual fuck? i havent been on tumblr in years and a lot has changed on this platform obviously lol. I doubt anyone in the stacking world will even see this haha.

Im planning for my return, but I’m waiting it all out, mainly because of the fact that I need to get myself in a better living situation and move out of state. I know that moving out of state will help me improve as a creator for stacking, but I’m now in a position where I have to save the community whether I like it or not. It’s going to really destroy me, but it’s going to be the only thing that i can do. 

Everyone isn’t taking cup stacking so seriously anymore. there’s always going to be drama left and right. Hell, I’ve even been in drama myself and I’ve respectfully distanced myself representing the community as a whole because at the end of the day, I’m absolutely gaining nothing out of it. I’ve always been backstabbed by who i called my ‘close friends’ and now they’re my ‘former friends.’ no one stood by my side and just wanted to jump to conclusions. They can't admit to it because they want to be in the right 'all the time.' Of course they're going to constantly tease me or just make fun of me and I really could give no fucks anymore.

My new plans now:

Competitions - Worlds, JROS (maybe), Asians, (WSSA or ISSF) Europe, Malaysia Open, Australia (WSSA or cupstacks) and finally Iran. South America and Africa will have to be at a different time because it's going to be merely impossible to make it a reality. I might add in only 1 US tournament and that's going to be HOTlanta.

Videos - Roaring 20's projekt

hosting - 1 influencer tournament.

I think as long as I'm on track, I'll be set to finish everything within 4-5 years from now. It's almost my 14th year anniversary for stacking. I truly see myself finishing it all up around my 20th year of stacking. For my 20th year of stacking, I think that I'm going to really be done with competitive stacking and only focus on the projekts that matter a lot for me to really complete. Once everything is really done, I'll slowly start retiring a lot more than usual and just post the old footage series and then, post the last stacking video and then transition into making new content.

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Sailor Moon (1992-1997)

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[seoulcalstudios]

Same

I can’t stop laughing at this.

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I'm actually adopted mxxn_kitten

can ppl stop having babies? like goddamn, we’re running out of water stop being so selfish.

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Relationships

As a 20 year old, I never really got around to dating in person. Like going on dates and such. I never really had a “real” girlfriend. The reason why is because where I used to live, I always have gotten rejected. It was either because of my appearance, not their type, or others.

One girl has even lied to me about seeing another guy and my friend was upset about it because her friend decided to lie about it. It just hurts me because they never gave me a chance to prove myself.

I’ve decided to convert to online dating.. As a result, people really don’t like the idea of me online dating because I could get catfished over and over again, but with all of the relationships I’ve had online, were all real girls that I had feelings for and fell in love with.

It’s hard to see girls that I talk to most of the time that are dating such in a horrible position because their boyfriends are either idiots or abusive towards them. Girls always like the bad boys and they can handle the abuse and act like it’s nothing. They have to recognize that their really hurt and need help and support from others.

I’ve just been rejected for the possibly 20-25th time I believe? I’ve been rejected enough to where my heart itself couldn’t handle the sadness from rejection and is forever sad for eternity..

I know that people will be like, there’s plenty of fish in the sea and so forth. I know and it’s really obvious.

I’ve had crushes on girls for more than so many times. I either wait too long or just let it go because I wouldn’t want to ruin a friendship that I would have with a girl that I’m really close with. I wouldn’t want to ruin a close friendship =\ because if I say something wrong, they wouldn’t talk to me anymore, which sucks honestly..

I’m going to be really honest, I’ve always been too busy to be in a relationship. If I get into one, then I would slow down the content I make on YouTube.

My last relationship lasted a year, which is irreplaceable because I really loved her to death. She broke up with me because she didn’t want the depression go into me as well, which I completely understand entirely. It was also on Valentine’s Day, which was horrible timing and I just got more sad.

I’m just always sad most of the time. My only happiness is when I edit videos or I watch YouTubers. Like right now as I’m typing this, I’m heart broken and hearing nightcore of Kiss the Girl.

idk if I should give up or keep going. It’s hard because there’s possibilities, but at the same time, they’ll end up rejecting me no matter what.

Life isn’t always fair. It’s always fake or people will eat you alive. You have to find the right significant other to be safe.

I really wish they could give me a chance..

Highly doubt people will actually read this..

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My major concern for the community on my side. 1/3

The fact that I make videos online on YouTube part time, there’s a lot to it from what I know personally on my side.

People always think that making content, especially the way that I make my own videos are easy pieces of cake. In reality, it’s much harder than you think really.

Knowing from the community, they mostly range from:

Cyberlink Power Director, iMovie, iMovie (iPhone), Sony Vegas, Windows and others.

Me on the other hand, I use Final Cut Pro X. I make my videos very complex and different from others. The only reason why is because some stackers tend to copy other stackers ideas and don’t credit them. It’s almost taking an idea for granted and never saying who you got the idea from in the first place.

Knowing from the past, there has been people who have taken my ideas in the first place. One specific person has asked if he could make the idea into his way and I told him “not” to do it. Even with the rejection, he did it anyways and I got really mad at him about it. We ended up talking on Instagram and he was acting so fake about this because he was really ignorant about what he said. He didn’t acknowledge that he took my idea that I’ve turned into a viral stacking sensation to the community because I’ve helped get a lot of notice to newer stackers that are really fast and consistent, but never got recognition from the other stackers. Back to the topic of this paragraph. So, mainly he decided to keep talking really ignorant about taking my ideas and never becoming original. Stackers always should be original with their content than copying others and taking others for granted.

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One of those days..

It’s one of those times of the month or week where you really don’t want to do anything at all. All you really want to do is to kick back and relax. It’s always like that for me personally.

I’m always like that whenever it’s one of those types of days. It’s quite rare for me to be in this position, but it’s all good.

During one of those nights, I usually watch YouTube or end up watching anime online.

Luckily, I managed to record and edit and upload one video at least, which is good, but it’s a meh because it looks bad. One of the major problems I have is self-critiquing because I’m always saying my own videos are bad, but in reality it is. People always know that for a reason. There’s more than that for content I make, but that’s for a different post :p

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Logoless ordeal 2/2

Alright,

People are really making this very bad in some way. Back from Worlds 2017, it wasn’t so good. My only reason for saying is because people were having huge issues.

When I mean it, Josh Hainsel (Team USA member) said that he’s retiring only because of this reason. The logoless ordeal has put a huge impact on the big stackers out there. Like Zhewei Wu, Lawrence Maceren, and much more.

I’ve even talked to a friend of mine and she said that she herself would stop because of this reason. This also could give a chance for stackers that use snaptops a lot (*cough* sarina *cough*)

Anyways, on my side, this doesn’t effect me as much because... I’m going to be honest, I’ve forcefully taken off the logos before realizing how much time consuming it’ll take! Until this time, I really haven’t used foreign substances to wear off the logos.

Moving on, concerning with tournaments wise, within July 1, you are not allowed to use logoless cups anymore. Regardless if they’re worn in or naturally worn off.

My thoughts? I’m just going to deal with it and hopefully see where the bright side of life is honestly.

~seoulcalstudios

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Logoless ordeal 1/2

Well, speed stacks or the wssa. I don't really care anymore. They made such a bad move imo. I'll explain later. I'm using my phone to type this :p

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So, as in the stacking community, I might as well start posting updates about what the actual hey is going to happen and such. Just be advised that some of the stuff that I will say will be around PG-13 or so because it’s just the choices I want to do and there’s seriously no one that can stop me really :p

So that we’re clear.

Thank you :)