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i love girls with no ‘maternal warmth’. girls who are affectionate in awkward ways. girls who are not ‘caregivers’ so much as care needers. girls who mean well but come across as assholes. girls who don’t mean well. girls who cry a lot but it isn’t ‘cute’ it’s just annoying. girls who aren’t always the most beautiful one in the room. girls who are obnoxious. girls who kind of suck but u can’t help but love them bc they really are just trying,

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“I can’t really stand human beings sometimes – I know they all have their problems as I have mine - but I’m really too tired for it. Trying to understand, making allowances, seeing certain things that just weary me. (…) I guess I have always been deeply terrified to really be someone’s wife since I know from life one cannot love another, ever, really… starting tomorrow I will take care of myself for that’s all I really have and as I see it now have ever had.”

– Marilyn Monroe; written on an undated scrap from a notebook

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»time will tell« by darren almond (+)

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Good afternoon, the academic culture of “if you’re not overworking, you don’t deserve success” is unhealthy.

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I wish I was a cat. Not, like, in a furry way though. Just in an “I’m sad and want to sleep in the sun and live in a bookshop” kind of way

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Let me go if you only want me right now. If you only crave my touch at 4 am when you’re intoxicated and we’re the easy option. Do me a favour and keep your eyes off me. Even when our breath smells of loneliness and you can feel my desire to get high on your kisses, don’t fulfil it. Don’t look for my mouth if any pair of lips would make you feel the same. Don’t hold my body captive if you never plan to give me more than just your heartbeats. Let me go if I’m the text messages you’re never excited enough to check right away but polite enough to reply anyway. Do me a favour and tell me the truth. Don’t respond to all my hellos and end every conversation with “Let’s hang out sometimes” when you’re definitely not keen enough to follow through. Don’t ring me up only because someone else doesn’t answer your calls and now you’re bored and want a substitute to keep you company. Because trust me, we both deserve more. On this Friday night I would like to be someone’s magic, not just hours and hours of meaningless banter that can only rely on substances to make it less painfully mediocre. Let me go if I’m never that Friday night magic to you. If I’m never once the decision you make on a regular Tuesday, and never the face you have to see because nothing else would make you feel better. If you already know what you’re looking for and I’m just not it, do me a favour and make it clear to me. Don’t choose me then find ways to change me. (at Linx Suites Hotel - San Fernando) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4TkHUVHZBm/?igshid=1r7qayemhxrxu

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― Rashomon (1950) “I don’t have time to mind everyone’s feelings.”

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Supercut / Lorde

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not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties