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Okay I forgot how guilty you feel after relapsing. Now all I’m thinking about is if my family, partner or friends find out and how upset they will be

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520 days clean gone in just a few seconds. It feels so good to be back

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cutting myself

i actually hate it

the feeling of pain on my thighs

but the adrenaline i feel

and the way my heart pumps faster

and the sight of blood

and running my hands over the scars

it ruins my skin

and makes it uglier than before

but it's. kind of rewarding.

i understand the hype now.

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is it weird to be a grown up and have a respectable job and make money but still freak out and cut yourself sometimes ? just wondering

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Look what i madeee 🤌

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I fucking hate it. I hate myself for not losing the weight. I hate myself for not exercising. But I'm too tired. I just want it all to end. But at the same time I want to be thin tiny and happy.

Why does it have to be so difficult?

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Found this on pinterest ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

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hungry means pretty,

if I'm feeling full then I'm fat and ugly

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this is how fat cells grow, it's your choice.

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Rib check

Weight: 59 kg

Height: 173 cm

I have angel wings trapped inside me. I want to see them more outlined, more defined. I want the wings to look like they are suffocating under my skin. Like they are trying to escape.

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My Safe Foods (Under 300 Calories)

⟡Strawberries - I have always loved strawberries!! They're only 6 calories per each (large) berry. Come to think of it...why don't I go on a strawberry only diet..?

⟡Raspberries - My second favorite compared to strawberries, raspberries are super low in calories (65 per each cup). I like to eat them with a sweet fruit.

⟡Grapes - I love green grapes, they're only (about) 30 calories per 10 grapes.

⟡Tangerines - Pretty good snacks for me when I am on the go! 47 calories for these <3

⟡Cucumbers/Mini Cucumbers - I love to eat cucumbers with my main meals. I have texture issues with food sometimes so I like to put the mini ones chopped up in wraps or salads. Normal cuc has 16 calories per cup ands mini has 15 per veggie.

⟡Iceberg Lettuce - Literally the only kind of salad I will eat. I like crunchy leaves! One cup shredded is 10 calories!

⟡Tomatoes - I am hesitant to put this one on my list, bc I have never cared for them, but they're pretty good in wraps or sandwiches. A normal sized tomato is 22 calories.

⟡Skinny (brand) pasta - 9 calorie pasta! It's great but the texture reminds me of mushrooms, so if you're not into that probably steer clear. You get a decent portion for only 9 calories so it can look like you're eating a lot if people are getting suspicious.

⟡Rice Cakes (and anything similar to this) - I like to put fruit on top, haven't yet tried cottage cheese. Low cal and feels like a lot of food, 60cals (lightly salted ones).

⟡Wheat Bread - I hate white bread so I just eat wheat instead. It's about 69 calories each slice. I don't eat bread that often, and when I do it's toast lol

⟡Mini Tortillas - 90 calories per wrap and feel filling for when I'm having thoughts of binging.

⟡Raspberry Tea Drink Mix - 5 calorie drink mix that soothes cravings for high calorie juice, AND helps me drink more water. I use the crystal light mix!

⟡Mock-meats - I get pretty sick and lightheaded when I have to stand over a hot stove for long periods of time, so pre-made stuff has always been easier to cook for me. I ate a lot of fried crap, or I would wait too long and the meat would go bad. Fake meat made of tofu and other plant material is a great alternative for me. I like the taste, it lasts longer, and it still has mounds of protein. I love the shredded chicken (190 per 1/3 cup) for small wraps. I also eat the sausage links (200-ish per each link) but I usually will only eat about half. Interested in joining my discord server?

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The best thinspø.

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having a boyfriend that's skinnier than you is literally so embarrassing... like wym come sit in my lap, babe noooo

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Every time you say fuck it, I don’t care and eat.

There’s a 100% chance you’ll care later. Trust

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im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

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tips #1

if you’re hungry and don’t want your stomach to get noisy, drink zero calorie cola or monster, chew gum, drink hot tea/coffee, or a lot of water.

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does anyone else get angry when they see a skinny person eating unhealthy or eating a-lot like why can’t that be me?