selfrighte9us

[selfrighte9us]

I have this 6urning need t9 f9ll9w 6l9gs that p9st cute pictures 9f sweaters. My pr96lem is that I d9n't kn9w 9f any.

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I can't help 6ut feel very self c9nsci9us whenever it happens, even if it is f9r a variety 9f reas9ns such as the 9nes that y9u have just p9inted 9ut, and a g99d maj9rity 9f the time it may n9t even 6e pers9nal.

I kn9w this since I can't say that I've never unf9ll9wed s9me9ne myself, 6ut still since y9u can never 6e sure why it happens (unless y9u decide t9 g9 thr9ugh the eff9rt 9f tracking d9wn wh9 it was exactly it was and asking them directly the reas9n why, and even then a resp9nse might n9t 6e given) I aut9matically assume, alth9ugh it is c9mm9nly kn9wn what happens when 9ne assumes, I can't 6e perfect and I find myself falling int9 making assumpti9ns 9n 9ccasi9n, that it was 6ecause 9f s9mething that I may 9r may n9t have d9ne.

Then I try t9 figure 9ut what it may 6e and what I c9uld've d9ne differently... 6ut s9metimes I need t9 remind myself that I 6l9g f9r myself and n9t f9r the am9unt that happen t9 6e f9ll9wing me and 6e thankful that I have the privilege 9f 9thers f9ll9wing me at all.

aww :3 ur so sweet

and by that standard u shouldnt lose ne either

but yea it happens 2 everybody. i guess in my case sum1 was bored bc i wasnt here constantly?? idgi but who knows losin a follower could b 4 all sorts of reasons like sumbody coulda deleted their blog or maybe theyre just a picky lil snot that u wouldnt want followin ya neway

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zeta-ursae-majoris replied to your post: H9w d9 I 6ranch 9ut 9f my c9mf9rt z9ne and in...

I’ve always taken an interest in the stars. I spent a large portion of my spare time studying them and the myths surrounding them. Not everyone’s going to be interested in them, but I always found it an interesting subject.

At least that is s9mething that can 6e used. While the am9unt 9f pe9ple that share y9ur interest in them t9 the extent that y9u d9 may n9t 6e as high as s9me m9re p9pular interests, it's still en9ugh t9 get the gears 9f a c9nversati9n t9 start turning.

I w9uld even g9 s9 far t9 say as it c9uld help spark s9mething sh9uld an 9pp9rtunity arise where y9u can 6ring up y9ur kn9wledge, y9u'd 6e a6le t9 teach s9me9ne that has n9 pri9r inf9rmati9n 9n the su6ject and perhaps pique their interest 9n such matters 9r at the very least they c9uld take s9mething useful away fr9m the c9nversati9n 9nce it is 9ver.

Am I c9rrect in thinking s9?

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H9w d9 I 6ranch 9ut 9f my c9mf9rt z9ne and in terms 9f making new acquaintances?

N9w I'm well aware that there is n9 such thing as a f9rced friendship and trying t9 c9erce s9mething like that fr9m a pers9n that I w9uld hardly kn9w is an inappr9priate c9urse 9f acti9n, n9t t9 menti9n that it is highly pr96a6le that it w9uld make the 9ther pers9n unc9mf9rta6le and that is the last thing that I w9uld want t9 acc9mplish. I always try my 6est t9 pr9vide a safe space f9r 9thers here 9n my little slice 9f the internet, and t9 cause such a disc9mf9rt w9uld 9nly make it the 9pp9site 9f that.

I'm n9t used t9 making small talk... And I'm n9t g99d at keeping c9nversati9ns g9ing either. I rec9gnize that I have a tendency t9 g9 9n s9 much that I unintenti9nally shut 9ut the 9ther pers9n fr9m their end 9f the c9nversati9n. If n9t f9r that then I all9w the c9nversati9n t9pic t9 center ar9und myself 9r I give very generic resp9nses t9 what 9thers say.

May6e the pr96lem lies in the fact that my interests seem t9 c9ntrast s9 greatly with m9st 9thers that there is n9 c9mm9n gr9und and theref9re I'm una6le t9 c9nnect pr9perly with 9ther users? It d9esn't help that what I used t9 6e s9 passi9nate a69ut (that past tense was n9t a typ9, just t9 add f9r clarificati9n) every9ne else either f9und it as a j9ke and/9r they simply didn't care much a69ut it 9r f9r it. In additi9in, with a lack 9f any current passi9ns, I have little t9 n9thing t9 9ffer in terms 9f things t9 talk a69ut which I c9nfess makes me very 69ring if I wasn't already.

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torpidguardian replied to your post: I l9se f9ll9wers when I’m g9ne and I l9se them...

yea i lost 1 while i was gone yesterday, i think

H9w unf9rtunate. I didn't think that y9u w9uld l9se any, given that y9u are very nice and pleasant t9 talk t9 fr9m my experience. 9n the 9ther hand, it wasn't right 9f me t9 make that assumpti9n in the first place, especially since it is highly unlikely that any9ne g9es thr9ugh their 6l9gging experience with9ut l9sing at least 9ne every n9w and again.

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I l9se f9ll9wers when I'm g9ne and I l9se them when I'm here. There's just n9 winning, 6ut I can't act like I'm surprised t9 see that num6er dr9p.

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I want t9 give mafia an9ther try, 6ut...

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T9day is called the l9ngest day 9f the year 6ut when I think a69ut it, it really isn't? I presume that they call the Summer S9lstice the l9ngest day 6ecause the sun is visi6le l9nger than any 9ther day 9f the year 6ut the am9unt 9f h9urs in the day have n9t increased thus making it the same length as any 9ther day.

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Buy it here - $28.99

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I'm g9ing t9 sleep 6ef9re f9ur in the m9rning t9night. Granted it's 9nly an h9ur earlier than I usually g9 t9 6ed 6ut even taking that int9 c9nsiderati9n, it is still a feat.

May6e I can aim f9r earlier t9m9rr9w. 

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I've seen menti9ns 9f it 6ut I d9n't have a grasp 9n what it is exactly. It seems like it's s9me kind 9f game? C9rrect me if I'm wr9ng.

im pretty shit at it too

havve you heard a octodad

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I ap9l9gize f9r shifting the f9cus 9f 9ur c9nversati9n t9ward my small pr96lems. Perhaps a change in su6ject is in 9rder? May6e t9 s9mething that's m9re lighthearted... Alth9ugh I have t9 admit, I'm h9rri6le when it c9mes t9 small talk and light c9nversati9n.

yeah i guess you could do that if you wwant

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In reas9na6le quantities h9pe is a g99d thing if 9nly 6ecause it is a p9sitive em9ti9n. Like m9st 9ther things, h9wever, t99 much 9f it d9es m9re harm than it d9es g99d. I've learned that fr9m pers9nal experience.

My prev9us attempts at c9ntacting him have fallen thr9ugh... I c9uld always c9ntinue t9 try, yes. 

or try contactin him

hopin wwont do any good

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I feel like the 9nly appr9priate c9urse 9f acti9n in this situati9n is t9 just hang 9n f9r a while l9nger and h9pe f9r the 6est p9ssi6le 9utc9me.

oh

yeah i guess

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It has a l9t t9 d9 with the fact that my feelings f9r him haven't g9ne away. They might've even intensified which w9uld give meaning t9 the c9mm9n phrase 'a6sence makes the heat gr9w str9nger.'

I als9 feel partially resp9nsi6le f9r 9ur lack 9f c9ntact. Even th9ugh he has 6een away f9r much l9nger than I have, I still disappeared f9r a g99d while myself. I d9n't think that it w9uld 6e fair t9 call it 9ff 9nly 6ecause he's 6een away.

are you serious

wwhy are you still wwith him then if youre not evven communicatin at all

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I h9pe that went well alth9ugh there's n9 reas9n as t9 why it w9uldn't have. I can 9nly guess that it must've 6een nice. It's 6een such a l9ng time since I've spent time with mine... I can't even remem6er the last time that I sp9ke with him.

fine i guess

i spent some time wwith my matesprit earlier this evvenin