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Hawkers

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The Retromini (Retro mini) is a handheld console which can play GB, GBC, GBA and NES Games. At only 103. grams with the battery, it is lightweight and extremely portable. Bundling 36 Games into one convenient player that fits in your pocket, with the potential to hold hundreds more games with its MicroSD slot. It is an ideal choice for entertainment on-the-go. You can find the Retro Mini HERE!

1. Retromini (United States)

2. Retromini + 8gb TF Card (International)

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hello friends!! i’m in a tight bind financially- i’m having trouble affording medicine for my anxiety and depression, as well as chest binders and food and other necessities. my parents cut me off financially, so i have no way to afford anything because i’m not allowed to get a job.

I ALSO DO: one hour sketch pages for $15 !

find more examples here !

any questions? send me a message on this tumblr or on my personal, @chioooon! 

email me: 23910art@gmail.com (this is the same as my paypal)

payments are only accepted via paypal. if you want to pay in a currency other than usd, please convert the prices!

reblogs/signal boosts are very much appreciated!!!

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Tried out a more painterly picture today, which was ALOT of fun

After requests I have made the picture available on Society6!

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Confession

I decided to post this here even tho I'm almost never on here anymore, idk where else I can post this where it won't get seen by those I don't want to bother by seeing this, but putting it in a note on my phone is nowhere near as solid or satisfying for getting this off my chest. So, here goes nothing:

I'm dealing with some serious fucking meltdowns recently, p much on and off way too often all day every day, along with just lack of interest in everything, things I enjoy, everyday functions that keep me alive, existing, friends, etc. To top things off, I'm way more in love with someone than I should be considering only just recently getting them back in my life after dropping them for being toxic so many years ago, and it's tearing me apart... Sometimes they say things that simultaneously make my heart jump so happily for even insinuating, and making my heart collapse painfully for the same reasons. They're practically completely devoid of emotion these days, which has made them so much more safe and functional as a human being compared to who they used to be, but because of this everything I want emotionally from them basically impossible, to top it off they're a huge recluse these days and super busy, so extra impossible there... They're not that great with communication most the time with serious convos, esp when super busy, go out of their way to help those important to them, and also refuse fervently help from others even tho they hate having to take care of so much in their life.

That being said, I don't feel I have the right to love them or bother them with it, between how much they're already busy with and how many already demand so much of their time, plus I'm still failing at fixing myself and becoming happy with/liking myself so I'm not a healthy sig other atm anyways. Even so, I still just wanna tell them I love them even tho I hate myself for loving them for so many stupid reasons. I want my love returned, I want to feel I'm good enough to be loved by someone I love again, I want to be with this person who would prob be the healthiest relationship I've EVER been in, even I'm sabotaging myself but I'm not the only one.

I kinda briefly mentioned to them in one of my breakdowns that the lack of contact recently was really hurting me and that I thought I wanted to be with them, but he said we couldn't be together for a multitude of reasons in both our lives, and I still need to care for myself rn anyways. Even tho they rejected me, things they've said often make me feel they want me too, in a strange rational way that makes their interests kinda vague/confusing. Telling me if I was in a more stable place they would've asked me out by now, saying they love me nonchalantly at timed but often come off possibly sarcastic/condescending, and various other similarly vague stuff as such. I love hearing such personal and affectionate things aside from the condescending/sarcastic ones, but at the same time it's fucking tearing me apart...

I want more than anything than to confess all this to them, but I'm also terrified it would only make them more distant and make me feel shittier about it than I already do. I was doing okayish with keeping this to myself before, but my recent severe decrease in already dangerous levels of mental health have only made this that much harder to handle. I almost said something to them multiple times in the past few days during my meltdowns, and this time I started typing it to send it to them, so I decided to find somewhere I could just vent all this out instead. I can barely handle the amount of distance there is between us as it is atm, if I managed to make it worse I'd fucking kill myself.

Lastly, I blame myself for a lot of things aswell, so I think if I told them that they'd also grow distant to try and help me feel better too fearing they were what was making me so bad when they're not. I blame myself for a lot of they're past struggles, I blame myself for not being there when fucked up human interactions sculpted them into the emotionally numb being they are now and how much they've given up on emotions, trust, and relationships, and I blame myself for they're intense need to take care of others when they already have too much going on because they couldn't say no to anything. I even blame myself for falling for them again after all this time, leading myself on, and hoping my love could get them to love me back, while simultaneously repressing myself and telling myself I don't love them.

Clearly I'm not healthy enough yet for a healthy functioning relationship, so I shouldn't do anything about it anyways, but recently keeping this to myself feels like I'm killing myself, it physically hurts just as much as it does emotionally, so have a long obnoxious vent about all my lame human issues recently, Tumblr. Hopefully this'll help me at least slightly struggle through all these awful feelings by getting them off my chest. :"3

Edit: forgot to mention that I also blame myself for not being capable of being happily together with this person now, because I wussied out and gave up and dropped them out of my life, instead of sticking to it and supporting them till they healthily grew into a better stable mature person. Yes I know all my self hatred over this shit is stupid and irrational, so is all of my shit with the rest of my life, but being self-aware doesn't stop me from being this way, it only makes it that much more frustrating and soul crushing.

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Doing these was so much fun! Feel free to share and try them yourself~

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They’re watching ‘The Aristocats’ (probably). (photo by Anya Yukhtina)

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MGL139′s Art Contest + Raffle

Super awesome art Contest+Raffle on DA by MGL139, come join the fun~! http://mgl139.deviantart.com/journal/Draw-My-OCs-Contest-2-350-in-Prizes-671928163

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A master post of Thomas Romain’s art tutorials.

There’s not enough space to post all of them, SO here’s links to everything he has posted (on twitter) so far : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12. 

Now that new semesters have started, I thought people might need these. Enjoy your lessons!

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good ol jackaboy @therealjacksepticeye

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19 yr old needing assistance in the pdx/sea-tac area

so to make a long story short, i grew up in a very unstable house with my mother who put me through a lot of mental/emotional abuse which turned progressively more physical starting at age 12. fast forward to august 11, 2014 (i’d just turned 18 in may), i got on a bus from royal palm beach, fl

to go meet/live with my father for the first time. (we’d been communicating off and on online for ~1 year beforehand and he seemed very empathetic and wanting to help my situation) in kalama, wa

it was a 3 and a half day trip and all i could bring was a suitcase of clothes and a few personal effects a year later, i’ve come to the realization that i’ve gone from one abusive home to the next. i dont really want to go into detail bc i just got through experiencing a really shitty, scary situation that i dont particularly feel like reliving atm ;;

but if anyone wants, i can update this sometime with the gritty details if they need to know what im coming from

anyway, what im looking for is a place to stay. i’d highly prefer not to stay w people with penises (this is negotiable but would be highly investigated beforehand). i have a cat, so i’d really really like to be able to bring him. he’s really sweet, lazy boy, neutered, house trained, gr8 cat

i dont have a ton of money, but i have a bit saved up and would be looking for a job as soon as i arrived. i also do freelance art, although a less reliable current source of income

im also happy to provide house cleaning for hospitality.

if you cant help personally, please please reblog this!!!! i really need somewhere to go as soon as possible and would appreciate it immensely!

and i hate to ask for financial help, but if anyone wants or is able to, i would greatly appreciate any contribution (frehtt@gmail.com)

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I finally gave in and did one of those cool pokemon variations going around \o/ I picked Chikorita (my radish baby) for mine and it’s based on different parents, mainly the father! I’ve always liked the idea that when breeding 2 different species from the same egg group, while the offspring will always be the same specie as the mother, it still carries traits of the father.

Which one is your favorite??

Edit: fixed Cacturne’s name cause I was dumb woops

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