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[seethegoodlove]

Not asking for Nirvana

I just want you to be there

Just cause I'm crying rivers

Don't mean I'm asking for help

[seethegoodlove]

Happy birthday my love. I miss you so much. Wishing all the best for you 🥳

10.10.21

[seethegoodlove]

Space is the greatest gift I can give to you. The space where you can commit mistakes. The space where you can be fearless. The space where you can have freedom to do things that you like say the things you want and be with the people you love. The space where you can have your own space to dream. The space where you can feel your youthfulness.

The space where you can travel on your own. The space where you can be with your friends without worrying that I might get upset or jealous. The space where you can have fun and enjoy life with your family or even when you're alone.

The space you always needed. The space you always wanted. The space where you can be yourself. I will provide you the space without the threat of me leaving, Without the threat of me giving up, without the threat of me misremembering you and without the threat of unloving you.

Happy Birthday Love. I miss you with all my ❤️

10.10.21

[seethegoodlove]

December 26, 2020

It's the day after christmas and you were in my dreams last night. I hope you are safe. Oh btw saw you and bubba! You both look good 🙂

Missing you. and the beach.

[seethegoodlove]

It's been a year and there is no one I could call mahal because you are my love from the very start and yes I will still love you even if you couldn't speak, eat and move.

Even if your complicated, always leaving me frustrated. Even if your memory fades away I will still love you. I miss you all ways, always. 🤎

[seethegoodlove]

You didn’t really have to say anything that night just so I could feel better after telling me that you wanted time alone for yourself. I understand that you wanted to fix yourself first. You were having trouble with your life, and you thought that you would only hurt me if you don’t let me go. You wanted to find yourself somewhere far from me and I get it. I guess it's not selfish to choose yourself in the first place. But it makes me cry till now, so I told you that I am more than willing to wait for you.

I waited and while you were gone, I wondered if you ever missed me while you were trying to find yourself. I realized a lot of things, and that includes my shortcomings. I shouldn’t have left you even though you sent me away. I should've stayed by your side when you went to war with yourself instead of staying just right here, waiting for you to come back.

I shouldn’t have let you fight battles alone, so I came to you saying sorry for not being there when you need someone to strengthen you. If you let me, this time I'd like to stay and fight with you through hard times. I won't mind getting hurt. I won't mind sharing the same pain with you. Just please come back and I will show you that we can win love if we both fight for each other.

I looked away after saying the words that I've been dying to tell you, but you looked at me with strained eyes and suddenly, you told me that the love that I was trying to fight for wasn't worth the fight anymore.

I thought you only needed time but it turned out that you want to end it this time.

I'm sorry I had to let you go, but If I could turn back time, I won't. I will never.

[seethegoodlove]

After a year of breakup, moving on is not easy. You can do everything to forget someone but memories don't leave you easily. You have to go through many mood swings.

Sometimes you feel you have moved on and at the same time you can feel the pain it's as if it was yesterday.

Even after trying so hard not to miss them, you just don't stop missing them.

[seethegoodlove]

For each passing day, it's still you.. will always be.

[seethegoodlove]

Dear Robin,

Yes, it was like an old movie where the sailor sees the girl across that crowded dance floor, turns to his buddy and says, "see that girl? I'm gonna marry her someday." All of a sudden, it felt like, I just found everything I've been looking for all my life through. Sounds cheesy, huh?

No doubt, I made an complete idiot out of myself by saying that i love you on our very first date. I really freaked you out, didn't I? But you see, Robin, you can't blame me for that. I mean, how can one not fall in love with you? Even, Barney Stinson did. The king of one night stands, the biggest womanizer of all time, is in love, can you imagine?

By the way, happy that you and my best bro are engaged now. But you know what, some deep dark parts of me still wanna hear, "Ted, I'm not supposed to be with Barney, I should be marrying you." Kidding, I don't wanna hear that. I'm sure that you and Barney are gonna make a great couple. Even greater than Marshall and lily. Hey, don't tell them that I said that.

Yes, Barney lies a lot. And I know that you don't like that. But underneath all of those lies is one true thing - one true thing that can support the weight of all the lies in the world and that's the fact that the guy's in love with you. Robin scherbatsky, you are one lucky girl to get my best bro as your life partner.

And here's your wedding gift from me, a promise. A promise to be by your side through every thick or thin. No matter, how difficult the odds turn out to be, I will do everything to find out all your lost pendants. I'll make it rain for you, over and over again. I'll do anything to make you smile on days when you feel down. Because, I care about you Robin, beyond all rationality and I just want you to have everything you want no matter how much it destroys me.

You know what? Victoria was right. This is why I can't find THE ONE. Because I'm already with her; just not together. Yes it's you Robin, it's always been you. I'll never stop loving you. And who knows, may be somewhere down the road, we're gonna end up together. Oh c'mon Ted! How stupid of you to even think about that. I really need an intervention to stop being a hopeless romantic, don't I?

PS: Wish you and Barney a very happy married life

PPS: Hope this letter never finds you.

Love,

The guy,

Who would've stolen you a whole orchestra

😭😭😭😭😭

[seethegoodlove]

What the hell am I supposed to do?

[seethegoodlove]

@jericosilvers 😌🌅

[seethegoodlove]

How? I never did. I stopped walking but when you did, I was hurt and just so you know, I'm still here.

[seethegoodlove]

[seethegoodlove]

The memories of how I begged for someone to stay are still fresh and up to now, it is still making me go nuts.

I made myself believe that it was okay to settle down with someone who can only give me rare ”yeses” and uncertain smiles and laughters. With love and stupidity overpowering me, I assumed it was alright to take risks with a person who can only make decisions when we are happy and will be having doubting ones when we are having troubles.

For years and years of finding myself, I finally found it but it eventually got lost again in his never ending void. It's funny how someone can be grateful at first, making you his life and soul and after a year, he will have the audacity to stab you slowly in the chest by saying he's done dealing with your broken pieces.

I was fed up by realizations making me wake up from my bed of still choosing him. I was still fighting for my made-up fact that he will make himself better or maybe someday, one way or another, he will have the courage to stand on his own feet and finally, he will gain that courage and not depend on others when it comes to deciding.

But day by day, my body is slowly asking for help. Asking for my heart and mind to stop chasing the person who doesn't want to be chased. I realized that even in these darkest moments, in these craziness and madness, I still deserve another shot of happiness...

I still deserve to be young and free, to do things that I love without being imprisoned on his do's and dont's. I later had the guts to escape the stigma of breaking my own rules for someone who can't even break his own.

And maybe one day, I'll be thankful for being brave on finally choosing and loving myself before others, on finally embracing my flaws and on finally loving the feeling of being alone and having no man to make me realize my own worth.

This is just the start... I deserve someone better, someone who will be courageous enough to sail my own kind of sea.

Healing takes time but I couldn't be prouder and happier of myself for leaving the person who never did well on loving me.

[seethegoodlove]

Today was a bad day, because I had a dream about you. I was crying. I miss you.

04.29.20

[seethegoodlove]

"I get so god damn lonely and sad and filled with regrets some days, but I’m learning to breathe deep through it and keep walking. I’m learning to make things nice for myself. Slowly building myself a home with things I like. Colors that calm me down, a plan to follow when things get dark, a few people I try to treat right. I don’t sometimes, but it’s my intent to do so. I’m learning. I’m learning to make things nice for myself. I’m learning to save myself.

I’m trying, as I always will."

[seethegoodlove]

"My desires in a relationship have changed over time. I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me, I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out. I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me, I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place. I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete. I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better. I want to be stronger with you. I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually. I don’t need you, but I really fucking want you. And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot."

I miss you love.