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despite, despite, despite.

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i need these so bad

COLORFUL SUN CATCHERS

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spending time with ppl who love u will save u

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the ultimate goals for this year are to stop caring too much about what people think of me and to stop letting worry eat me alive

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my earnest hope for 2025 is that everyone embraces being a little weirder and freakier and less judgmental bc we will all be better off for it like to charge reblog to cast

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"oh, welcome back, new year's sense of mourning! i thought i had outran you this year!" i say in tears

"no one can outrun me. i am the ghost of things come and gone, and of things you'll never get back." the mourning replies.

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making it through is the thing to be proud of.

even if nothing much happened this year that we’re proud of I think that making it through the year is the greatest accomplishment of all

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I watch all the people around me dance with the memory of children they can't/won't have. while i don't think I can find the words to describe the pain I feel for them, I watch the people around me mourn the loss of a future they once hoped to obtain. I read the names of the would haves and i weep for the way that we collectively feel.

charlotte

aspen

oliver

esperanza

benjamin

lucio

calliope

zonga

manka

.... the list goes on but I do not think I have the space here to write all of them. the pain of having to remember someone before you ever had the chance to know them just. breaks a part of me.

I hope we remember this feeling so that we never have to feel it again.

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