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Imayoshi: Aomine, do you wanna know how I actually hurt my wrist?

Imayoshi: I was hula-hooping. I attend a class for fitness and for fun.

Aomine: Oh my god.

Imayoshi: I’ve mastered all the moves: the pizza toes, the scorpion, the oopsie doodle.

Aomine: Why are you telling me this?

Imayoshi: Because no one will ever believe you.

Aomine: You sick son of a bitch.

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Family Violence Is Not Okay.

Okay, now I have read a number of posts about this kind of thing, I have seen so many videos, but they don’t always help people who suffer through Family Violence. There is nothing right with making a child feel afraid. 

As a 21 year old female, I live at home still because I have major anxiety and cannot cope with finding a job to support myself. I am on government payments because of this, but whenever I speak up to a doctor, they have told me time and time again, to just get out and do something, speak to a counselor, which does not always help, sometimes it makes things worse, or they blame it on weight, which has caused depression and any other mental illness you could be sure you have but Doctors immediately can blame it on ones weight. 

When I was 19 years old, I was diagnosed with Blood Clots in my lungs, it makes things even harder for me after the fact that I cannot walk long distances like I used too, I cannot stake shelves and I cannot wait tables. I have tried a few jobs, but because of my health, I have not been able to keep them. Now I know this is off topic, but it all comes back around to the fact that I feel worthless. And both my parents, who have been separated since I was five years old, make me feel worse. 

My mother would constantly control my life, I was never allowed out, never allowed sleep overs, when I was given a mobile phone at 13 to be able to speak to my fathers side of the family, which might I add lived 8 hours away from me at the time, I was yelled at. My mother had numerous boyfriends and none of them lasted, this was blamed on me, like it was my fault that she couldn’t hold a relationship. Now the thing is, while one would stand there and go, oh that’s nothing to be upset about, when you have had this since you were seven years old, after a court case was made where you were to live with your mother till you were legally 18, it was torture. 

It caused major anxiety, I cannot be in crowds, cannot talk to people face to face, have issues with talking over the phone and have no experience with interaction with another human being other than through school. Which was never easy for me either. I put on weight and locked myself away a lot. I was always secluded and while I had friends at school, I had nobody for me at home. By the time I went from being an only child, to an older sister, I found out that my mother believed me to be a mistake. When in truth, my sister was never meant to have been concieved. I know that’s hard, but my mother slept with a family member through marriage and conceived my little sister. 

At this stage, things were great with my father, he gave me what I needed, spent time with me, had an amazing girlfriend at the time and had a son on the way. When my brother was born, I was still treated the same, there was no change. I was given a dog, who I have had for 11 and a half years. She is my life. As are the other numerous cats that I have beside her. 

Now that I am older, things have begun to go downhill, when I was 18, I was kicked out of my mothers home because I couldn’t not get my government payments sorted, in 2016 I attempted to kill myself, and it was shoved back in my face by doctors, by nurses and a social worker who compared me to her own daughter every time I saw her. I was made to believe that I was the issue, that there was nothing wrong with me mentally, that I was just obese and needed to make healthier choices, that nothing was wrong at home. But the rest of my family had no idea what was truly happening. They saw what they wanted to see, a perfect father and perfect mother, though each side of the family hated each other.

Towards the end of 2016 a doctor misdiagnosed me with back issues when I went in for breathing pains, unable to take deep breaths as it felt like someone was stabbing me in the ribs. I was put on medication for my back and sent home, I went 4X4 driving that weekend because it was something I loved doing. A few days later, I was back at the doctors, unable to breath still. I was believed to have a chest infection, that was better, closer to the truth. A few days later I collapsed at a normal outing I had during the week, the only time I was able to have help dealing with my social anxiety. The next day, I was diagnosed with blood clots in my lungs. They were so bad, I was afraid for my life, but I had an amazing doctor at the time. 

Not long after I was allowed to go home from hospital, a week after being diagnosed. I was asked to paint a fence in the heat, expecting my father, who was working with one of the local gardeners, I agreed. But I was wrong and left to paint the fence on my own, on a 40 degree day here in Australia, with fumy paint. 

I was too afraid to tell them that I had almost passed out again, having caused damage to a front step of the house I was painting the fence of. I felt horrible, but with my father, I was too afraid to say anything. The emotional support from him was non-existent. He cares for nobody but himself, and I know that now. 

Since then, my father was diagnosed with a mental disorder known as schizophrenia.  Meaning he has major anger issues. But whenever I say something about it, he declines that he was ever diagnosed and makes me look like a fool. He puts lies upon lies, says he has done things but hasn’t. Now this is where the Family violence gets worse. He is unpredictable, he goes from happy, calm and helpful, to someone that throws thing, makes loud noises, which sets of my anxiety, and kicks my animals. I am too afraid to say anything because I have no idea if he would break something, yell, harm my animals.... or even turn and hurt me. 

I am a 21 year old female, that lives at home, with no money to be able to get out, with nowhere to go, to take my animals with me to a safe place. mental disorders that make me fear getting my license... in fear I am going to run myself off the road and into a tree. I forget things a lot, I space out and I have my lung condition that makes it hard for me to find work as nobody would want to hire someone on blood thinners, which is I cut myself, I would bleed everywhere. A high risk for me in any job. 

I suppose this is to find some help, as I cannot keep asking my friends, who are dealing with their own issues. Please.... if anyone could help me... I would really love the help before it all builds up again...and I leave this world for good, leaving my two siblings, who are 12 years old, behind....

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Kasamatsu: Kise Ryouta is a menace to society.

Moriyama: You think everything is a menace to society. You called a turtle a menace to society last week.

Kasamatsu: Society is easily menaced.

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Atsushi is Mad at Dazai

Atsushi: I’m just.. I’m so mad at you!!

Atsushi: You.. You son of a binch!

Dazai: You mean bitch?

Atsushi: NO! I mean BINCH!

Dazai: It’s hard to be mad at you when you’re too pure to curse.

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Tachihara: How many innocent cats have been lifted in the air because of The Lion King?

Chuuya: I'm five foot three and let me tell you it's not just cats.

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Due to unfortunate circumstances, I am awake.

H.P. Lovecraft (via incorrectbungoustraydogs)

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Yosano: So, tell me what happened

Poe: I was reading an encyclopedia, and I tripped or *air quotes* “fell over” and hit my head or “brain helmet”...

Edogawa: Yeah, he sneezed and smacked his head against the wall

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Chuuya: Maybe I’m dreaming. Someone pinch me.

Dazai: *pinches him*

Chuuya: Not on the butt.

Dazai: Oh. Sorry. It was just right there.

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Midorima: Ootsubo-san, can I skip night practice tomorrow? I have a dinner with my parents.

Ootsubo: What? Why? I thought you didn’t like spending time with them.

Midorima: It is a dinner to introduce them to Takao.

Ootsubo: Wow. I didn’t know stuff was getting that serious.

Midorima: Yeah, it’s very embarrassing to have feelings.

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Kiyoshi: There will come a time when you have a chance to do the right thing.

Hanamiya: I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by.

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Kise: [runs into Kasamatsu at the grocery store] Senpai??? What are you doing here???

Kasamatsu: Oh, you know, hunting elephants.

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I promise nothing, and deliver even less. Unless there’s cake involved.

Murasakibara Atsushi (via incorrectknb)

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Hyuuga: There is a box that has been in the locker room since 1976. No one alive today knows its contents. I’m happy to say Coach has finally given me permission to auction it off.

Koganei: I’ll let you give me a spray tan! Any shade you want.

Hyuuga: Koganei willing to sacrifice his dignity. Who can top it?

Tsuchida: Massage. I’ll give you a massage.

Hyuuga: Tsuchida going in the wrong direction and getting himself disqualified. Orange Koganei going once, going twice…

Mitobe: *writes on his sign board* I’ll show you a picture of me in middle school. There is a side pony.

Hyuuga: Mitobe coming in hot!

Izuki: I’ll give you full control of my hair and wardrobe.

Kiyoshi: I’ll go on a date with you!

Hyuuga: SOLD!

Hyuuga: To Izuki, not to Kiyoshi. That really freaked me out and I just want to end this now.

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Kiyoshi: Always stay positive!

Kiyoshi: *trips and falls down the stairs*

Kiyoshi: Wow, I got down those stairs fast!

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Reblog if I can stick a pointless little fanfic in your submit box any time of the day.

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Kuroko: Hello, Akashi-kun. Make anyone cry today?

Akashi: Sadly, no. But it’s only 4:30.