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A little bit of art along with a fic I wrote <3

warning for uh, both of the boys feeling terrible (but not all the way through!!!)

First it was only just his little game but he soon got invested. From tying up simple bows to ‘prank’ Phantom, he tried more and more elaborate ways to make his bows. The crafting of such bows calmed him a whole lot when he’d have worse episodes of the marks his awful childhood left on him. But these bows, he always tried to get pink fabric as it reminded him of his bet he once made with Phantom. Oh, Phantom… All these pretty bows all against you, and from Cyko at that. Because of that, Phantom would dread falling asleep in places where Cyko could reach him. He tried to find more and more hidden places to use as his sleeping place but Cyko always managed to find him and tie some of his bows on him. It was like routine at this point, he hated it but… There was just something stupidly sweet about it as well. It was such an intimate thing too as he thought about it. Maybe it was just his mind messing with him but it sure made him feel closer to Cyko. Though the snickers he’d get from others when they witness him with the bows - especially in his hair - would quickly take away the sweetness it had about it.

One night he decided to give up and he just fell asleep on the couch, sprawled out and everything. Literally in just the right position to be the victim of Cyko’s bow crimes. But Cyko had different plans this time.

Cyko looked at Phantom peacefully sleeping. He was a bit surprised, he thought Phantom would try the top of the attic or something crazy like that but no. Hey eyed Phantom very curiously.

“I know you’re not stupid…” Cyko talked to himself, trying to think what may have made Phantom be like that. He crouched down to watch him from a bit closer.

“So peaceful... “ he smiled to himself, it was a rather tender smile. Phantom just got him like that, he would just unconsciously smile his brightest around Phantom. And he was aware of why it was. He knew it quickly, that he had caught feelings for Phantom but Phantom didn’t realize it, not even a bit. He would do small gestures, like being a little bit nicer to him and touch him in a friendly but such a gay way, he was unsure how Phantom didn’t manage to connect the dots. He would try to be more straightforward but the idea simply scares him. Phantom was such an important friend for him, ruining what they had because of his feelings... But each day these feelings get stronger and stronger, just like how his bows are getting better, also resulting in Phantom having a harder time picking them off. There’s just something about watching him trying to take them off that has him laughing but at the same time just…. He’s so adorable?? There’s a reason he likes to put them in his hair, seeing more of his face that he hides behind his dark purple hair. He noticed himself trailing off in his mind. He quietly chuckled to himself.

“Would you look at that… getting me like this even when you’re sleeping..” he pat Phantom’s head gently “Such power is so dangerous with someone like me around” he lowered his head, his gaze moving to the floor. He tried to push the thought out of his head.

“Maybe I can try something” he quickly shot his head up, with a somewhat determined face. He pulled out his bows from his pockets, there were a few with him. One pair in particular caught his eyes. These 2 bows were small and were basically identical. He almost forgot he brought those. What was he thinking when he made those? Looking at how they’re identical his mind quickly raced to a very interesting idea.

“We could match!” he cheered for himself a bit loudly. Phantom didn’t wake up, he only turned in his sleep a little, his left hand slipping out from under his head.

“Perfect!!!!” he whisper-shouted to himself, as he took hold of his left hand gently and started to carefully tie one of the small bows on Phantom’s ring finger. Though he could have been faster, feeling Phantom’s hand was phenomenal. Surprisingly, his hand was very soft, he thought it would be a bit tougher as he puts a lot of effort in the way he swings his scythe. Maybe it’s because he would rather swing with his right hand… Cyko really likes the way Phantom swings it, majestic and effectful, like his music. Destroying all he possibly can in his way. What’s there to not love? He’d once again trailed off, he almost forgot he was tying the bow. He put the finishing touch to it, making sure it was there nice and neat. He held his hand for a few more moments, appreciating the sight. He couldn’t help but feel some otherworldly bliss about it, smiling widely. He slowly let go, greatly appreciating the last moments as their hands brushed against each other. Though it was done, his strong feelings didn’t disappear, he tapped his fingers together in his excitement, as some sort of way to come down from the happy high that caught him up in the sky, like how the strong wind would catch a leaf up in the air. It’s against the leaf’s intentions yet it still lies into the wind, as if embracing the ride for as long as it goes. He felt the same way. That’s when he remembered the other ribbon. He took it in his hand and looked at it for a while. Then carefully tied it on his left ring finger, to truly match Phantom. He put his hand beside Phantom’s to look at their hands in their matching glory. It was just a truly beautiful sight, making him giggle and tap his fingers against the sofa’s soft surface.

“Gosh… this is so cheesy but I love it” Cyko giggled to himself, still trying to stay quiet because at this rate he’s gonna accidentally wake Phantom with his giggling and speaking. And then he’d have to face the consequences. He quietly hurried away, leaving as fast as he possibly can, his heart still racing over their matching bows.

After a while, Phantom woke up, surprised that now there weren’t bows all over him. He looked at his hands surprised to see one, but only one. None of Cyko’s bows were tied on him ever so neatly. He actually kinda liked how neat it looked. He’ll leave this one on, he liked the feeling of it. It was made of soft fabric, at least softer than usual. He touched it with his other hand, gently brushing his fingers on the bow. It made him smile for some reason. A lot of trouble was saved from him today, though he wasn’t too eager to know why Cyko went this easy on him, there was still a little voice inside his head, questioning it. But it wasn’t loud enough to really make him think about it. He went about his day relatively calmly all until creator Luni stopped him.

“I couldn’t help but notice the dumb smile and the suspicious ring finger bow you have… They must have to do with each other, am I right or am I right?”

“Huh? I didn’t even think of it like that... Now that you say it, it is weird that it’s on my left ring finger… maybe…”

“Yes?” Luni had hope in her voice, that maybe he will realize that it’s a sign of love.

“I have a feeling it was what Cyko could reach the best!”

“Oh my god, Phantom- it’s literally like a wedding ring”

“What? That’s silly, this and a wedding ring are not even similar”

“But they’re… on the same finger?”

“That’s where we usually wear rings anyways”

“I- I’ll give up”

“Huh? What are you giving up?”

But Luni didn’t reply, she just walked away, once again disappointed that Phantom is a bit too dense to notice the signs of love that Cyko is trying to give.

“Phanty!”

Phantom heard his very interesting nickname yelled by a very familiar voice.

“Phanny!! I can’t believe I didn’t see you all day” Cyko smiled widely, that same smile you would always see him have when he’s with Phantom.

“Pretty sure you did” Phantom smiled softly as he raised his left hand to show the bow that was still nicely tied on his ring finger. Cyko almost beamed so hard he rocketed into the sky. But luckily that didn’t happen. He just clapped his hands together in a very excited manner.

“You didn’t pull it off!!” he beamed, if his smile wasn’t bright before, it’s definitely bright now, even blinding with the amount of energy in it.

“Well yeah. It didn’t bother me and it does look pretty nice” Phantom said kinda truthfully. Cyko seemed to beam less now, it’s like what he said calmed him down.

“Oh uh, glad you like it then.”

“Also how come you didn’t go chaotic with it this time?” Phantom said, the thought he had about it before came back. How come he was so tame this time?

“I can still make up for it” Cyko took that as a challenge.

“Oh, hell no”

“You asked for it” Cyko raised his hands while shrugging. That’s when Phantom noticed that Cyko had something pink on his left hand.

“Wait- what’s on your left hand?

Cyko moved his left hand to Phantom. He knew it may seem suspicious but it would be even more so if he hid it.

“You have the same bow” Phantom exclaimed then took Cyko hand in his own hands, to inspect the bow better. Which flustered Cyko but Phantom was luckily too distracted with staring at Cyko’s left hand.

“Yeah… I- I thought it would be nice and all”

“How so?” Phantom looked up to Cyko’s face from his hand, though he was still holding it. Cyko tried to swallow all his embarrassment before speaking.

“Well- you’re really important to me...a very special friend… who I wouldn’t want replaced” Cyko slowly looked away, thinking what he said was really stupid. Now it was Phantom’s time to be flustered and maybe just a little bit blushy.

“I didn’t know! You mean it?”

“Of course, Phanty!! You are like… best friend status at least” Cyko smiled, Phantom was feeling way too blessed from this. He held Cyko’s hand to his chest, as if to show how much that stupid little bow means to his heart. The way Phantom smiled had Cyko’s heart in twists of love, the feeling was so strong, and the way his hand was held felt timeless. With how lost he got in this blessed sight, he didn’t even notice the tears rolling down his cheeks. He really felt so much his body reacted to it. As soon as he noticed, he raised his right hand to his face to dry up his tears, still very confused as to why they were there. Though, maybe less confused and more flustered. Phantom noticed the movement from the corner of his eyes. He looked up a bit confused.

“Are you alright?”

“Yeah! Just teared up for some reason”

“Well, that’s strange” Phantom laughed in response. He didn’t even question it? Cyko was a bit dumbfounded.

“It’s really not though”

“What?” Phantom tilted his head in confusion. Cyko took a breath in before speaking.

“You make me happy like that”

Phantom was trying to think of a way to react but he honestly didn’t know how. No proper words could explain how he felt. They were stuck like this, just sharing this gaze, which radiated off that very vibe… the strong feelings they were feeling. Phantom was feeling it very strongly too but couldn’t tell what it was. He felt like he was so close to figuring it out. Yet so far too. It was bothering him now much more than before. But he can’t ask Cyko, can he? He may take it the wrong way, as if he’s in love with him or something. Wait… Is he? Oh god, is he really? Is it really it? Is it really why he’s been feeling like this for such a long while? The reason for these feelings he couldn’t tie to anything up until now? With how shocked he was feeling, he let go of Cyko’s hand. Is it really why he felt this sort of awe about Cyko, especially the way he fought, even making interesting ways of using his blades? And the way he would treat him so sweetly and pull him up from a bad mood just with a smile? He stumbled back a little, which Cyko noticed. He looked concerned but Phantom was too distracted to really pay attention to that.

“Are you alright?”

“I uhh…” He stumbled back even more, the realization hurting more and more. Sure he wanted to know why he felt the way he feels but this really isn’t the best time! It felt like his body did things on its own as he ran away, without another word, leaving Cyko sad and confused. All until he took it all in himself to go and talk to Phantom because this… This wasn’t quite like him at all.

Phantom ran home, his heart still in pain from the kind of things he was feeling and thinking. Why did Cyko have to be so cute, why couldn’t he just make a mess of his hair with all his stupid bows and and and…. He felt like crying. They are just friends, and that should be fine. Like… they’re still pretty close so why is he feeling this way now? Though, thinking back, it did always bother him… He just never realized why. The more he thought about it the more obvious it seemed to him. Wow, he was such a fool for not realizing sooner. He wondered… Did Cyko know before him? Eh, no, that’s stupid- but… But it would make sense? What if someone figured out and told Cyko and he did this to actually make fun of him? To make him think this really meant something and have him spill while laughing on the outside about how much he would’ve played Phantom… No. That’s so unlikely of Cyko… Sure, he can be pretty evil in his chaotic ways but he would never hurt him like that. Cyko does… care for him. At least he hopes. He’d never thought he’d doubt something like this but here we are. Suddenly he heard a knock on his front door. He didn’t reply, just eyed the door. He heard knocking again, this time a bit more desperate.

“Gh-Go away!!” Phantom yelled to him, his voice sounded so sad and upset. He didn’t even realize he was holding his tears back this much. It’s just a reflex he has, he’s not the type to cry after all… The knocking stopped which was… weird? Cyko doesn’t usually give up this easy. It’s not that he was playing hard to get right now, he just knew that it wasn’t very usual of Cyko. This really is strange… Phantom had a bad feeling this, which was burning him up from the inside. If the concerned tension he has created around himself could have a temperature, it would be burning his house down at this point. Maybe even the whole city… He unsurely started walking to the door. The closer he got the harder it was to take the next step. But he was really worried, no feelings of his was gonna stop him now when Cyko is not acting like himself. Soon enough, he found his hand on the door knob, his hand was slightly shaking. Does he really want to do this? Maybe he’s worried for nothing? Maybe Cyko gave up fast just this time for some reason? He’s even more nervous than before, slowly causing him to hesitate more and more- NO, he can’t- He can’t stall for longer, Cyko could be needing him and he’s just standing there helplessly. He finally hastily tries to open the door but it’s locked. Oh yeah, he forgot about that. He unlocked it then opened the door with less force now. To his surprise, he found Cyko sitting beside his door, cuddling his knees close to himself, with his head lowered on his legs. Phantom had seen this happen before, the fact that he had to see Cyko like this again tightened his chest uncomfortable, he was almost feeling sick. But it seemed like Cyko was even worse. He crouched down beside him, approaching him slowly.

“...Cyko?” he asked in a rather soft voice, trying to stay calm. It’s for Cyko, you can do this! Cyko didn’t reply, but seemingly tightened his hold on his legs.

“Cyko… I’m… I’m sorry for what I did…” he scooted a little closer, gently placing a finger on Cyko’s back, then gradually put down his whole hand on his back, then slowly hugging him with one arm. He knew that Cyko must have been feeling a lot then. He felt Cyko lean into his hold a little, though he still didn’t look up. That’s fine, all he needs is patience. He could stay here forever just for Cyko to be fine. He could stay with him forever… He hugged Cyko a little closer, it seemed like he wasn’t resisting. That’s good.

“Cyko…” he bit his lip, unsure what to say next “I’m… sorry I treated you like that… I shouldn’t have done it”

Cyko didn’t reply verbally but with action instead. He moved closer and pushed his head into Phantom’s chest. Phantom wrapped his other arm around Cyko. He tried his best to comfort Cyko, rubbing his back. What threw him off a little is Cyko hugging him back. But it did feel really comforting… He feels like his thoughts before were just out of being scared of rejection and humiliation. Seeing how Cyko got, had assured him that there’s nothing like that going on. Except the idea of confessing or ever bringing up his feelings were thoughts that still reminded him inside his mind to keep him on the edge. He felt Cyko’s grip tighten around him, which he didn’t think much of all until Cyko pulled and picked him up by his waist. He was surprised because they usually talk before doing anything like this. Though with the circumstances… It did kinda fluster him a lot more than it usually would. Being picked up by him just has this effect on Phantom. And he also didn’t have the strength in him to stop or yell at Cyko. He brought Phantom back inside and sat down with him on his couch. Then leaned back on Phantom without letting go of him.

“Cyko…?”

“Ph...Phantyy…” Cyko basically whimpered the last syllable of that sweet nickname. Phantom could tell that Cyko wasn’t quite there yet to speak.

“It’s fine” Phantom smiled as he then moved to pet Cyko’s hair. His finger lightly running through his soft hair, Cyko felt that so much more than usual. He swore he noticed himself leaning into Phantom’s touch. Phantom noticed that and decided that maybe playing with Cyko’s hair with both of his hands would be the best activity for him to wind himself down as well. Was it just him or did sitting with Cyko get suddenly warmer? As if Cyko turned into a human heater. He had no idea what happened but he wasn’t about to complain, Cyko’s warmth was making him feel sickly sweet, he actually loved it a whole lot… Almost made him forget about what happened before. The power Cyko has.... Even without seeing that sweet smile, just his presence was enough to make him feel things. But the thoughts he was trying to repress weren’t going anywhere. He himself felt that his face was heating up from all of this. Like, he just discovered his crush on Cyko and now they’re cuddling?? Not like they didn’t before but that… that was different. Or was it? Phantom slowly started to question each little activity he has done with Cyko so far and they all have this gay feeling to them. The more moments he can feel Cyko’s soft hair and comforting body heat, the gayer these memories get. It’s just all those subtle things he didn’t think much of before. He doesn’t know how he was able to ignore these feelings for this long. They feel so strong now, so alive. He wants to share it with Cyko so badly. And like… maybe… Phantom felt himself heating up even more. Just the thought of kissing has his ears and cheeks so red, calming down was not very easy… or possible at that if I’m honest. He was lucky he had Cyko with his face buried in his chest or otherwise he’d have a hard time explaining himself.

“Hey uh…” Though Cyko’s voice was a little muffled, Phantom could hear him well.

“Yeah?”

“Sorry for… freaking out”

“It’s alright… what matters is that you’re better now”

Cyko only hummed in response, if Phantom would’ve paid enough attention, he could’ve heard the flusteredness in Cyko’s voice but you know he didn’t. Or at least he didn’t know how to do it because he was that unaware. Y’know, like a fool.

“But… But are you alright?”

“Yeah...why wouldn’t I be?” Phantom was obviously lying and Cyko is better than that, just to believe those false words.

“You ran away from me… and you looked hurt” Cyko finally raised his head up, which prompted Phantom to look away.

“It’s nothing all that serious, don’t worry”

“Hard to believe with that face you make”

Phantom took a deep breath before replying.

“I’m not making any kind of faces”

“But you are?” Cyko tried to see Phantom’s face better to confirm. Though he was sure of Phantom not being alright, it didn’t hurt to make sure. But he was trying to do that with leaning closer, which raised questions in Phantom. All because he didn’t realize his intentions.

“I told you I’m not! And what are you doing?!?”

‘“Whoa I’m-” Cyko quickly grew flustered and pushed himself away from Phantom. He didn’t mean it like that but he realized that it did look pretty bad for him. Phantom kept his face away from Cyko.

“I uhhh…” Cyko tried to speak to make himself look better “I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just a little bit hard to tell how you feel when I can’t see your face”

“...” Phantom felt less tense now. Though he honestly wished Cyko did mean it… If he could just get a single kiss without the struggle and the idea that then Cyko would know how he felt. If he could just get a kiss to comfort himself a little from the pain he was feeling. A kiss so he would stop craving it so badly. Though he doubts that just one would make that stop. He would want more… and the opportunity to have a lot more. He just wants to be surrounded by Cyko’s love, have his love hide him from the world outside. The yearning was really making him feel things, huh?

Though Phantom wasn’t willing to speak, Cyko didn’t feel like leaving. His strong feelings were chaining him down, he just wanted to be around Phantom so badly, with Phantom also enjoying it. While the second part wasn’t really there, something pulled him back.

“Phanny..? Are you ok?”

“I- I told you I am… I’m ok, no need to worry about me”

“But you’re… not happy either… I can’t….” Cyko stopped himself before he started rambling about how much he loves Phantom’s smiles. Or how he loves him in general.

“You can’t what?” Phantom turned back to Cyko, the curiosity got the best of him.

“Nevermind…”

“Cyko…. don’t do this to me”

“I just- don’t wanna say, that is all. It’s… really not the time for me to do this..” Cyko got up but he was brought right back down by Phantom.

“I meant it. Don’t do this to me” Phantom sounded so serious, for some reason, he really wanted to know what Cyko wanted to say. And also desperately wanted him to stay.

“But-”

“Please” his one word sounded more like a command than a plea, though it was still definitely filled with desperation. And the way he looked at Cyko…. He felt things from it.

“Well...when you’re happy you smile…. and I can’t see it right now, no matter how much I want to” Cyko confessed, it really did feel like a confession. Which he realized only after saying it, feeling like the last few words weren’t necessary for him to say.

“You like my smiles?”

“Yeah uhmm…” Cyko was trying to think of a way to say it without sounding too gay “You just kinda brighten my days with them” and he failed at not sounding gay.

“I… I see, I’ll keep that in mind” yes, it was Phantom’s turn at failing at not sounding gay. Which Phantom realized right after those words slipped out through his lips.

“Like I’ll do that because uh… to uh…” Phantom slowly hid his face because he’s really not gonna make himself look any better at this rate. Cyko was simply speechless. The fact that Phantom replied like that… he looked like he was about to explode because of the overwhelming love inside him that he felt for Phantom.

“Thanks” is that all he really can say? “That means a lot to me… like uh… you” the words couldn’t stop, no matter how much Cyko didn’t want to say them. “Ah, I’m an idiot” he facepalmed himself. That was when something hit Phantom

“Wait… why would you be an idiot?”

“Saying too much” Cyko didn’t even dare to look at Phantom, he was looking completely the other way.

“Well, the… the more things you say, the more obvious things become…”

“Like my feelings for you…” Cyko completely turned away “I guess I wasn’t the best at hiding them, was I…”

“That’s fine”

“Huh?”

“I...I had my time to figure it out as well” Phantom played with the bow on his ring finger, wearing a soft smile.

“Wait wait wait wait….wait you…”

“I really like you, Cyko”

“I-” Cyko turned back to Phantom at this point. The sight of Phantom’s soft smile and his words gave him such a sudden boost of happiness. He couldn’t even say a thing, he was just that happy.

“I mean it… I don’t think anyone ever could make me happy like you”

Cyko placed his bow ringed hand on Phantom’s, which prompted Phantom to look up to Cyko. Cyko raised Phantom’s hand and gave it a soft kiss, Phantom blushed brightly, shocked. Though he wanted more, Cyko only gave him a teasy smile.

“That’s it?” Phantom made a pleading face at Cyko, which made him feel extremely blessed. With all this happiness fuel, he could blow up the Sun. Then Cyko took Phantom’s other hand and held each of them to his face, cupping it by his cheeks. Phantom didn’t wait for a word or any other move from Cyko, he kissed him. Cyko didn’t expect to see Phantom’s face so close so fast, he couldn’t even properly react to the kiss because Phantom kept it short. Even then he needed a few moments to properly comprehend the soft lips that came and left, just like that.

“Hey, I didn’t even have time to react” Cyko pouted, though he wasn’t at all mad about it, no, in fact he may have been a little embarrassed that he didn’t manage to.

“Maybe next time” Phantom laughed at him. That’s it, he has set off Cyko. Cyko pinned Phantom down, and before Phantom could even gasp, he kissed him. But Cyko didn’t go as easy as Phantom did before. He kept there for longer and didn’t stop at one. But Phantom welcomed it, with open arms which he wrapped around Cyko’s back. Then he showered Phantom with kisses, not only his lips, but cheeks, nose, neck and everywhere he had the chance to, treating him to the softest kisses he had ever had. The softness of these kisses made Phantom giggle, which was music to Cyko’s ears. It was such a unique experience, to hear Phantom laugh because of something like this. Cyko rose up from all the kissing, to face Phantom from a little bit of distance.

“You’re so adorable” Cyko was practically beaming.

“You too’ Phantom looked away a little shyly.

“It feels so nice to say it! I can finally give you even more nicknames”

“Like?”

“Phanty-cutie, Phanny-pie, Phanny-panny or maybe even… Phan-cakes…”

“Cyko, please don’t get this creative” Phantom was so close to laughing from Cyko’s ridiculous ideas.

“Alright alright, Darkshine….or maybe Phan-ass” Cyko laughed to himself about his wonderful ideas.

“All of these are horrible. I love them”

“You’re gonna have to be ready for nicknames like these if you’re gonna date me”

“I had a feeling”

“You wanna, right?”

“Oh absolutely. I never wanted anything so badly”

“Then it’s official, you’re my darkstar boyfriend now”

“I like that… makes me sound cool”

“You’re gonna be too cool”

“Impossible. I can’t simply be too cool”

“But you’d make me fall for you even moooore”

“Too bad” Phantom laughed. He got another kiss from Cyko as a response.

“Should we tell the others?”

“Let’s chill and kiss for a while before doing that”

“Alright, I’m all up for that!”

And so they did, for who knows how long. Time can fly when you’re so in love.

#cykophan #fluff fic #not like I would write anything else with them tbh #they deserve happiness

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