sea6son6all6

[sea6son6all6]

I feel like an idiot constantly.

[sea6son6all6]

And I once again feel like just a shitty ass person..

[sea6son6all6]

I have a best friend who i never know how to talk to

[sea6son6all6]

I'm a shitty person. I should just die.

[sea6son6all6]

I feel like I should just shut up always.

[sea6son6all6]

Already pissed him off

[sea6son6all6]

I don't want to wake up early

I don't want to go to work

I don't want to shower

I don't want to get dressed

I don't want to go out

I don't want to bother anyone

I want to stay in bed. I want to be drunk. I want to feel stuck in the dips in my mattress. Want to feel the dizziness while I just look into the ceiling. Want to stay still like a lead weight in complete silence. Warm, held by cloth, in solitude.

[sea6son6all6]

Idk why you follow this account. It's just my diary when things are bad.

[sea6son6all6]

I feel hopeless.

Like pushing all the people I love away so I can stop existing in their lives so I don't feel guilty ending my existence in my own.

[sea6son6all6]

Didn't realize how fucking triggering my own blog was to myself but here I am

[sea6son6all6]

Feeling like mega shit yo kinda want to disappear and dieeeeeeee

[sea6son6all6]

I feel like dieing.

[sea6son6all6]

With my s/o I'm always the one asking to spend time together and being told not today. Like I've asked every day this week and everyday he's said no

I always feel like my aunt and cousins prefer my brother around, like they'd rather i dropped dead than to have him not visit them.

I feel used completely by my mom and brother who I pay for everything for because neither of them work

I want to die. I really do.

I feel unwanted...

Wondering how long I'd have to disappear before someone would even want me back or if anyone ever even would.

[sea6son6all6]

I feel unwanted...

Wondering how long I'd have to disappear before someone would even want me back or if anyone ever even would.

[sea6son6all6]

I'm so fucking dumb to think anyone would actually want me.

[sea6son6all6]

I want to disappear. I shouldn't have come.

[sea6son6all6]

My chest hurts..