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"I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy" nah fuck that I would. Actually if I could choose to have any superpower, I'd want the power to make people feel whatever I've felt at any point of my life, at my choice. Someone mildly inconveniences me, I'm letting them have 30 minutes of being five years old and trying to learn how to cry silently because you know nobody's coming to help you and if someone hears you, they're coming to make it worse. Fuck you and your eyebrows.

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My first talk about transness was 'if you ever mutilate yourself like that I'll take you out myself ' so yeah

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I feel this in my bones,I've always slid around a bit in my sense of gender but it's always been a mix.

Feral though....that is gender.

trans autist rambling

since fennah is my special interest it has warped my perception of the world and basically every aspect of myself, and something i've noticed is that it's changed how i view the human body, especially women. i find myself drawn towards women who's body would be well adapted to the kivouack (strong, larger figure, mix of muscle and fat). and since i myself was born female i have begun to see it in myself. when i look in the mirror when im naked it's pleasing to deliberately disengage from earthly principles of beauty and view myself as a singular creature, like how all kivas are distinct. my body type is weird and i've not seen it represented by any character but harlow comes the closest. it's comforting to know that in the kivouack i'd be a hot piece of tail. idk.

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Put up or shut up

LIKE TO CHARGE REBLOG TO CAST LET'S GET THIS FUCKER EXPLODEDED

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I want you to remember:

The fascists hate you too and they just will pretend otherwise until after they've killed the rest of us, before they turn on you.

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The problem w writing fiction is that you'll be like tee-hee I'm going to write a story about a fucked up little scenario that's got nothing to do with anything in real life, just some pure messed up nonsense, and then you finish it and take a step back and go aw rats I made a metaphor again

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This is something I dreamed of before even knowing the terms for it. Just being someone drawn to both science and science fiction. This is tech that is within reach but we are using to grow human brains to run supercomputers instead without a second thought to the ethics of a potentially conscious HUMAN BRAIN

Cybernetics

Whenever I go through periods of painful beautification rituals about my body that probably borders on some definition of unhealthy I think about cybernetics. In Cyberpunk, cybernetics are often portrayed one of two ways.

Combat augments. Shooty go bang bang kill kill kill. While not usually my cup of tea it's a valid interpretation of how human augmentation augments everything human, including our capacity for violence.

Exploration of how they interface with our humanity. The classic Pondsmith style of augmentation as a portrayal of addiction and the inherent unhealthiness of seeking to be 'better' than others through physical means. Of the two I frequently see, this is my preferred.

But then I look at the raw, thrumming skin left behind after I epilate and I think about what I would give to have control over my body. I can work out, I could potentially get gender affirming treatments (unlikely, given I'm a guy that identifies as a guy and just wants to look less like a guy), and a thousand small other things.

But the idea of arms that don't grow hair, a face that I can change daily, hair that grows and changes color without damaging it with dyes. It's a dream, but one that, if it were achievable, I would probably do a lot of things I wouldn't normally to get.

It's not often directly stated in Cyberpunk media, but I think a setting in which you functionally, with resources, can alter everything about yourself until your appearance matches your identity, no matter how fluid, it's a dream I would chase.

The meat isn't me. I'm just stuck in it.

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I still feel you.

Feel you like I feel the song I'm playing too loud in the empty can I'm holding.

Feel you like the sudden absence when the power goes out, and the room falls silent as the sounds you take for granted cease.

Feel you like I feel myself losing control, as I know I will only feel regret later.

Feel you as I feel a storm rolling in,the trees swaying as I wish I could be the storm.

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Ok gotta talk about it.

As a Jewish historian, I fucking hate Israel in ways most probably will never be able to comprehend. I'm going to try and explain it anyways. The central creation myth of Israel is that it is Jewish, and then consequently, that Israel is a part of Jewishness. Its easy to simply state this is false, but fully comprehending this and putting it into practice in thought and deed seems rare to me.

The evil at the heart of this violence predates the recent acceleration of genocide. Israel is a colony, and more than that, an antisemitic fraud itself. After WW2, when Israel was being founded, the Jews of Europe generally did not wave goodbye to their neighbors and head to the promised land. Many were expelled from their homes. Zionism itself, as an action, was a false choice at the time. A mere excuse to place an ally in the middle east, and an excuse to complete the expulsion and destruction of the European Jew. The Zionist Jew is more than complicit in this, they actively seek the destruction and assimilation of all other Jews.

Many fail to realize, and largely because of Israel, that Jews are not inherently white, Ashkenazi, European-descended people. Our faith and culture has an immense variety that is spread all across the globe. Jewishness, in population and volume of culture, exists more so outside of Israel than within it. Israel is for a very specific kind of Jew. The kind that lets Yiddish die, that attaches themselves to European things, that makes themselves and their practices as white as possible.

And they have the nerve, the fucking belligerent GALL, to frame themselves as the necessary saviors of our people. To the Zionist, questioning Israel is to question Jewishness itself. They bake adoration for the colonial machine into their very prayers, and push them on us even as children. To *not* oppress, to *not* kill, to *not* genocide, is to invite death. This is the core of fascistic thought, of course. "Kill them before they kill us." And they KNOW this too, they really do. The truth of that irony does not matter, because as is true for all fascists, the truth itself does not matter to them. They wanted this, they wanted this even before the British saw it in their best interest to give them the land. Any excuse to RETVRN, as the neo-nazis say of Rome, or the German Empire, or whatever the fuck stupid country they want to poorly animate the corpse of. Some select Zionists even *sided with the fucking Nazis* in agreement they should abandon Europe to colonize Palestine. (Haavara Agreement)

My people have proved time and time and time again you don't need a nation state to have an enduring culture. We have protected ourselves for thousands of years without the help of these spiteful, doom-saying maniacs. I was going to post something like this on Passover, but that would be hypocritical. The state of Israel doesn't actually have shit to do with Jewishness. שְׁמַע יִשְׂרָאֵל יְה Vi tsu derleb ikh im shoyn tsu bagrobn. [my best translation] Hear Israel (beginning of a prayer in Hebrew) I should outlive him long enough to bury him. (an old Yiddish curse)

Free Palestine. Donate what you can, they need it right now.

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The Lemkin Institute for Genocide has released a statement saying that Israel is committing genocide in Gaza and the United States is complicit. The statement was released in the aftermath of the horrific attack on a refugee camp in Rafah

In April, Lemkin also issued a genocide alert for the West Bank

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Edit: if you care about this conflict, I encourage you to interact with some of my, uh, better written stuff such as:

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Well well well 🍉

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I hope western leftists know that standing for a free Palestine is not the end of decolonization. I've seen far too many white leftists who proudly stand for freeing Palestine which is good but then get nervous and apprehensive at the idea of decolonizing the very land they are on. Norway will recognize Palestine but actively tear down Sámi liberation. Liberation for one people means it for us all. If you support Palestinian liberation but deny it for the Indigenous people of the land you're on then you didn't stand for Palestinians or any of us to begin with.

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Shame about that electrical fire,shame if there'd be shorts in the wires anywhere else.

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"1000 kids lost limbs to bombs in Gaza"

Graffiti written on a "pro-life" billboard in Medford, Oregon