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THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

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DID THIS BITCH REALLY REMAKE AGAIN ?

a multimuse,

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

THIS BLOG IS NOW AN ARCHIVE.

find me over at @loadcd

[schmerzisimsa]

DID THIS BITCH REALLY REMAKE AGAIN ?

a multimuse,

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prob this weekend im gonna do a soft overhaul and add the muses i want from oitnb, arrested devel.opment, league(?), maybe some new ocs, WHO KNOWS

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happy pride month

instagram @stefanieshank

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eightiesphone.

           HE  TRULY  COULD  make  a  fool  of  himself  &&  she’d  find  a  light  to  it .  his  soft  agreement  doesn’t  get  her  down  ——  in  fact ,  it  just  leaves  her  hoping  &&  grasping  at  something  that  just  might  not  be  there .            ❝            sounds  like  plan !  just ,  like ,  call  me  whenever ,  then .  i  don’t  have  anything  major  planned  for  off  -  season ,  anyway .            ❞

           with  the  gentle  nudge  she  flourishes ,  a  soft  sway  in  response  &&  a  gentle  nudge  back ,  before  she  flicks  the  length  of  blonde  locks  over  her  shoulder .  there’s  a  playful  few  giggles  that  fly  free  of  a  smile  brought  to  cherry  lips .  blue  eyes  are  on  him  in  an  instant .            ❝           TODAY ?  uh ,  i  was  planning  to  maybe  stop  by  the  movies  later  &&  try  to  get  some  free tickets  off  of  jaundice .  maybe  go  shopping  with  elizabeth .  nothing  too  important ,  so  don’t  worry .            ❞            (  she  hadn’t  planned  for  either  of  those .  it’s  a  white  lie  that’s  spit  from  a  tongue  that’s  grown  accustomed  to  her  like  it  were a  second  language .  )            ❝            what  about  you ?  busy  day ?            ❞

   steven has his fair share of girls to string along, but amanda    would always be his FAVORITE ! ( was this a good thing, or a    bad thing, really ? ) he can relish in how successful he’s been    every time words come from her lips -- 

   ❝ right, jaundice. ❞ visible disgust, ❝ careful about him -- most    boys, actually. they’ll probably EXPECT something in return. ❞    implying ‘ not himself ’ of course.    he’s right in doubting the truthfulness of her agenda, but says    nothing, only acknowledging it with a soft hum. ❝ -- oh, me ? ❞    for the most part, steven is ALWAYS busy. between sports &    his father, rest was few & far between. ❝ i’m responsible for a    one tobias varsity tonight. maybe if you wanna ditch little lizzie,    we can suffer in his presence together. ❞ steven was laying it on    quite thick today -- but then again, who wanted to be around that    brat ALONE, anyway ?

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me: i promise not to go out into the woods of rural maryland and lose the map and end up at the blair witch’s house

me after two drinks:

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hi ! exciting news ! i have an apartment leased with my closest bro and we’re going to be moving in during august. that being said : i’m working hella hours while i’m on gap so if i fall short during the school year i don’t have to stress about not making rent. my activity at the moment is very slim while i adjust to this ! this is the important stuff, under the cut, however, is me rambling.

my apartment is only 455 a month with furniture and utilities included. it’s actually super nice on the inside, too, it’s just the outside is kinda yucky. also it’s 250 per pet regardless of the pet, so my hamster and two birds are gonna cost me a lot, and i’m still not sure what to do about that. also i’m too excited, i keep buying little decorations even though i’m three months out. ahhh.

sadly, the apartments we wanted were 600 a month and it was just too much, especially since a lot of the utilities weren’t included and it also wasn’t furnished. i didn’t mind buying furniture it’s just that when a place is 150 cheaper and comes with double the stuff, why wouldn’t you? the other place was nicer and closer but sacrifices, i guess. i’m too excited to be disappointed, really.

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mtrny.

❝  i’ll take you to disney NEXT TIME,  ❞  meg replies, amusement tinging her voice. she buckles up as he starts to reverse, force of habit from jack ALWAYS demanding everyone wore their belts ( ‘ just cause we’re criminals, doesn’t mean we’re STUPID ’ ).   ❝  a HEADACHE, really ?  have you TRIED worked with any of the others from the fake ah crew ?  they’re the WORST.  ❞    

she LOVED the crew but by god, they could be LOUD. so could meg but when it was lads vs gents, all HELL broke loose.   ❝  if it stains, i’ll PAY for it, don’t worry your pretty little head.  ❞

   he’s not so well versed when it comes to talking whilst     driving. often he’s driving someone who’s stone cold,    doesn’t want to chit - chat. ❝ i’ll hold you to that, turney. ❞    ❝ -- i’ve only met the select few. & usually alone. ❞ tarbin    hasn’t anything to do with deals or plan making. he gets    the location, & drives to & fro. ❝ i’d rather them, though.    like, if my ears bleed, that’s fine, right ? ‘cause at least i    could understand most of what they’re saying ! ❞     his speed shifts the closer they head into the city, aiming    to blend in with traffic for this one. ❝ wow, & they say     chivalry is dead. ❞ sunglasses are moved from his eyes    to rest in his hair. ❝ what’d ya do in there, anyway ? i never    get the fun details. ❞

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* soft angst starters

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’

‘ i loved you. ’