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[scarlet-lady]

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I’m scared to see Barbie with my partner.

I’m scared because she experienced girlhood and I did not. No—I ran from it, my father’s wrong ideas and conflicting words clanking against each other in my pockets like loose change—I hate the way pennies make my hands smell. Like iron, like blood.

He told me I could be anything, but Barbie could not. He told me I was different—that I was extraordinary.

And then he fed this lie to three more daughters, and they obliged him, like cattle at the trough.

I grew up thinking I was Barbie, but better. I called her tacky—I thought the girls who played with her and loved her and wanted to be her were brainless and cheap—I would stick to my Legos, and action figures, and video games. I would beg my mother for Beyblades so I might battle the boys in the morning before getting on the bus. I would relentlessly commit myself to softball and soccer and being the best in P.E. (though I never came close).

And then one day, they all wanted Barbie. And I wasn’t her. I had never been her before, and I couldn’t understand it—what changed? What they had valued before—boys, my father, my mother—became something else entirely.

And I wasn’t it.

Suddenly, on top of all these other things, I also had to be girly. I also had to be pretty. I had to know how to wash my face and curl my hair and how to stop being a friend and start being a game. I learned there was nothing wrong with Barbie—in fact, Barbie was the goal, because she could do all the things I had done and still be a girl.

But I could not.

I changed, slowly and quietly, but never enough. And I’ll never know if I changed because I wanted to, or because I had to. I’ll never know if I adapted to their rules, or if I wrote my own after I lost to theirs. I’ll never know if I was the creator, and therefore, I never will be.

Whatever childhood it was I experienced could not be shown back to me in a theater—I had Barbies, but I was never proud of them. I never loved them. I opened them excitedly on Christmas, and profusely thanked the adults, but I knew what my father thought of this, and I could not rightfully enjoy this gift of girlhood if I wanted him to love in me.

And now he asks me why he sees himself when he looks at me, why he sees masculinity where there should be femininity, and I don’t have the heart to tell him all I ever wanted was to please him—that this macaroni-art gender I wasted all my time on was so that I would be more relateable to him, more likable.

Lovable.

So as I don my pink and curl my hair and paint my face pretty and sit in a theater, watching the ghost of what could have been join hands with the person who is, I will feel, in that moment, woman, and afterwards, carry out the sleeping little boy who finally got to embrace a doll—a doll who was not just girl, and not just woman, but everything.

The next day, I will buy myself two��one for both of us.

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Round 7 : The Duality of Qin and Hades

I don't think there was any other round conclusion that left me that confused at first. I mean... why did Hades died so tragically when he was fighting for his family and to honor his dead brother's memory, motives that usually tend to be some huge green flags in those kinds of mangas ? And then I realized the answer was right there : Hades was doomed to lost like this precisely because he was fighting for the honor of his family. To understand what I mean, you had to take a look at Hades and Qin as characters

Let's begin with Hades. He is at his core a tragic figure and this well before his actual downfall. From the moment he's introduced into the plot, Hades is defined above all through one thing : Duty. He's one of the most feared and respected gods of Valhalla, someone on which everyone rely and the Ruler of Helheim.

And this is his tragedy because Hades does not assume the responsibilities and duty that come with his status, he endures them and lets them define his entire life.

His whole language is always axed about how he has to do this or how he can't lose that just because that's who he is, never because that's his own choice.

Hades has no desire to avenge Poseidon. He's emotionally exhausted (look at the bags under his eyes), he admitted not having fought for a long time and more importantly : He damn well knows that Poseidon couldn't care less about being avenged. But he has to fight anyway because it's his inherent duty as an older brother, his vow is part of who he is.

He wasn't supposed to fight in the Ragnarok and didn't even want to kill Qin against whom he hold no real grudge. Quite the opposite, he even comes to sympathize with him and admiring him. But he still chooses to fight without hesitation since it's his duty as a god and king of the Netherworld. He can't lose against a mere king of men.

And that's where Qin comes in.

His introduction actually sums him up perfectly : We see him making his own way by breaking through walls into the gods' VIP lodges instead of waiting in his room ; he ragdolled Ares who tried to force him to leave ; and when Brunhilde asks him to follow her to the entrance gate, here's his answer

This is his core character : Qin doesn't care about traditions and expectations. He doesn't follow the path that is expected of him, he traces his own road (literally and metaphorically) and makes no compromises with anyone, whether they are gods or humans.

When confronted to Chi You, a tyrannical demon god who oppresses his country and people, Qin doesn't resign himself to accept it like previous kings did, he actively fights against this status quo and forces it to bend to his notion of duty

It can be long (his fight with Chi You literally take six days), it can be painful but this is how he proceeds and that's his greatest source of pride. He's not defined by his status as king, he's the one who defines what it means to be one

This is an essential component of his backstory and Round 7 writing. When we meet Qin as a child, he's the radical opposite of the one we know : He doesn't try to impose himself as a person and rather immediately conforms to the expectations of those around him.

Chun Yan scolds him for not acting like a child should ? He forces himself to act as such to satisfy her. His guards and the locals of Zhao use him as a scapegoat for the people they've lost ? He apologizes and endures hatred and excruciating pain because that's what is expected from him. That he passively endures

You know where I'm going with this : Little Qin is basically Hades' foil. Both represses their feelings to conform themselves to duty and exterior expectations, which make them utterly miserable (which isn't that apparent for Hades yet but I'm coming to this).

However, Qin grew up from this through his meeting with Chun Yan, which made him realize something that will forge him into a king

A lesson Alvitr will also remind him at the end of his fight by asking him to say clearly what he wants when he started to doubt of himself. Something to which Qin just answered : "I want to win... No matter what !"

One wants to win because he has made a promise from his own will, the other has to win since his vow define him.

Because Hades never learnt that lesson and always suffered from it. I've seen a lot of people praising him for how cool and badass of a big brother he is in his backstory, for wiping out a whole army of titans to protect his siblings but imo this is just sad. Instead of talking to his family about this threat and trying to find a solution together, he immediately assumes that he has to deal with them alone, even tho he knows that they are too much and he might actually die.

And when Poseidon asks him if everything's okay, he isn't even able to ask for help or just look at his brother when he's lying to him

But miraculously this time he managed to win this battle, thanks to his trump card : Ichor Eos. An ability that highlights how self-destructive Hades is when it comes to protect his duty and family. To activate this trump card, he has to hurt himself and bleed. Fulfilling his duty literally requires from him to sacrifice himself.

And despite this, Hades still insists that everything is fine afterwards. No matter how heavy his burden is, he will never be defeated because that's what the world expects from him

Except he did. Sadly this time, his burden was too heavy and he got destroyed in the process. Hades died and not even in a satisfying way. Just compare with the others fighters' death :

Lu Bu died feeling joy for the first time in his life, happy to finally fighting an equal

Adam lost with a peaceful smile on his face, knowing that he did his best to protect his children

Poseidon was bitter in his last moments but held on to his pride until the end

Heracles remained faithful to what he is and inspired Jack to become a better person

Raiden had the best sumo fight of his life and vanished with the woman he loved

Zerofuku finally got to be happy too

Nikola gave the most wholesome speech ever known to Mankind after making science evolved once again

And Leonidas was proud, having proven that Sparta will always be the strongest

But Hades ? Nothing of that

In his last moments, he was convinced of having let his family down and being a failure as a result, apologizing to them for this just before disappearing forever under their eyes.

And the most painful part of this is that Hades was the only one to see himself as such. The members of his family may have admired him for his strength and his willingness to make any sacrifice for the honor of gods but they still loved him first and foremost as a person. Adamas was ready to throw away his own pride as a god (the thing Hades literally died for) by killing a crippled half-dead Qin for winning in a fair fight. Hermes composed a requiem in his memory and Zeus was both heartbroken and sorry to hear his last words. He knew his brother had nothing to apologize for but realized that the latter didn't.

At the end of the day, Hades didn't lost this battle of kings just because Qin was stronger. He lost because Qin was the better king and learn to find worth in himself rather than in what people expected from him, while Hades let his responsibilities consume him throughout his whole life.

[scarlet-lady]

Help! Ao3!

Help! Someone please tell me if something happened to ao3, twitter was banned in my country and I can't access the news!

Today is September 2nd.

[scarlet-lady]

Necesitamos un fanfic de O11ZE reaccionando a Blue Lock.

La serie o11ze/Once (Disney), en mi opinión (pero respeto a quienes no están de acuerdo), realmente retrata el fútbol como un deporte de compañerismo y trabajo en equipo. Imagínense a Gabo cambiando por completo su visión del fútbol con los ideales de Jinpachi Ego sobre el egoísmo.

Imagínense a los chicos de IAD viendo la evolución de los jugadores de Blue Lock. Verlos llegar mucho más lejos de lo que nunca llegaron.

Realmente espero que alguien haga esto algún día.

[scarlet-lady]

I'm really looking forward to finding someone who does a Spiderverse imagine with a spider person s/o what's like Kakashi Hatake, with hair that defies the laws of gravity, reading Jiraiya porn everywhere, making the lameest excuses when he's late, having Chakra....

I think Hobie would like Reader Kakashi precisely because Reader doesn't care what others think, unlike Sakumo, Reader Kakashi doesn't care what people say, this can be seen in his habit of reading pornography outdoors.

Imagine spider reader Kakashi being responsible for Konohamaru when Ebisu gets sick and having to take him to HQ and Konohamaru doing the sexy jutsu in front of the spiders? Just imagine Miguel's reaction 😂😂😂😂

Just imagine, Hobie, Pavitr, Gwen and Miles visiting the Kakashi reader's universe, I think Hobie would hate the ninja village system, because technically they are a military dictatorship.

They eating Ichiraku's miracle Ramen for the first time🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

And the reader taking care of Mayday.

If someone made an imagine like that, I would be ecstatic!

[scarlet-lady]

EAH x TWIST

I'm thinking of an AU where EAH is one of the three big schools in Twisted Wonderland, but for girls only, of course some male EAH characters will still appear.... If there was an MC going to EAH in the same year as Yuu..... What would she look like? How would she get to EAH's world? Does she have any connection with any important disney character? Because Yuu seems, somehow, to have some connection with Mickey Mouse. How would she become EAH's student even without magic? And how would she be essential to the plot?

[scarlet-lady]

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Can anyone name fun facts about Raven Queen that few people know?

I'm making some twisted wonderland character sheets for the girls of Ever After High (and others) and I need more fun facts about Raven.

[scarlet-lady]

EAH

question : If Hunter was a girl, what would his name be?

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Obrigada!

Ever After High

Question: If these Ever After High characters lived in Twisted Wonderland, what would their signature spell be?:

•Blonde Locks

•Briar Beauty

•Apple White

•Faybelle Thorn

•Raven Queen

•Madeline Hatter

[scarlet-lady]

thanks for the suggestions! I'm making an AU of Ever After High x Twisted Wonderland so good writers can develop fanfuc through it (AU).

Ever After High

Question: If these Ever After High characters lived in Twisted Wonderland, what would their signature spell be?:

•Blonde Locks

•Briar Beauty

•Apple White

•Faybelle Thorn

•Raven Queen

•Madeline Hatter

[scarlet-lady]

Ever After High

Question: If these Ever After High characters lived in Twisted Wonderland, what would their signature spell be?:

•Blonde Locks

•Briar Beauty

•Apple White

•Faybelle Thorn

•Raven Queen

•Madeline Hatter

[scarlet-lady]

Has anyone identified with this song?

the english version is great, but the portuguese version enchanted me....

I'm talking about the song "the cat's meow" from "Barbie the Princess and the Pauper"

I'm going to put the lyrics of the Portuguese version here.... It's very beautiful, it does justice to the movie, I guarantee it.

is this:

🎼I see when it doesn't feel right

don't try to hide

chic is not

so,

why are you trying to be?

because you are more than what you do

if you could only see...

Wolfie: meow..?

Erika: no!

🎼Listen.... if you bark, don't mind

come smile, be strong

come feel what your heart wants!

when you feel different

just look ahead

and seek another opinion!

King Dominick:Princess Anneliese?

🎼Come play, run, jump

release your own being!

your meow is so nice!

I know it's you!

🎼No need to use a tape

or please visit

if it turns out to be a very normal feline!

when chasing your tail, whatever side

it's awesome, everything is so special!

🎼I don't even want to touch up a hair of your hair

I love you just like that and I always will

I will always love.....