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i started hrt three months after hearing 333 by tinashe

i listened to 333 constantly all day for months

tinashe is my favorite artist of all time

highlights of my twenties

meeting and falling in love with my wife

friendships with sarena and jared

transitioning

tinashe

honorable mentions: bayonetta, dirt rally, blue wish resurrection/desire, danmaku unlimited 3, moon rpg

almodóvar, christian petzold, jonathan glazer, bong joon-ho, shin godzilla/ultraman/kamen rider

i barely watched any movies compared to 15-19. never as bad as 20 though. played a lot of games. got into dark souls at 20. dark souls is top 3 for age 20, behind meeting my wife and tied with/beating surviving open heart surgery.

i love myself :-)

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i first heard

tinashe at 22

arca at 24

sophie at 25

scott walker at 26

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i love being a woman

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damn i always think i'm weird as fuck however should you read anything i posted from two years ago....... i was fucking weird as hell wth

i was quite possibly at my dang weirdest then...

peak normal was sixth grade (still weird as fuck but often normal-passing) and 21 to 22. the ~22 masking burned me down. i was like-19 again. got my autism caught at 22. i stopped having a real job at 23 until 26. that felt like it could go on forever. i got married at 25.

i started a one-day-weekly job at 26, began transition at 27. chose my name at 28. quit rudely my lame job under a dad who looks at 14 year olds. stupid gross fuck.

i became normal when i switched to injections at 29. i remembered my rape at 29. being a teenager was definitely worse. but my twenties were fucked up and soul-draining.

i am scared for the world. i was scared for the world at 19. the world did not improve over that ten years. it in fact got worse in unexpected ways. 19 was a peak and a low point. as is 29. i think i love myself.

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the way i called this...

it's insane how normal and hot im going to be

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the bee's earth dwarfs my own

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when i fall asleep with you i am so reassured i am happy and warm next to you my back to you your back to mine so close we take turns dreaming asleep together

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writing is the destruction of the author's idea. reading is their reconstruction

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i think i could name ten fav consoles before i got to N64. perhaps it would be #10

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reading is better than getting high

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there will always be an excuse to get high. if i wanted to stop

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i have got to wake up earlier on work days bc spending all day at work is so depressing

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not going to eat LITERALLY any of the snacks in the house tmrw

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gotta stop smoking weed it's making me anxious

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going to get high from bong and watch columbo tomorrow (self care)

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im so fucking stressed out lol

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i love my wife :-)