saumyasjain

[saumyasjain]

do you know me?

we are what we are, we can’t change that. love is all that we have, let’s embrace that. look in my eyes, take a look again. is just me or you feel the pain? the whole universe finds our destiny. all we can do is, make it all worthy.

[saumyasjain]

sometimes, all we need is hope.

when the sun went down I realised it was time to reflect. as I sat down in my balcony I felt broken somewhere somehow incomplete I looked at the sky fell for the view I said a lot of words to the clouds the heard it so maybe it will rain, rain that carries my emotions, my thoughts, my situations? I don’t know life shows some of the tough parts very soon I wish I lived vintage now that I’ve seen all this I live lost this all this deep it’s all I was feeling I want to fly I keep on dancing with earphones on no one watching it judging me they call it free dance just move to the music no steps tears coming out of my eye but a smile on my face nobody can guess what I was feeling I was mixed up this all continued until I saw the sun coming up again where a day began a day full of hope change & forgiveness a day we all wish for

[saumyasjain]

“Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that one can ever do.”

No it’s not just another self love article!

Don’t we actually feel like I am about to cry but what if someone saw me or asked me what happen. What will I answer? I can’t tell them about it cause it’s my secret! ~ I know we all think that.

I agree, we all have secrets. As dark as vantablack. You wanna keep it to yourself. It’s true you. What you do in your past brings you to a moment where you want to say let’s end this! Even if I change who’ll care and they still think I am the old me. Honestly I feel I am talking about my self here. You must be wondering, why is she exposing her life talks? Maybe because I came across many people with the same story and it felt as if I saw myself there, were all hurt,giving up,scared and screwed up. Most importantly scared of the society what will they think (trust me I am not thinking that anymore). However the worst part was the people I thought were friends weren’t there, seems like one-sided friendship now. Huh! As the summer went by...it’s was the first day of 8th grade. I was covered with my friends and I was in my head thinkin are they my friends? Months passed with me crying over my pillow,walking alone,sitting on the land hill top,watching the sunsets in sports. Then I realised I need self love,I need me in me. I felt no one is going to make you stand up so why don’t you? I did. But they say some times it’s just you,so be you. I started of with what I liked bad me happy but people around me were with a crooked smile which was more like a fake one. I was on a way of being a boss but the mistake I did was I became a bad-ass not on point mean. Took some time trying to be sweet even with those statues but yes I realised everyone can change! I did. I won’t lie that I got flashbacks of my old relationships but self love made me go through.

It was me for me and always the same. This was more like a fairy tale but made me understand the meaning of life. So,here’s a tip if you’re feeling hurt or hated. Whoever has watched Sanju will know this! ”kuch toh log kahenge,logo ka kam he kehena “

-Saumya Jain