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ꜰᴀɪᴛʜ ᴅᴇᴀɴ, ᴘᴀᴛʀᴏɴ ꜱᴀɪɴᴛ ᴏꜰ ɴᴏɴ-ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇʀꜱ

1.12 | A Prayer for the Non-Believer 

If God’s too busy, guess you can pray to me but I gotta be honest, I don’t exactly believe.

I’ve got questions, you see, ‘bout how this all works, who fixed my heart? and what did it cost?

Everything’s got a price, right? And ‘a life for a life’? That ain’t salvation, I say. No dice.

You know what I’ve got faith in? What I can see. Reality. What’s real? Is it you and me?

Wish I could peel back my skin, just to know my own heart, and, yeah, I’ve got questions, Like, 'Why’d you save me?’ for a start.

And, 'What did you see?’ And, 'Am I deserving? Why, O, why me?’

                    And was it good?

The blind-faith, healer-man says it’s all big picture. I got a purpose, I guess. Big job to do.

Maybe I’ll move Heaven and Hell, or just do this. Breathe a few prayers through sinful lips.

So, here we are, just us two, tell me your plight and I’ll see what I can do.

Can’t believe for me, but for you, yeah, I’ll pray. Down on my dirty knees for you, I’ll pray.

for @faithdeans 1k celebration. Had the idea for a faith!dean prayer card for a while and now was the time! While making this I searched to see if there already was such a saint. The answer was no, not really, because the non-believer wouldn’t pray to a saint. Well, I think Dean would make a great patron saint to the faithless. He gets it. He’ll try to help, knock on some doors upstairs, and if there’s no answer, well, he’ll find a way.     

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Forgive me if this doesn't make sense but

Dean understands himself. He is not drowning in internalized homophobia. He doesn't not know that he's into men. What Dean is, however, is a liar. He lies to everyone, all the time. I think this touches on the queer experience in a way we dont always see in media. We always talk about coming out and coming out scenes but why never talk about why we come out. It's because of how difficult the lying is. But deans lied about everything, all his life. Not just about his sexuality, or things related to hunting. But he lies (directly or by ommission) about the music he likes, the clothes he likes, literally everything, just to fit into this box of what everyone expects him to be. He understands himself, you just don't have the critical thinking skills to see past his lies, you take his word at face value even though the show has told you repeatedly that dean is a liar

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I'm sorry. Village hidden in the closet is hilarious.

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apollo justice has autism and klavier gavin is sooooooo disgustingly smitten with him. thats all

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"that show is queerbaiting" maybe you just aren't evolved enough to appreciate those freaks being homoerotic but i am

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eddie s8 catholicism arc revealed

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When I was “I want him” about a male character im not saying I wanna fuck him. I want him like a spoiled little girl wants a pony, I want to him so I can put him on my shelf for safekeeping, I want him like a good hearty stew on a winter’s evening, I want to put him in a jar and shake it.

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Cas did THAT.

Cas literally changed the way Dean saw himself. Cas did it.

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Supernatural if Sam actually listened to Dean

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bisexuality

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— happy valentine's day @shineforthee 💕

( in collaboration with @destielvalentineexchange2024 )

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You’ll be with me like a handprint on my heart and now whatever way our stories end, I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend