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[sarahkaliii]

not to sound bitter but i hope hurting me haunts you for years

[sarahkaliii]

sorry I always felt undesirable my entire life and it gave me kinks of wanting someone to desire me so extremely it's uncontrollable for them as if that's my fault

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"I can fix him" "I can make him worse" fuck if I know what I'm doing to him but he's barking now

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[sarahkaliii]

if you have a covered porch or deck that allows you to sit outside when its raining, fuuuuuuck yoooou

[sarahkaliii]

you don’t understand; being the one person the grumpy, strong man treats softly and with care WOULD fix me

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shut up i’m busy having a fake relationship with a fictional character right now

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sorry for being a hater i want to be a lover but everything pisses me off

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i am yet another product of the “child who was at best tolerated by the people around them” to “adult who is genuinely confused when people like spending time with them” pipeline

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[sarahkaliii]

i'd bleed out in front of u . if u asked me to .

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“I can fix him” I couldn’t fix him and I don’t want to. I think he grew prone to biting and scratching in order to get by in a harsh world, and to me his resilience is part of what makes him so beautifully himself. I could be kind to him, though. I could show him gentleness. I could, slowly but surely, in the same way one earns the trust of a skittish stray cat, convince him that my touch will never come accompanied by pain. That, around me, he can allow himself to be soft. To relax. I could be the one he associates with warmth and safety, the one he longs to be held by after a hard day. I could be his home.

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she’s probably sad bro just let her suck on your fingers for a bit

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I keep seeing people making fun of using growled, hissed, roared, snarled etc in writing and it’s like.

have you never heard someone speak with the gravel in their voice when they get angry? Because that’s what a growl is.

Have you never heard someone sharply whisper something through the thin space of their teeth? Or when your mother sharply told you to stop it in public as a kid when you were acting up/being too loud? Because that’s what a hiss is.

Have you never heard a man get so blackout angry that their voice BOOMS through the house? Because that’s what a roar is.

Have you never seen someone bare their teeth while talking to accentuate their frustration or anger while speaking with a vicious tone? Because that’s what snarling is.

It’s not meant to be a literal animal noise. For the love of god, not every description is literal. I get some people are genuinely confused, but also some of these people are genuinely unimaginative as fuck.

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Forget wanting to fix him. Keep him tormented. Give him a reason to go on and come back to lose himself in you.

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